Silent Raindrops
Delight
Raindrops pound against the trees. They are falling in a steady beat, comforting and soothing. Rain is reminder, of everything I once had, now lost. They are the tears I can no longer cry.
It is winter, the first snow of the year covers the ground and frost turns the trees into exquisite statues. I stand bare foot, in jeans and a t-shirt. Temperature is irrelevant. Now that I myself am ice, cold and hard, ice no longer bothers me.
Life has been shallow over the past one hundred years. The edges of the world are blurred and dull. Life has lost much of it's meaning.
Do I wish I had given in? Had grown old without Edward at my side? I can't say that I do. That was the path life demanded I take, that I demanded others let me take. Is it their fault this life is nothing like what I expected?
No.
I know that in other circumstances life would be different. If my joy still remained. If Edward were still here.
In end my death was painful, but not as painful as my birth. I still cannot bear to recall that day. It is as fresh and clear as ever, one my only human memories to survive.
Strange, how in the end, the things you most want to forget are the clearest. Victoria came that day. Edward came too late; I already had too much venom in my bloodstream. She killed him. Seth was injured but survived. Riley, died. The others Cullen's and all of the werewolves survived. My angel was the only one who didn't make it. Jasper burned her next to the pile of ashes that was all that was left of my love. That was the day of my death.
When I awoke three days later, I knew. Edward was gone. That was the day of my birth and it was far more painful then the day of my death.
I stayed with the Cullen's. They are my family, my sanity, the only reason I am alive. They love me and that love is the only thing that has kept me somewhat sane all these years.
Now I stand in our meadow and wait. Wait for the whispers of happiness to float back to me. Wait for the pain.
It comes in a blinding flash, crippling me. In minutes I hear murmurs and feel someone pick me up, embrace me in strong arms. Emmet. I can hear them all next to me but I am too frozen to make out their words.
This is hard life but it is the one I have chosen. I wouldn't have it any other way.
Ok, here's the deal. Two questions. First do I leave it as a one shot? Second, if not, should Bella find someone to love? For those of you hate me for killing Edward (and I knew there will be a few), sorry but he's dead. Oh, third question. If Bella does find someone to love, should it be Jasper, Emmet (cuz I love those stories), or someone totally new? Review and I'll update! But not before you decide how you want the story to go. Rated T for safety.