Life can be confusing but now mine is clear and I know which path I' m going to take its with Jacob I am ment to be with him I know it now but what will I do about Edward.
1. Could tell him I don't love him anymore like he did to me.
2. I could just avoid him and suddenly stay out of touch
3. Kill him or not me Jacob
4. Do something that will make him almost kill me and then tell him I don't want to be around him anymore.
5. Could leave town with Jacob and never come back
Those where my choices wow I' m pathetic those are the stupidest ways I could ever think of.
Number 1 is bad because I am a horrible liar and he'll see right through it 2 is bad because he would probably follow me around and considering his sister is my best friend 3 is bad because I would feel horrible and that would break the treaty and then Jake would be in trouble 4 is bad because he is in all of my classes and I have to be around him especially since he's my biology partner and than I have to talk to himm and 5 is bad because he will come looking for me and his sister will know exactly were im going and he reads minds so he will know.
The one reason that I had not considered is telling him the truth I got over when he left and that I always loved Jake more than him. The one thing bad about that plan is I don't know if I could look at his face after. But I guess I will have to suck it up and get over because I will have to tell him eventually knock, knock, knock…, and I guess that time is now.
"Hey Edward' he looked as gorgeous as ever the Greek god that loved me, I never understood why but I had to do this now before I chickened out like the baby I am.
"Hello love."
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Edward I think you should sit down I have to tell you something."
"What is it are you ok did that mut do something to you."
"NO… its not that well I think you should sit down."
"it couldn't be that bad." he flashed the crooked grin I love, I think I needed to sit down too, I mean would I be able to do this, I don't know if I can because part of me still loves him and needs him but the other half is stronger its saying Jake, Jake, Jake.
"Well there no easy way to say this but, I love jake, and I want to be with him and not you, and I am so sorry if I hurt you because part of me still loves you but I cant trust you anymore you broke my trust when you left, and I' m just so sorry."
"I' m sorry too Bella but I I love you and I want you to be happy so I will leave and this time for good I promise I wont come back and do anything irrational and stupid but I want you to remember I love you and that I trust your decision. I love you Bella goodbye."
I couldn't believe he took it so easily, I thought he would through a fit or beg but he didn't, and it didn't matter, because the look on his face was enough to kill me inside, I felt so guilty I wasn't even funny.