Well hello everyone! And no, this is not The Black Phoenix of Russia, sorry; that will only be in the middle of the month. This is something new, not just a new story, but a completely new area: it is YAOI (I hope I got the letters right). This is something that I have been playing with for a while, and although I had the pairing figured way in the beginning, I was still thinking of a good story line, and I found one. I am currently still busy with the second chapter, but I thought of putting out the first chapter to see the response on whether I should continue or not.

The inspiration for my very first boy/boy story came from reading a lot of Kai/Ray pairing from the wonderful LuxahHeart, and I also recommend you guys go check out her profile. There is awesome stories!

Anywho, I hope you guys enjoy this; there is not much going on, but hey, it is just the first chapter.

Enjoy!

From a distance

Chapter 1 – What am I missing?

In all his life since he can remember, he has always felt something missing within him, like a part of him is missing, but he never knew what it was. The older he got, the stronger that feeling got and no matter what he did, that feeling never went away. He had delved in various drugs, in various dangerous sports, and he even took on a few 'adventures' that only the crazed adrenaline junkies would enjoy, but nothing could extinguish that agonising feeling within him.

Then he reached his mid twenties, 24 to be exact, and then he met her, Anastasia Grekov, his love, his partner, his friend, his everything, and finally, that feeling of missing something went away, and he thought that it was because his soul was longing for its other half, for its soul mate which he was fortunate enough to have found in his blonde haired wife.

After two years of dating and being engaged for half a year, they finally married and a year after their wedding, they welcomed their first child, Mya, a spitting image of her mother. Two years later their son, Mikhail, was born, and luckily this time, his genes were the dominant ones as their son looked just like him; beautiful grey eyes and very light lavender coloured hair.

He had everything, and he still has everything that any man can dream about, but this last month, that annoying feeling of something being missing within his life has returned, and this time it has returned with a force, and it is really starting to piss him off.

It is somewhere in the early morning hours in the Kuznetsov household, most of the occupants fast asleep, all for one, the head of the household, Bryan Kuznetsov. Up until now he has been unable to fall asleep all because of that stupid feeling that has returned, and tonight it is the strongest it has ever been, and he just cannot understand why.

He has been lying on his back the entire time, holding on to Anastasia, and he has been prying his brain on trying to figure out what could be missing from his life.

'What the hell is going on? Why do I feel like this? The more I think about it, the more it seems I am drifting further away from the answer. I have everything; a loving wife, two beautiful and healthy children, a well paying job, enough friends, pets, an excellent sex life,' Bryan just smirking at that last part because it is true, he has married a sex tiger, never mind a sex kitten, 'so why in the hell do I have this stupid feeling?! Maybe I should go see a shrink or something; maybe I am busy losing my marbles and this is me finally going insane.'

Just then a soft groan is heard from beside Bryan, it just being his wife who is stirring in her sleep. She mumbles a few words, Bryan just smiling to this at how adorable his wife can be when she sleeps, and as if feeling like someone is looking at her, Anastasia groggily opens her eyes and looks up at Bryan, and due to her excellent night vision, she sees her husband looking at her.

"What time is it?" she asks while stretching out her left arm and giving one long and meaningful yawn.

"Don't know; go back to sleep, sweetness."

"You first," is all Anastasia replies, another yawn following afterwards.

"Later; I am not tired."

This immediately peaks Anastasia's interest and just like that, gone is the constant yawning.

"Really? Anything I can do to help you with that, my love?"

His eye sight may not be as good as his wife's eyesight, but he can already see that sly smirk on her face, and her tone is already a dead giveaway on what is going on in that head of hers, and Bryan can also just smirk at that.

"And how would you like to help, sweetness?" Bryan's tone of voice also being a devious and playful one right now.

Anastasia says nothing and instead gets on top of Bryan and takes it upon herself to remove her night dress, Bryan's hands automatically moving to his wife's breasts where he starts to massage them both. Anastasia leans down and captures Bryan's lips where the married couple starts to engage in a very passionate and very heated make-out session, soft moans and groans coming from the both of them.

After some time, Bryan finds himself on top of his wife, making passionate love to her, but while being caught up in this very heated and intimate moment, his thoughts just cannot stop wandering to what could be missing in his life.

'What is your heart and soul longing for, Kuznetsov?'

"Have you got their blankets, my love?!"

"Yes, sweetness, with their bags and all of their crap!"

"Your language, Kuznetsov!"

Bryan just cringes at that, knowing very well that Anastasia hates it when he uses crude language around their daughter, not to mention swear words; Anastasia will easily slap him if he steps out of line with his language.

