The how-to-get-over-the-love-of-your-life handbook

So here is a fanfic about how Callie and Arizona tries to get over each other. It isn't that easy, so here the handbook to how it's done or not done.

The first chapter of the handbook is inspired by the song Airplanes by B.O.B ft. Hayley Williams.

ALL RIGHTS BELONGS TO SHONDA!

Chapter 1 – How to (not) help

Can we pretend that airplanes

In the night sky

Are like shooting stars

I could really use a wish right now

Wish right now

Wish right now

Arizona had just finished three back-to-back surgeries, two of them had been successful but she had lost one kid. She had lost kids before, not often, but as a surgeon this was part of their lives. And Arizona knew that, but she always got so attached to the kids in the PED's wing. She worked with them everyday, I mean, how could she not get attached. So… She used to cry every time she lost a kid that she knew a bit better than others. Like she did when Wallace had died, but this time was different. Back then she Callie to help her through it. But now… Now she was alone and the tiny coffins would definitely appear in her nightmares tonight.

Arizona pushed the door to the on-call room open and slid in quietly, hoping that no one had seen her enter the room from the hallway. But this really wasn't her day…

Callie had just had a consult with a 10-year-old boy, who had broken his wrist. When she walked out into the hallway of the PED's wing she saw Arizona. She tried not to look. They were broken up and it she didn't want Arizona thinking that she was stalking her or anything. But she couldn't keep her eyes off the beautiful blonde figure that quickly walked through the hallway. Arizona turned her head, as to see if anyone had followed her, and in that second Callie saw the pain that was written all across her ex-girlfriends face.

Okay, so… She wouldn't make Arizona think that she was stalking her. But she was in pain, so…

Damn it.

Callie thought to herself as she moved towards the on-call room.

Inside the on-call room Arizona was crying. A lot. Her face was completely covered with tears and still unshed tears were in the corners of her eyes.

The door handle started turning.

Arizona jumped slightly from her place on the bed, and tried to remove the tears from her eyes and her face with the back of her hand.

When she finally looked up to see who had entered the room, she opened her mouth slightly but no words came out.

"Arizona…" Callie said with concern in her voice.

"I…" Arizona started and then she unwillingly broke down again. She didn't want to cry in front of Callie, but she couldn't help it right now.

Callie quickly moved towards the bed, but she froze a few feet from it. She didn't know whether or not Arizona wanted her to be there, to comfort her.

When Callie stopped Arizona turned her head and looked up at her ex-lover with tears in her eyes.

That's it… I don't care… She needs me. And I don't care if it's wrong… She needs me.

With those thoughts Callie slowly moved the last few steps towards the bed and sat down. She slowly put her arm around Arizona, not sure if it was okay with her ex-lover.

As soon as Arizona felt Callie's arm around her she leaned into the embrace and buried her head in the crook of Callie's neck. Her sobbing was now stronger and it didn't stop for a long time. But Callie didn't care, she just sat there comforting Arizona and whispering soothing words to her.

When the sobbing finally stopped Arizona sniffled a couple of times. But she didn't move her head from its place on Callie's neck.

I can't believe she came… How did she even know I was here?

Arizona was brought out of her thoughts by Callie's voice.

"Arizona…" Callie started. "What happened?"

"I…" Arizona started, but stopped as she remembered their current relationship situation. They weren't together anymore. Callie probably didn't care.

As if Callie had heard Arizona's thought she said.

"It's okay, you can tell me… I'm here for you."

"I… I lost a kid today… I know we are supposed to not get attached, but I get attached… Ya'know." Arizona said looking up at Callie.

"Yeah… I know." Callie whispered.

Then there was silence for minutes. But Arizona didn't care, she felt safe in Callie's arms. And that was all she needed right now.

Callie just sat there holding Arizona, while thoughts ran through her head. Thoughts about their break up… about Arizona… about how they sat here right now… and about how she should probably get up and leave before she did something she would regret later.

Callie slowly moved her arm and broke the embrace.

When Arizona felt Callie move she turned her head and looked at Callie with confusion and sadness in her eyes.

Why is she leaving? Oh… I had almost forgotten… we… are… broken up.

Even though Arizona knew it was wrong and that it would only hurt the both of them she said.

"Don't…"

Callie stopped in her tracks and turned around.

"Please don't leave… I… I need you."

Callie tried to catch the blonde's eyes, but Arizona's gaze where fixed at the floor, as is she was ashamed of needing Callie.

I can't do this… I know she needs me, I do… I just… Can't.

"I can't… Arizona, I…" Tears where now forming in the corners of Callie's eyes.

Arizona lifted her head with tears streaming down her face. The look on her face was like a knife in Callie's already broken heart.

"I… Uh… Gotta go." Callie quickly opened the door and walked out.

Arizona sat in the now empty on-call room. Her sobbing increased as the door closed behind Callie. But this time the tears weren't because of the kid she had lost. It was because her heart had broken a little more.

The first thing Callie had done when she had left Arizona alone in the on-call room was paging Mark.

She had quickly made her way to the front of the hospital in the need of fresh air.

Mark came as he could, fearing that something was seriously wrong. When he saw Callie standing against the wall he quickly made his way towards her. And when he saw the hurt across her face his fears where proving to be right. This was serious.

Callie looked up from the ground and stared at her best friend with sad eyes before she broke down and fell to the ground with her knees curled up against her.

Mark sat down next to her, putting his arm around her shoulder.

"What happened?"

"She… I…" Callie tried, but lost the battle against her own sobbing.

"Easy. Try again." Mark said in a comforting voice.

Sometimes Mark could be a bit of a Man-whore-jackass, but he was also her best friend. And when it came to Callie being hurt or sad, he knew that there was no time for teasing or joking. He knew that he needed to be there for her.

"She cried… And I comforted her, for a while. But then I realized that I shouldn't be there. And I got up and left…" Callie started. "Mark, I left her… Alone… When she was crying and sad and… and… broken."

"Shh… It's okay… She will understand." Mark tried, but he was cut off by Callie.

"No. Mark… No… She won't understand." Mark looked at Callie with a confused look. Of course she would understand, why wouldn't she? He thought, but kept quiet, when he saw that Callie was about to speak again.

"Before I left… I mean literally only minutes before I left I told her that I was there for here… And when she told me she needed me… I left." Callie continued.

"Oh…" Was all Mark could say. He knew that it wasn't the most comforting response, but what could he really say to that? It's not like this was a chapter in the "how-to-be-a-best-friend" handbook.

"Exactly." Callie replied sadly.

And they just sat there, staring up into the star filled night sky.

"I could really use a wish right now. Huh?" Callie halfheartedly laughed as she curled up against Mark.

Okay. So Callie pretty much messed up in the first chapter of the handbook.

Spoiler:

Stay tuned to see what happens when Arizona tries to figure out how to do the next chapter.

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