Disclaimer: Harry Potter, the universe and the characters sprung J. K. Rowlings mind, and not mine. I don't own anything except the idea of this short Drabble, and the song "If you go away" belongs to the wonderful Emiliana Torrini (maybe you know her song "Gollums Song" from the LOTR soundtrack of "The two towers"?). I highly adore those two women and I would never want to offend them.
Warnings: This very very short Songfic is about slash, that means relationships between two male. If you don't like that kind of story, please don't write me homophobic reviews. Everybody can think about homosexuality as he/she likes. Accept it.
Rating: PG-13 because of slash. Nothing graphical, of course, just the hint of a relationship between RL and SB
A/N: Takes place directly after then night in POA, when Sirius had just been freed by Hermione and Harry. Remus has transformed into human form again and he thinks about the last hours. Just a drabble, so please don't complain about the shortness. And now: Enjoy it, and if you can, get that song. I love it. Its very melancholic and just what I need right now…
If you go away
If you go away
On this summer day
Then you might as well
Take the
sun away
All the birds that flew
In the summer sky
When our
love was new
And our hearts were high
And the day was young
And
the night was long
And the moon stood still
For the night
bird's song
If you go away
But if you stay
I'll make
you a day
Like no day has been
Or will be again
We'll sail
the sun
We'll ride on the rain
And talk to the trees
And
worship the wind
Then if you go
I'll understand
Leave me
just enough love
To fill up my hand
If you go away
As I
know you will
You must tell the world
To stop turning,
'til
you return again
If you ever do
For what good is love
Without
loving you?
Can I tell you now
As you turn to go
I'll be
dying slowly
'til the next hello
But if you stay
I'll
make you a night
Like no night has been
Or will be again
I'll
sail on your smile
I'll glide on your touch
I'll talk to your
eyes
That I love so much
But if you go
I won't
cry
Though the good is gone
From the word goodbye
If you
go away
As I know you must
There'll be nothing left
In this
world to trust
Just an empty room
Full of empty space
Like
the empty look
I see on your face
And I'd have been the
shadow
Of your shadow
If it might have kept me
By your side
I stood by the window looking out. The full moon had finally given away to the sun, and I regained my human shape. Dumbledore, Hagrid and Madam Pomfrey found me at the edge of the forbidden forest, bleeding, aching and unconscious.
Briefly they had told me what happened last night, when Harry and Hermione saved you from the Dementors kiss and helped you escape with Buckbeak.
For a short hour I had you by my side again. For the briefest of moments I had you in my arms, your weak scrawny body pressed tightly against mine. I felt your hair, not longer smooth and trimmed but dirty and long, I smelt the stale smell of your tattered clothes, felt your calloused hands around my body. I've never been happier before.
Now you're gone, gone off far away to hide together with that Hippogriff . We weren't allowed to say goodbye or to celebrate your newly gained freedom. No private word could be spoken, not without the children hearing us. Did you want to kiss me? I did. But not in front of the children. James son. Arthurs son.
Do you know that I've been hunting that night? Not only for humans (I hope Harry and Hermione will forgive me for attacking them...) but for a Rat. But my supernatural Werwolf-senses were not able to find the track of a small rat in the depths of the forbidden forest. My senses still are higher than usual, with the transformation just hours ago, and I strain my ears and my nose to sense him, that traitor, that Pettigrew prat. But he's nowhere to be found, and it leaves me growling.
When will I see you again? Do you still feel something for me? Are you willing to let me in your life again?
Only time will tell.
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Song "If you go away" by Emiliana Torrini, from the CD "Love in the time of science"