Bryan is currently sitting in Anastasia's family van with Mya on his lap, she pretending to play drums on the steering wheel, while the two of them are patiently waiting in the garage for Anastasia and Mikhail to finish up in the kitchen. Anastasia is quickly changing Mikhail's diaper before they leave for Miriam's get together.

Miriam and her fiancé, Spencer is getting married in three weeks' time and so the engaged couple has decided to invite all of their friends over for a sleepover seeing as it will be the last time that they will be able to do something like this seeing as the couple will move to Yekaterinburg two weeks after the wedding, which is about 1800km from Moscow and unfortunately, no one can just get in the car and drive over there for a quick lunch or something, hence the sleepover.

Miriam's cousin, Valeria, is also coming to the sleepover and she is coming all the way from Novosibirsk, a journey which is mostly done by plane. Only true adventurers and very patient people will take on this 4000 km trip, and Valeria's husband is anything but patient. Valeria will be accompanied with her husband and their twin daughters of six years old. They will be the only couple at the party that will be new; all the others are already very good friends with each other.

Bryan is just casually leaning with his head against the head rest of the seat, he just watching lovingly as he daughter continues to beat on the steering wheel, his thoughts all of a sudden shifting to that what he has been trying to ignore for a while now: that something is missing in his life.

'Maybe it is religion that I am missing; yeah, that's it. I need to start going to church because let's face it, at 32 a man should have some type of higher of power to trust in, and now it seems like that higher power is calling me. As soon as this get together is over, and also the wedding, I will ask Anastasia if we can start going to church; she of course will have no objection, so it is already a made out situation. Yes! Finally I have found the answer!' Bryan yells out loud within his mind, he feeling so relived right now that he abruptly pulls little Mya into a tight embrace, the little girl just scowling at her father for interrupting her play time.

Soon enough, the family of four is complete, and on their way to Miriam and Spencer's place, Bryan feeling much lighter after that epiphany that he has had, and even Anastasia is noticing his change in demeanour.

"You okay, my love?"

"Never been better, sweetness, and if I have not mentioned it today, I love you," Bryan says while taking Anastasia's left hand in his right hand and places a kiss on top of her hand while quickly taking his eyes off of the road, and Anastasia can also just smile at this sweet gesture of her husband.

That is why she has fallen in love with this man, and why she keeps falling in love with him every single day, because on the outside he looks like an arrogant, obnoxious and very hard guy, when in fact he is just a gullible big guy with a very small heart.

"I love you too, my love."

The laughter of children is filling the back yard, the laughter accompanied with the chatter and laughter of the adults that are watching over the children as they are all playing together.

It is mostly the men that are supervising the children as the women are all in the house busy preparing the food that has to go on to the fire that is already burning like a maniac. Out of the large group of friends, Miriam and Spencer are the only ones without children but that is their own fault because for years the two have denied their feelings for each other.

However, after some clever scheming from their friends, the two landed up in a situation where they were forced to admit their feelings for each other, and since then, the two could not have been happier, and it can be seen every time the two look at each other. Their eyes just shine with pure adoration for each other.

Bryan is casually sitting on one of the comfortable chairs on the very large porch with little Mikhail on his lap, and in his other hand he is holding on to his beer, all while being deep in conversation with Tala, Bryan's best friend since the age of 15.

"Do you think Ana will let you come, Bry?"

"Tala, I am the man of my house, so I don't know if I will be allowed to play outside," the two friends just bursting into laughter because they both know, Bryan may be the head of the house and be a very big guy at 1,94, but Anastasia wears the pants in the house because that blonde haired woman with the spring green coloured eyes has got a temper worse than a mama lion that is protecting her young, and as the saying goes that every man knows by heart: happy wife, happy life.

"But don't worry, I will ask her. If I can promise that wife of mine that I will not drink before doing it, I think she will be fine."

"Not drink? What the hell, Bry? That's the best part of it all!"

Bryan just smiles and taps his nose with the hand that is holding the beer bottle, to which Tala just grins at and then winks his eye at Bryan.

Tala wants to take Bryan water skiing on the Moskva River, but not just any water skiing; they are going to do it with a racing boat, although the boat will not go on full speed otherwise they may end up breaking their necks. This boat will just be a bit faster than most of the boats that are used for water skiing.

"Spence!" everyone suddenly hears Miriam calling, meaning that his sweet fiancée is looking for him.

With a groan, the big man gets up and goes in to see what the damsel in distress needs.

