Sitting on her bed, Mai remembered all the good times. She tried her best to hold on to them, and forget her fears and doubts. But as hard as she tried, those things that made her wonder about her self worth, pushed it's way to the surface.
She was being selfish, and she knew it. Every second she waited, indulging herself in the false romance, was her being selfish.
It wasn't like she wanted to deceive him. She just knew, that once she revealed the secret bestowed upon her, life would go back to the dingy little apartment, where she never had visitors, and a family to care for her.
She loved him, she really did... was one more day too much to ask? She had only just found out herself. And then, she would be the bigger person, and once again lock away her heart for the sake of the one she loved...
Should she not be honoured? She had the chance to save him from his overwhelming grief. Or maybe this was the opposite. Maybe she was being punished for some past life wrong doings? Maybe she was being punished for allowing herself be happy? She just didn't understand what kind of crime that was.
Mai sat on the bench in Naru's garden. It was dark and cold out, but instead of despairing over something so insignificant, Mai gazed at the stars, and ignored the cold.
Pondering on how she was going to bring up such a subject, Mai brought her knees in to her chest, hugging them close. She felt so lost and alone...
Sighing, Mai wiped the tears that had build in the corners of her eyes. Hadn't he waited long enough?
Biting her lip, Mai tried to force back her tears. She didn't even notice the subject of her self torture, was standing behind her. He draped a blanket over her shoulders, before taking a seat beside her.
"Mai..." He called softly. He saw the tears rolling down her cheek, and the array of emotions flashing across her face. He cupped her cheek, and gently turned her head to face him. He didn't hide the worry in his eyes. He wiped her tears away with his thumb, but didn't say anything. He knew Mai was fighting something, and wanted to say something. If he spoke, it would just push her further into her shell. Lowering her head, she shut her eyes tight.
She prepared herself for shock. She prepared herself for anger. She prepared herself for heart break, and she prepared herself for rejection...
Once she opened her mouth, and said what she needed to say, they would never be like this. But she was willing to give up her happiness, for the one she loved...
"I know where he is... I know where Gene's body is...