Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters from SquareSoft the nice people that make lots of money do. So if you sue me, which you won't seeing that I'm providing a lovely story, you won't be getting much. This story contains citrus but no lemon… I do not support rape, homicide, or suicide, but this is just a story. Rated R for language and content. I know this story could've been better…but it's how early in the morning? :: Glares at the muse:: You can infer who the boyfriend is…It's the generic pairing from the game.
I woke up to find myself alone in my bed. He was long gone—his side of the bed was already cold. He probably left during the night. Heaving a frustrated sigh, I swung my legs over the side of the bed and sat up. I felt sore from head to toe, but then, it's like that every night. Slowly I rose to my feet a little shakily, and grabbed the corner of the nightstand for balance before I toppled over. Oh gods did it hurt…Staggering painfully, I rubbed the sleep from my eye as I made my way to the bathroom. Blindly I turned the faucet on and splashed cold water on my pale face, ignoring the back pain as I hunched over the counter. Dabbing the excess water off with a white towel I glared at my reflection. My hair was matted to my face from the sweat and tears, and fading and renewing bruises covered my stomach and chest. I turned around and glanced over my shoulder to see the handprints on my back and hips, oh how I hurt all over. I snarled at my naked body in the mirror, "You brought this upon yourself!" I was shocked at the vulnerable state my voice was in, and cringed at the dryness in it. I tried to restrain the urge to vomit, but next thing I knew I was routinely crouched by the porcelain bowl, heaving up an empty stomach. This was a daily ritual for me, and I lectured myself for not seeing Dr. Kadowaki, but then she'd see the bruises. Couldn't allow that. Once I felt my stomach had settled its disgust, I rose and wobbled my stiff aching body towards the shower. I turned the crystal knob as high as the thing could go and stepped in.
I stood motionlessly in the steady stream of the lukewarm water, the feeling of being dirty never washing away with my silent tears. I scrubbed gently with the soap trying to at least feel slightly clean, but no such feeling came. When the soap reached my inner thigh that's when I realized just how bad it was. Crusted blood flaked off into the water below and down the drain. No wonder I was sore. I was bleeding. Maybe it was time for me to see Dr. Kadowaki. Scrubbing my stringy hair, I lavished the warm feeling of the water before I stepped out to dry myself off. My muscles groaned as I bent down to dab my legs with the towel, and my back screamed in protest. I ignored the pain and wrapped the towel around my body. "Ughh…" I moaned as I left the steamed up bathroom and back into the cold room. Snatching my clothes off the chair I hurriedly dressed, brushed my hair, and spent five minutes in front of the mirror coaxing myself to smile. "Happy time!" I planted a big smile on my face and galloped out the dorm door. I waved perkily to everyone I saw marching somberly down the halls, guess it was too early in the morning for their brains to be working.
I slowed my gallops to a canter as the infirmary came in sight, that's when I saw the flawless raven hair beauty that he obsessed about at night, stepped out. I smiled politely. "Hi Rinoa." She gladly grinned back and put an arm around my shoulders.
"Hey how's it going?"
"I've been sick for the passed few weeks and I think it's time for me to see the Doc." I waved incessantly and pointed to the metallic doors. "What were you here for?"
"Tetanus shot." She stuck her tongue out as she pointed to the chocobo band-aid on her arm. "Hey you want me to come in with you?"
"Sure! I could use someone to talk to while Dr. Kadowaki pokes and stabs at me." I was grateful someone would be there for me as I walked into her office.
"Rinoa, you're back! I knew you couldn't live without me." The elderly woman laughed, and nodded towards me. "So what brings you here."
"I haven't been feeling well in the passed few weeks."
"I see…does it usually pass during the afternoon?"
"Yeah, but every morning I wake up and I feel like I have to puke. But come lunch, all better!" Rinoa squeezed my shoulder with her hand, wonder what that was about.
"I see…Here sit down." I followed her gaze to the infirmary bed, and plopped down. Enjoying the sound of the leather giving into my weight as my body relaxed on it. Rinoa joined me, still holding onto my shoulders. "This might be a little personal, but did you have unprotected sex in the last few weeks." Hell yeah that's personal, but anything to diagnose me.
"…Yeah." I felt the heat rise up in my face as Rinoa just giggled that cute little giggle every guy falls for.
"This is just a theory, but let me ask you this first…is your period late?"
"Oh…I never thought about that…" Oh no, oh no, oh no! This isn't good. "Yes…" I felt the color drain from my already pale face.
"I think you might be pregnant." Dr. Kadowaki crossed her arms over her chest, "But I'm not sure." She turned around and headed back to her desk, rummaging through one of the drawers. "Here, go to the bathroom and use this." She tossed a white box to me, and I barely caught it. Rinoa glanced at it, and helped me up to my feet.
"Hey…I'm here for you." She murmured and prodded me in the direction of the bathroom. Closing the door behind me, I opened up the box and began to read the directions.
"I HAVE TO PISS ON A STICK?" I squeaked as I heard Rinoa try to stifle her laugh.
"Yes." Dr. Kadowaki called through the door. Well here it goes. I followed the directions, and washed my hands after that. All I had to do...is wait. Opening the door sheepishly I grinned at the brown eyes greeting me anxiously.
"We have to wait a minute." I opened the door wider as Rinoa pulled me into a warm hug. I held the test in my hand shakily as I watched the picture began to appear. "Double negatives…Fuck, I'm pregnant." I groaned as Rinoa only held me tighter.
