Warnings: Rude Language, Cutting and Character Death.

Rating: M

A/N: The warnings are above, so if you are offended or affected by any of the above then please turn back now. I don't want flames about that. As for the lovely readers who aren't please enjoy and R&R.

Disclaimer: I do NOT own Eyeshield 21

"Fuck off and leave me alone!" I shouted at the top of my lungs to my parents. These would be the last words I would ever say to them. They died, on impact, latter that day in a tragic traffic accident. I regret it. I regret that they were the last words that they heard me say.

Why, you ask? Why did I scream that at them? Why I was so angry at them? Well earlier that day, they had found out my two secrets. The first being I play American Football as a Running Back, they hadn't minded that I watched it on television but actually playing was a different matter. The other being that I am in love and dating a guy and not just any guy, it just happens to be the one and only devil Captain and Quarterback, Youichi Hiruma.

I remember the day I asked him out. Contrary to what I expected he said yes. If memory serves well, Hiruma yelled 'Fuck yeah!' and promptly smashed his slightly dry lips with my plump ones. Our relationship was told to none and we acted as before except when we were alone. I loved spending time with Hiruma these were the best times of my life.

I would have thought they would be more upset that I was playing American Football than dating a guy, but I guess I was wrong. The look of disdain in my Mother's and Father's eyes. I had never thought that they were homophobic.

After the crash Youichi took me in. He cared for me and I will be eternally grateful for that, but I can not keep on living knowing that I had disappointed my parents so much and said stuff I now regret.

But Youichi, if you remember anything from this, remember this and remember it well; I love you from the bottom of my heart. It is not your fault I did this and please please please keep on living.

Love, Sena Kobayakawa

Tears leaked from Hiruma's eyes as he broke down into an empty shell. Despite his precious Sena had begged him to live, he knew he couldn't anymore. Carefully placing the letter back on-top of Sena's chest, quickly picked up the knife that the other had used. Not so delicately ran the blade up his arm, watching as crimson droplets fall.

'Sena Love, we will be meeting again sooner than you think!' Youichi thought as he blacked out lying next to Sena.