Heyy, First story….I'm not very good at this, so please be nice, I don't mind constructive criticism either….Happy reading, and yes I know it isn't the longest, but with Christmas and everything I haven't had much time.

Fiona xoxo

Guilt, racing through every vein. I shouldn't have done it, but I couldn't stop myself. Those lips so tempting, the body so welcoming. I was vulnerable, that's what it was. The party, lights flashing, I had been drinking. An accident.

I was out on the dance floor. My favourite song playing and I was going for it. The warm hands around my waist, I didn't realise that they were the wrong hands, I didn't think to turn and look behind me. The hands slowly moved higher, they cupped my breasts. I turned around and leaned in for a kiss. Those lips were so soft, the kiss was different to normal, more passionate. The lips moved down and over my neck. I opened my eyes and stood in my peripheral vision was Kevin.

Panic shot through me, if he was there then who was kissing me. Pushing the body away, I saw the deep brown eyes and mass of curls. "Nick what are you doing?" I asked startled.

"Well, babe, I saw you and couldn't keep my hands off you." He replied. I was disgusted by that I pulled away into the crowed. He followed me, it was as though he was chasing me. Running after me. I suddenly didn't feel safe anymore.

I wasn't scared of Nick, I was scared of myself. Letting myself fall for his boyish charms, and his power over everything in his way, they didn't call him "Mr. President" for no reason. The closer he got the slower I ran. His body was calling out to me, each muscle defined. His shirt making his eyes pop, I could feel my heart melting. My heart was telling me I was doing the right thing, but my mind was saying no.

The party was over, standing waiting by the bus stop in the bitter cold night air was horrible. "Alex?" I turned around startled to hear my name. It was Nick, surprise surprise. "I haven't stopped thinking about you, the kiss." He said slowly, "Alex, I've seen you with Kevin, I can't help but wish it was me. He doesn't make you happy. Your eyes say "help me" every time your with him."

I couldn't believe what I was hearing. "Nick stop, stop it. I love Kevin, I love him so much. But, but…"

"But what? You don't love him, you will never love him like I love you."

"You don't know me. If things go this way you wont just be hurting Harper, you will be hurting your own brother. Seeing him hurt would hurt me. Yet your softer more gentle."

"Harper, I only went out with her so I could get to know you, Kevin will get over it, you're better than him, you deserve feelings."

I felt vulnerable, his words were so soft, reassuring, telling my heart to follow through. "Take my hand, come with me." I took it. We walked to his, it wasn't far. He saw I was colds and the next think I knew I had his coat around my shoulders. Kevin would never have done something so sweet. At the house I hesitated. "What about Kevin, he stormed out the party, what if he is here?" I asked before going through the open door.

"He won't be here, he will have gone with Joe to the after party and Stella's, they wont be home till morning, it's just us."

The house was warm, cosy. I had been a million times before, but this time felt different. Special. There were softly fragranced candles dotted around the room, giving off a calm flickering light. "Look, Alex, we don't have to do anything you don't want to do." I knew what he wanted to do, but teasing him seemed like fun.

"You got any movies?" I asked, waiting, watching for a reaction.

"Errmm, yeah. We have some chick flicks somewhere if that's what you really want." He replied the devastation showing in his eyes.

"Oh, get over here, you think I really want to watch a movie, when we are here. Alone."

His smile was so filled, it was a real smile. I slowly pulled my top off, then unbuttoned his shirt. He kissed me again. Softer then before, like a feather running over my lips and down my neck. His hands were fumbling with my bra, I could tell he was having problems. I moved my hands from his belt to help him. With it undone we moved to the bedroom, to start the nights entertainment.

"Ehhemm. What the hell is going on here?" Kevin stood in the door way. He was holding my bra in his hand.

"Kevin I can explain honestly. It was a mist-"

"No it wasn't. Alex I trusted you." He turned away, but not quick enough. I saw the single solitary tear run down his face.

"NICK, NICK GET UP YOU LAZY FAG!" I screamed at him. "This should never have happened. I'm sorry for leading you on."

Pulling the blanket off the bed and wrapping it around myself, like a towel. Rushing around picking up my discarded clothes. Pulling them on one by one. "Alex, you cant deny the fact that last night was brilliant."

"Yes Nick, I can. It was a mistake, now, I have to go and save my relationship."

The more I snapped at him the more my feelings for him grew, the more I wanted him. Yet seeing Kevin sad killed me inside. I was torn between love and lust, my mind a mess with confusion. The air a mess with panic as I scrambled for my clothes. Nothing would ever be the same, nothing will ever be easy. I had to either hurt Kevin or myself, neither would be easy.

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