"Hey look on the bright side, you have a loving boyfriend and friends to support you. I'll do anything to help." She whispered, and all I could do was nod. Loving boyfriend my ass.
"You're right! Thank you Rinnie! Thank you!" I beamed and began to twirl in circles with her. "I'm pregnant! I'm going to have a baby! Yay!" Oh I wanted to have a child on better circumstances. When I was married, and with a man that loves me. No…he's right, I bring those things upon myself. He does love me; I just refuse to accept it. "Keep it hush-hush for right now! I wanna tell him first! Remember, you don't know anything!" I giggled as Rinoa rubbed my belly.
"You're gonna grow in a loving environment! Oh we're gonna have so much fun! You'll be as beautiful as your mommy will. You'll grow to be a beautiful girl, and I'll teach you how to put on make-up!" She murmured, and Dr. Kadowaki just laughed merrily.
"Now, now…we don't know if it's a boy or girl. So don't get your hopes up."
"Thank you Dr. Kadowaki!" I grinned and frolicked out of the room with Rinoa. "To the cafeteria! I'm starving!" I laced my fingers with her as we skipped down the slowly crowding halls.
"My treat!" We burst through the doors and cut in front of several angry SeeDs. But upon seeing Rinoa they silenced themselves and grinned.
"What will you have?" The lunch lady asked.
"I'll have four hot-dogs! With everything on it!" I chuckled at Rinoa's disgusted face.
"I'll have the same! But without the relish…and onions, they're absolutely evil!"
"Coming right up." The lunch lady grinned as she took the money Rinoa extended out to her. We grabbed out food and stowed away into a corner and ate comfortably.
"You won't be able to party from now on, and drink that wine and…"
"I know! I never drank! But what about the…awe man, I have to change diapers!" I frowned and threw a piece of bread at Rinoa. I froze when I saw him strolling in through the doors. Before I could stop her, Rinoa was already waving at him and calling his name. Oh shit…not good…I don't want to see him now. I wanted to shrink into my chair and hide—too late he saw us. He grinned innocently and strode over to us.
"Ladies." He bowed and leaned down stealing a kiss from my unmoving lips. My body stiffened as he showed trivial affections in public.
"Awe…I'll leave you two lovebirds alone. Tell me how it goes!" Rinoa rose to her feet and cleaned up her tray.
"What does she mean?" Suddenly the mask of false emotion was gone, and his hand clutched my arm menacingly. "Tell her how what goes?" His face was dangerously close to mine, and I saw the anger burning brightly.
"Ummm…I want to tell you something." I winced as he jerked on my arm, yanking me to my feet.
"Come…we're going back to my room." Suddenly he was that sweet loving guy everyone thought he was, as he wrapped his arm around my shoulders, drawing my closer to his body, as we walked out of the cafeteria. Everyone oblivious to the pain I was in. We headed back to his dorm room in almost complete silence if it weren't for the spectators awing at our "happy" relationship. Just for show we grinned and kissed each other routinely on the lips. Gods I hated this. Roughly shoving me into his room, he slammed me against the wall. "What is it?"
"Ow…please stop, you'll hurt the baby." I groaned as I felt his knee grind into my stomach. I felt his grip grow weaker as he stumbled backwards.
"Baby? Our baby?" His eyes wide with shock; I merely nodded and rubbed my stomach. Maybe people can change in a matter of seconds. "I'm so sorry." He fell to his knees and placed his cheek against my stomach mumbling incoherent words to it. It's been months since he ever showed any sign of that kindness I thought he had. I was in awe as he gently stroked my belly and kissed it. "My baby." He rose to his feet and looked down at me, his eyes full of concern. Oh see he was right, he does love me! I just refused to accept it! Look at that…My thoughts were drowned out as I felt soft lips on mine.
"I'm so sorry." I murmured and locked my wrists behind his neck, holding him in the kiss.
"For what?" He scooped me up in his strong arms and carried me to his bedroom. Smirking to himself he gently placed me on the bed.
"You were so right. I refused to accept the fact that you loved me. That is was my fault that the things you did to me we just only showing me my place. Please forgive me." Cautiously his legs were on either side of my knees, and he leaned down to capture my lips once more. I smiled into his affectionate kiss, he was afraid he was going to break me. I felt the passion between us grow, just like the first time when we first fell in-love. I groaned as he began to kiss that sensitive spot behind my ear. When his hands began to tug at the material of my clothes, that's when sirens began to go off. "No…please not today." I lightly pushed his hands away.
"No?" He stopped and glared at me.
"I'm sore…please not today."
"NO?" His voice grew louder, "Big mistake." He growled and slapped me across the face, "I thought you knew, I don't take no for an answer. I thought you learned…" He tore at my clothes, as tears silently streamed down my face. I should've known.
"Please…" I begged quietly as he quickly disrobed himself, and returned his weight back on top of me.
"Bitch shut up." He growled and raised a fist to my stomach, "For the baby's sake." He wouldn't…I gasped as I felt a connecting blow to my abdomen. Gulping, I lied still…for the sake of the baby…and mine. For a half-hour he violated my every being, just like he did every single night. I thought he changed…people can change. Maybe when the baby was born he'll change. I felt his sweaty body collapse on top of mine, his lungs gasping for air. "Out." He mumbled. I wiggled out from under him, and snatched my torn clothes from the floor. I tried my best to cover myself up, but the tears were too big. I wrapped my arms around my bruised and poorly clothed body as I left his dorm room and headed into mine.