Bother
This story is about Kikyo and her thoughts about being brought back and
hurting Inu-yasha.
"Wish I was too dead to cry"
Why did that bitch bring me back?
"My self-affliction fades"
I know I killed myself! It was my choice to die
"Stones to throw at my creator"
If I could kill her again I don't think I would! I would torture her like
she is doing to me!
"Masochists to which I cater"
I serve Niraku, for now. I will kill him
"You don't need to bother;"
Inu-yasha I know I'm being cruel to you, leave me!
"I don't need to be"
I should not be here by any natural rights, I'm dead! I've been
reincarnated
"I'll keep slipping farther"
I keep slipping into this hatred that I was created for
"But once I hold on,"
You could be my life line, but if you do...
"I won't let go 'til it bleeds"
I'll never be able to survive with out you
"Wish I was too dead to care"
I wish I didn't care anymore! I wish I could hate you!
"If indeed I cared at all"
I can't, I don't feel much but I could never hate you
"Never had a voice to protest"
As a miko I could never be a real woman,
"So you fed me shit to digest"
So you made me feel alive, even when we fought
"I wish I had a reason;"
I know I'm not perfect, but I am not trying to kill you!
"my flaws are open season"
Maybe trying to drag you into hell is not the best plan, but when you
stopped you realized that you could not let Kagome die
"For this, I gave up trying"
I realized you love her, So I gave you up.
"One good turn deserves my dying"
Everyone hates me but all I do is to try to let you realizes that you
belong together with my living soul
"You don't need to bother;"
Don't waste your time with me! You have her now
"I don't need to be"
I was never meant to be with you, but at least my soul will always love you
"I'll keep slipping farther"
I don't have too much life left in me,
"But once I hold on,"
You keep trying to give me reasons to live
"I won't let go 'til it bleeds"
I would only hurt you again
"Wish I'd died instead of lived"
I died so the jewel could be pure
"A zombie hides my face"
I am no better then a demon, The thing I've become is not living, a zombie
"Shell forgotten"
I am not even a real person, my body is clay and Earth
"with its memories"
I remember everything. The little things that I should not remember.
"Diaries left"
I remember my birth, when I was taken from my parents to be trained, and I
remember now that Inu-yasha never betrayed me
"with cryptic entries"
My life is nothing more then a cruel cosmic joke.
"And you don't need to bother;"
Don't pretend that I'm all you think about, I share her memories, even her
new ones
"I don't need to be"
I don't know why I don't just kill myself and get it over with,
"I'll keep slipping farther"
I keep getting into this new life deeper and deeper
"But once I hold on,"
I want to be alive! I would love to feel at least once more
"I won't let go 'til it bleeds"
That is why I stay here, I can almost feel through Kagome
"You don't need to bother;"
Just leave me, I am an abomination
"I don't need to be"
I am not necessary, but I can still live through her
"I'll keep slipping farther"
I am now involved with everything, Niraku, Inu-yasha, Kagome
"But once I hold on..."
They keep me here because I still have some part to play
"I'll never live down my deceit"
I'm sorry, you think that I've betrayed you; I could never, but
if I did not you would never let me go and live.
This story is about Kikyo and her thoughts about being brought back and
hurting Inu-yasha.
"Wish I was too dead to cry"
Why did that bitch bring me back?
"My self-affliction fades"
I know I killed myself! It was my choice to die
"Stones to throw at my creator"
If I could kill her again I don't think I would! I would torture her like
she is doing to me!
"Masochists to which I cater"
I serve Niraku, for now. I will kill him
"You don't need to bother;"
Inu-yasha I know I'm being cruel to you, leave me!
"I don't need to be"
I should not be here by any natural rights, I'm dead! I've been
reincarnated
"I'll keep slipping farther"
I keep slipping into this hatred that I was created for
"But once I hold on,"
You could be my life line, but if you do...
"I won't let go 'til it bleeds"
I'll never be able to survive with out you
"Wish I was too dead to care"
I wish I didn't care anymore! I wish I could hate you!
"If indeed I cared at all"
I can't, I don't feel much but I could never hate you
"Never had a voice to protest"
As a miko I could never be a real woman,
"So you fed me shit to digest"
So you made me feel alive, even when we fought
"I wish I had a reason;"
I know I'm not perfect, but I am not trying to kill you!
"my flaws are open season"
Maybe trying to drag you into hell is not the best plan, but when you
stopped you realized that you could not let Kagome die
"For this, I gave up trying"
I realized you love her, So I gave you up.
"One good turn deserves my dying"
Everyone hates me but all I do is to try to let you realizes that you
belong together with my living soul
"You don't need to bother;"
Don't waste your time with me! You have her now
"I don't need to be"
I was never meant to be with you, but at least my soul will always love you
"I'll keep slipping farther"
I don't have too much life left in me,
"But once I hold on,"
You keep trying to give me reasons to live
"I won't let go 'til it bleeds"
I would only hurt you again
"Wish I'd died instead of lived"
I died so the jewel could be pure
"A zombie hides my face"
I am no better then a demon, The thing I've become is not living, a zombie
"Shell forgotten"
I am not even a real person, my body is clay and Earth
"with its memories"
I remember everything. The little things that I should not remember.
"Diaries left"
I remember my birth, when I was taken from my parents to be trained, and I
remember now that Inu-yasha never betrayed me
"with cryptic entries"
My life is nothing more then a cruel cosmic joke.
"And you don't need to bother;"
Don't pretend that I'm all you think about, I share her memories, even her
new ones
"I don't need to be"
I don't know why I don't just kill myself and get it over with,
"I'll keep slipping farther"
I keep getting into this new life deeper and deeper
"But once I hold on,"
I want to be alive! I would love to feel at least once more
"I won't let go 'til it bleeds"
That is why I stay here, I can almost feel through Kagome
"You don't need to bother;"
Just leave me, I am an abomination
"I don't need to be"
I am not necessary, but I can still live through her
"I'll keep slipping farther"
I am now involved with everything, Niraku, Inu-yasha, Kagome
"But once I hold on..."
They keep me here because I still have some part to play
"I'll never live down my deceit"
I'm sorry, you think that I've betrayed you; I could never, but
if I did not you would never let me go and live.