Chapter One: Goodbye iCarly

Freddie P.O.V.

"And we are clear." I said placing my camera down on my tech cart.

The words I just spoke held so much meaning. This marked what could possibly be the last iCarly ever. I didn't want to say goodbye to iCarly. What started out as a way to prove to adults that we could do whatever we wanted, became a second life for all of us. Just thinking about never doing the show again brought sadness upon me. I placed my camera down on the cart and blew out a breath. I looked up to see the girls' emotions matching mine. Carly was sobbing along with Sam which shocked me because Sam rarely cried. They hugged each other until they finally broke apart.

"Well." Carly said in between sobs. "I'm going to go pack my things." And with that she left the studio leaving Sam and I.

I sighed before looking at Sam. "So this is it isn't it?"

She put on a fake smile because I knew inside she was hurting. "Yup… I guess so."

"Carly may be leaving, but at least we'll still be here." I said trying to bring some happiness back into Sam.

Sam's face instantly fell. "No Freddie. With Carly gone, I just don't think Seattle is going to be much of a home to me anymore. I'm thinking of going to L.A."

I looked at Sam in shock. Losing the love of my life stabbed me in the heart, but losing my best friend as well, that killed me.

"But that means I'm here alone. You and Carly are both going to be gone."

She nodded before whispering out. "Yeah I just think it's best for me. Besides you and Spencer there's just nothing left for me in Seattle. Plus, I just feel like I need a fresh start. I've always been the ham eating, loud mouth tomboy. I just want to restart my life."

I nodded sadly and disappointment before letting out a small smile. "I understand."

We walked towards each other and hugged.

"I love you nub." She simply stated.

"I love you too, you psychopath."

After breaking apart we took time to soak in the iCarly studio. A few minutes later Sam walked towards the door and asked. "Are you coming?"

I looked back at her. "I'll meet you down there, just going to pack up here." The statement that came out of my mouth killed me inside. This is really it.

I began packing my things trying not to let the memories crash back on me. With Sam leaving too, Seattle seemed more and more like a ghost town. Sure I had Spencer and Gibby along with my mom, but none of them could replace the two girls in my life who I literally grew up with and shared pretty much every moment with .I slowly unassembled my equipment and began storing it in my bag. Being preoccupied with my thoughts and actions I was startled when a knock sounded on the studio door.

I turned back to see Carly standing outside. I placed the cord I was winding up in my bag and opened the door letting her in.

"Hey." She said. Her eyes were all puffy still which made me think she cried again in her room.

"Hey." I responded continuing packing up my things.

"You know, you don't really have to pack everything up right now."

"I know I just want to do it before I forget." I lied. I just don't have the courage to walk back up here after Carly and Sam are gone. If I did I think I would just loose myself in my emotions.

"It's like our entire lives have just changed." Carly stated. That statement brought me into even more shock realizing that iCarly ending, was like the ending of our childhood. We're basically now adults, with us graduating.

"I know. You're going to Italy and Sam to L.A.-"

"Sam is going to Los Angeles!?" Carly exclaimed surprised at the revelation.

"Yeah, she said she wanted a fresh start and that without you here in Seattle it just wouldn't feel like home anymore."

Carly looked down in sadness before whispering. "Italy won't be the same without you, Sam, or Spencer. Even Gibby."

"Just like Seattle won't be the same without you and Sam."

"Yeah…" She said quietly before wiping some fallen tears. "Well I should head downstairs."

I don't know what I was thinking, but all I knew was that it couldn't end like this. My emotions fogged up my logic. As soon as she turned around, I grabbed her hand turning her around, before meeting my lips with her. She was shocked at first, but eased into the kiss and began reciprocating. We continued kissing until we broke free for air.

"I love your Carly. I can't stand seeing you go. Please stay." I pleaded, though I knew I was being selfish.

"Freddie I-" She said shocked.

"I know I get it. You want to leave to spend time with your father that's fine. I just wish it didn't mean for you having to go." I interrupted. I let go of her hand and continued packing my things again leaving Carly standing there frozen.

"Freddie." She tried saying again before hearing a shout.

"YO CARLS, SPENCER IS CALLING YOU DOWN."

She looked back at me and then at the door.

"Go Carly. Go to Italy with your dad."

"But what about you?" She asked. "I thought you didn't want me to go. "

I sighed and looked at her warm brown eyes. "Sometimes you've got to pick between two things you don't want to have to pick between. For me, as much as I love you, I can't hold you back from being happy living with your dad in Italy."

She nodded slowly before whispering out. "Yeah… I guess so…"

I looked back at my tech cart avoiding her said expression. "Yeah." I couldn't even believe the words I was saying. I just knew that I always wanted her to be happy and if her being happy meant living with her dad then so be it.

She walked out of the studio leaving me wondering if I should have fought for her to stay. My mind was telling me to convince her to stay, but my heart was telling me to stop being selfish and let her go. So I let her go from my sight, but not from my heart. After packing up the rest of my tech stuff, I grabbed the bag and placed it outside. I leaned against the door frame staring at the studio one last time before turning off the lights and heading downstairs.

As I walked down, I saw Carly hugging Spencer. She turned to see me coming down and let go of Spencer before quickly walking over and hugging me tightly.

"Goodbye Freddie." She said sobbing.

"Goodbye Carls. I'll miss you."

She looked around at the apartment she had lived in for so long before finally turning to face us. "I guess I should go. Dad's probably waiting for me down in the main lobby.

She grabbed her hand carry and began to walk towards the elevator with Sam behind her.

"I love you all." She said making direct eye contact with me.

"I love you too." I responded with no hesitation.

The elevator doors closed taking Carly and Sam out of my life for what could be forever. That word haunted me. I could never live with not ever seeing Carly and Sam again. I looked at Gibby and Spencer nodded farewell to them and stepped out of the apartment. I looked back at the apartment door smiling at all the memories that took place in there before stepping into my apartment. I walked into my room and fell onto the bed trying to sleep away the feelings and emotions I had bottled up. One thought continued to nag me though. "iCarly is over."

AN: So how was chapter one? I know it was kinda short, but I hope you enjoyed it. Stay tuned for chapter two. Please Rate and Review. Thanks!