About ten minutes or so after Spencer has been called in, Anastasia comes walking out with Tala's wife, Alisia, the two women taking their places next to their husbands, each one with a glass of red wine in hand. By now little Mikhail has fallen asleep on his father's lap and Bryan is holding the little boy securely in his left arm as Mikhail rests his head on his father's very broad chest.

"Do you want me to take him in, my love?"

"It's okay, sweetness; I got it. I will go put him down rafter I have finished this beer," Bryan says while swinging his bottle about to show there is only about two or three more sips left.

"Okay. Miriam's cousin and her family are also on their way; they somehow got lost along the way and Spencer had to go and get him."

Tala and Bryan just sniggers at this, Anastasia and Alisia not understanding why.

"And what is so funny about that, boys? Everyone gets lost sometime."

"Yeah right; have they never heard of GPS?"

"Maybe the car that they are renting does not have it, smartass?"

"Pfffth, please."

Bryan takes one large sip of his beer, finishing the last of the contents in one swallow while Tala gets scolded by Alisia for making fun at why the family got lost; thank whoever is up there that Anastasia does not do those things when it is not necessary. Bryan gets up and places a kiss on top of Anastasia's head before he makes his way into the house to put little Mikhail to bed. He is going to stay with his son to make sure that he sleeping soundly before he is going to join his wife back on the porch.

As Bryan walks up the stairs, he clearly hears the greetings take place in the small foyer, that being a very clear sign that Miriam's cousin has finally arrived, Bryan just rolls his eyes at this as he thinks back to how they could get lost; couldn't they plan ahead to see whether they know where the house is or not? What if it was the day of the wedding? Then they most definitely would have missed the whole do, not that it is his problem anyway.

About 7 or 8 minutes has already passed as Bryan makes his way down stairs. Little Mikhail is fast asleep and a bomb can be dropped next to that boy and it will not wake him up.

As Bryan walks through the house, he notices that it is very quiet in the kitchen, and he guesses that everyone is outside now seeing as the late comers has finally arrived. Bryan walks onto the porch and immediately searches his wife out, and quickly spots her with her back towards him, she talking to an unknown woman with very long blonde hair, and if he is being honest, she is not bad looking at all, but no one will ever be able to come even remotely close to his super sexy wife.

Bryan embraces Anastasia from behind, this causing her to squeal as she has not expected that, Bryan just smirking at his wife while placing a kiss on her neck.

"My love, this is Valeria, Miriam's cousin, and this big guy is my husband, Bryan."

"He really is big; I swear he is just as tall as my husband. Pleased to meet, Bryan."

"Likewise."

"Like seriously, how do you guys get so big? You have to meet my husband; he is also this giant. Kai!" she calls after turning towards the fire where the men have all gathered.

Bryan pays no attention to the husband that will appear any time soon as he starts to kiss Anastasia in her neck, the woman unable to hold in her laughter as she squirms in Bryan's hold.

"What do you say we ditch them for a few minutes and go and occupy one of the many bathrooms?" Bryan huskily whispers into Anastasia's ear, she just gasping at that suggestion.

"You are so naughty, my love, and I like it," she says in that playful tone that Bryan knows all too well.

Bryan is suddenly interrupted from his kissing in his wife's neck when Valerie turns her attention back to them, and as Bryan straightens up, his looks directly into a pair of brown eyes, he suddenly feeling like someone is examining his soul, it being very freaky right now, as those brown eyes pierce right into his own eyes.

"Bryan, this is my husband, Kai Hiwatari, and Kai love, this is Bryan, Anastasia's husband."

Both men shake hands but both of their grips are harder than it should be as the two men continue to look at each other, almost as if sizing each other up. Bryan notices that the guy really is just as tall as he is, but Bryan already does not like this guy; he seems like a very arrogant and obnoxious bastard, and those are traits that Bryan does not like in any human being. Bryan also can't help but pick up a bad vibe about this guy, almost as if he is bad news.

The two men finally let go of their hands, but their eyes are still locked on each other. Bryan quickly takes note of the guy's hair, it being two shades of colour. His front hair looks like Air force blue, the back resembling that of Oxford blue, and his hair is in a spiked up style, and although the style seems to be messy, it suits the guy somewhat. He is leaner than himself but Kai looks toned.

Kai's eyes are still piercing his own and he can't help but feel a bit claustrophobic while looking into Kai's eyes. Bryan is the first to break away from the 'staring contest' and places a last kiss on Anastasia's cheek before informing her that he is going to go and check on Mikhail, and with a last nod of the head at Kai and Valeria, Bryan turns around and heads back inside.

