God, I can't believe Ian chose Lasercorn over me. Gosh. I'm not jealous. I thought after all we've been through he'll choose me instead. It's all my fault. If I didn't move out of the house none of this will happen. Fuck. Pull yourself together Anthony. Calm down and relax. Fucking relax. I think I should talk to him. About our friendship and stuff. Yeah I really think I should. Sometimes I feel Ian is avoiding me or something. I am too paranoid. I'll go talk to him and everything will be just fine. Just fine.

"Thanks guys for watching Gamebang!"

"We've got a lot of editing to do tonight yes Anthony?"

"Oh yeah. Umm, Ian, I need to talk to you about something later"

"Sure sure no problem. Jesus, you sound serious"

"I am serious Ian."

"Oh, well, let's have lunch together and we'll discuss during editing"

"Yeah sure. Pizza sounds fine to you?"

"Pizza sounds fine to me"

After filming an episode of gamebang Ian and I went to Pizza Hut to grab some pizza. We didn't want to film lunchtime w smosh cause I wasn't feeling very well. We headed straight back home and as usual Ian HAD to greet the barbershop pole. Ian washed some dirty plates wile I set up the table. I gotta wash the plates again cause Ian's washing skills are really bad.

"So Anthony. You sounded really serious just now. You're freaking me out man"

"Oh. About that. I feel kinda jealous that you're always picking Lasercorn over me"

"Jealous? Jesus, chill man. I'm doing it for the fans"

"Oh, the , I just gotta accept the fact that I'm losing my best friend for the fans"

"C'mon Anthony. Cheer up a little. You know I love you" Said Ian with his lips all puckered up.

"Hahaha, shut up"

After our little talk Ian didn't say anything to me. I guess he's feeling a little uncomfortable about my confession. Maybe I should ask him to spend the night here. Ian said yes and he texted Melanie to ask whether she's okay with it and she said yes. I kinda miss spending time with Ian.

We ordered 10 boxes of pizza, some beer and rented a couple of movies. We didn't watch Star Wars this time although it's our favorite movie. By 2 a.m. I felt a little dizzy and weird. Suddenly everything went black.

"Jesus. What the hell happened? Ian? Where are you? What time is it?"

My head is aching really badly and my vision is blurry. I guess I was drunk. God know what happened last night. I see Ian on the floor with only his boxers on. Did we do it last night? Oh god. I'm not gay right? I wake Ian up and asked him about last night. Apparently he too doesn't remember anything. I realize that my clothes are still on and I feel relived.

"That was a fun night" said Ian while rubbing his eyes.

"Not that fun when you thought you butt raped your best friend"

Ian giggled like a little child. "I swear I'll kill you if you ever rape me."

"Nah, I only rape your mom"

"Fuck you Anthony. Now I'm scarred for life"

We both laughed and Ian excused himself to the bathroom.