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So heyy guys I am sorry I having been updating I just been really busy with school lately and I don't have much time to write like I use to but I will try to get a new chapter up for After A Much Needed Vacation soon. If you have any questions or watever just Follow me On Twitter:Headedin_1D
Summary: These will be Brooke thoughts or feelings about different situation like the shooting, love triangele,and deaths. This will be like her personally Diary where she lets it all out. Just please give it a chance
Entry 1: Brooke feelings after the break up and leyton getting together
Entry 1 Bleeding Love
Dear Diary,
I seen Him with her today and I just could'nt take it. My heart feels like it ready to burst and havin him with me is probably the only medication i can take.
You ever wonder why people even bother falling in love?. I always thought love was another form of pain. Oh how right I was, I have so many scars I wish I can cover up.
But I can't ever single scar is a reminder of how I wish I was never in love. You might think this is ridicolous but that's ok as long as you stay faraway.
It hurt to think about you.
It hurts to even care.
That's why I cut so I can bleed out the love we once shared.
You don't deserve the love that I have for you then why am I such a fool?. I should'nt love you anymore cause you broke my heart into two. It was like I was a vampire and you was the one with the stake to bad I just couldnt get away.
Sometimes I ask myself what hurts the most, Thinking I should hate you or Knowing that I dont .
So when I cut I like to watch the blood leave me cause I like to think its another step from not loving you. I promise myself I would stop loving you even if I have to bleed every once of blood in me. But trust and believe I will get there one day I just hope I get the chance to see your face.
People tell me I'm a strong person but they don't know that I cry in the middle of the night cause I miss you. I rather die then let you know that I still care for you.
I hate that you made me love you.
I hate that you made me trust you.
I hate that I believed you.
But that's ok I have my trusty blade and now I'am only one scar away from not loving you.
Some Day you'll cry for me like I cried for you.
Some Day you'll miss me like I missed you.
Some Day you'll need me like I needed you.
Some Day you'll love me But I won't love you.
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