He quickly makes his way up stairs to the room where Mikhail is sleeping and when he enters the room, his heart just softens upon seeing his precious baby boy being fast asleep. Not long after, Anastasia joins Bryan in the room, but instead of just admiring her baby, she starts to suck on Bryan's left ear lobe after being content with her sleeping boy.

"What did you say earlier about us occupying a bathroom for a while?" Anastasia whispers into his ear with a very seductive voice, Bryan already feeling how his member is filling up with blood.

Bryan says nothing and just takes hold of Anastasia's right hand and drags her out of the room, right into the nearest bathroom where he slams the door shut and after making sure that it is locked, he lifts up Anastasia and slams her against the bathroom wall, both of them in the mood for a good quickie because that is all they can do right now.

Mya is still outside and even though there are more than enough adults that are supervising the children, they do not want to leave their daughter alone for too long. Luckily for them, a quickie is just as good as a long full out session, and they both see this quickie as adding some spice to their life, not that they need it in any way whatsoever.

All the women are inside of the house, giving the children their baths, and those that are already finished with that chore, are cleaning up the kitchen. The men are busy cleaning up the backyard and picking up all of the toys of the kids, and after this task is completed, they are all just going to relax with a beer afterwards until their life partners join them.

Bryan and Tala is the last to take a seat, and while taking a seat, Bryan glances over at Kai, who is busy talking to Spencer, but their eyes lock immediately, and Bryan cannot help but feel uncomfortable under the guy's gaze, almost as if Kai is trying to pry open his soul for any deep dark secrets. Bryan has made up his mind about not liking the guy, and ever since they have been introduced earlier, the two men have been avoiding each other.

Bryan is in no mood to converse with a stuck up asshole, and he suddenly makes his unwelcomed feelings towards Kai very clear by snorting after breaking his eye contact with Kai, and Tala immediately picks up that something is bothering Bryan.

"What's wrong, and don't tell me nothing, because you don't just snort for nothing."

"What do you know about that Kai guy?"

"Nothing; I just met the guy today. Why do you ask?"

"I don't like him; he has an attitude problem."

Tala inconspicuously turns to Kai's direction, and tries his best to see the attitude that Bryan is talking about but he sees nothing; instead, he sees an easy going guy that has easily fitted into their group of friends without any hassle.

"Are you sure about that, Bry? The guy is actually nice; he is a typical guy's guy. Maybe you two haven't talked enough. I am certain that if you two spend some time together, you will change your opinion about the guy. I, for one, like him; he's cool."

Again Bryan just snorts and just rolls his eyes as he takes a swig from his beer.

"Whatever; my opinion is not going to change anytime soon, no matter how 'cool' the guy is," Bryan saying the word 'cool' in a sarcastic manner.

Tala just silently shakes his head from side to side and decides to steer the conversation into another direction as he starts talking about the latest mustang that has been launched in America, and seeing as Bryan loves all American muscle cars, his attention will quickly turn away from Kai and his so-called attitude.

The conversation does not disappoint, and soon the two long time friends are deep in conversation about which year had the best car to offer. Tala is busy explaining his reasons and while listening to Tala, Bryan cannot help but glance into Kai's direction, seeing the man with the two toned hair laughing along with Spencer and Brooklyn, but quickly Kai looks into Bryan's direction, their eyes locking once more with a piercing gaze from both occupants, Kai's smile slowly disappearing from his face as he and Bryan continues to look at each other.

'Look all you want, you spoilt brat; my fists fear nothing and no one in this world,' Bryan thinks to himself while still looking at Kai, Kai being the first one to break eye contact as he once again converses with Spencer and Brooklyn.

Bryan also turns away, thinking that he and Anastasia needs to get to bed ASAP. He and Tala continues with their conversation until the women joins them all where everyone just continues to enjoy the rest of the evening without any hick ups, excluding the occasional glaring from Kai and Bryan where the two just glare at each other for a few seconds and then turn their attention away from each other, and luckily for the two of them, no one else seems to notice their cold attitude towards each other.

Okay, so it is obvious that the pairing is Kai and Bryan, and do not know who to put in order as I really have no clue how the boy/boy thing works, but just a heads up, the next chapter will be M seeing as there will some hot scenes, and they will just get hotter and hotter.

I am curious as to what you thought of it, did you like it or not, will you continue to read it or not, stuff like that, so leave a review if yo want to.

I have no idea how often the updates will be seeing as I am still working on my other story, and also, the chapters will not be that long and it will also not be a very long story. This is just something that I had to get out of my system, and it is more like a side project.

Anyway, see you with the next update, of either story. Take care and lots of love!