I walk past Uriah in the cafeteria; he's holding a tuna sandwich, seated on one of the tables. He's talking with a full mouth, joking with Marlene and Christina.

"Tris" he looks surprised. I like it when he looks like this.
"Hey" I give him a friendly smile.

He immediately puts his lunch right away and stands next to me.

"Where have you been all morning?"
"I" I try to think of something, fast "I was helping Four with the preparations for the initiates"

I was with Tobias? Yes. Was I helping him with the preparations? No.

"I was kind of" he scratches his neck "preoccupied"

Marlene and Christina both look at each other suspiciously. What's going on?
"Well" I touch his shoulder "I guess you could say I'm ok"

We both laugh a little. Four comes in and I walk toward him. He looks at me an Simeon right away; this are the moments when I can tell how much I love him. A lot.

"Hey there, stiff" he says, rounding my waist with his arms.
"Well, Mr.," I look deeply into his eyes "do I have to remember which faction you came from?"

He giggles and looks like Tobias, not like Dauntless' Four.

"Do you already got your breath back?" I whisper into his ear.
"Well, you took it with you when I first saw you"

I laugh into his chest. It feels so comfortable to be with him.

"See you before initiates climb?" He asks me when we are already separated.
"Deal" I say an deposit a small kiss intros his lips. He smiles and starts to walk away.

I sit next to Uriah, in front of Marlene.

"So" says Christina, playing with her peas "you were, hum, with For, huh?"

A little laugh comes out of Marlene's mouth.

"Yes" I say smiling "doing preparations and stuff"
"Preparations" she repeats, holding a laugh back, I can tell.

During the past couple of days, me and Tobias have been, spending, a lot of time together. Everyone already knows about our relationship, even Dauntless' leaders. There's no need to keep it hidden anymore, but there's neither need to tell everyone about our privacy.

"Uriah" Marlene says "Say something, kid!"

I look right at him. If Marlene didn't mention him, i would have totally forgotten about Uriah.

"Um" he looks to his food "the mashed potatoes taste great"

My stomach almost barks. I'm really hungry.

"Can I have some?"
"Why don't you go and get it from the stand?" Marlene asks, annoyed.
"I'm too exhausted to go right now"

My back, legs and torso hurts. Having sex with Tobias is exhausting.

"Sure" Uriah passes me his bowl of mashed potatoes. I grab his spoon and start to dig in it.
"Wait" says Christina a little bit disgusted "Are you guys going to eat from the same spoon?"
"Well" I glance at Uriah "does it bother you?"
"Of course not, Tris" he says, smiling.
"So, there's no problem" I start to eat; he was right. It is delicious.
"It's like you guys have kissed" Marlenne says, jokingly, I think.

Uriah looks furiously at her and I drop the spoon and start laughing. Marlene and Christina glance at each other, then at Uriah and then, the three of them, at me.

"What's so funny?" Asks Uriah, a little bit confused.
"Nothing" i take the spoon again "it's just that" I look at Marlene and Christina "You guys are always fooling around. I like being with you"
"I wasn't foo–" Marlene starts to say, but before she can finish, Uriah looks her deadly in the eye.
"They're such fools. Don't listen to them" he puts his chin on his hand "but tell us, are you going to scare any initiates today, Tris?"
"Oh God" I say looking at him surprisingly "The initiation process! I have to go now, I have to get dressed and take a shower" I get up and start jogging to my flat "See ya later guys?"
"Yes" Uriah screams "I'll see you in the net!"

I can barely hear him over all the other dauntless on the hallway. I start to jog faster, almost running, I get past the tattoo shop, should I stop to say hi to Tori? Maybe later. If I don't shower and change clothes fast, I won't make it to the net in time to see Tobias before the initiates start to jump.

I open the door and start to get my clothes off— it isn't easy. I've got a pair of really tight leggings on and a tight blouse, with a grey hoodie on. When Im already naked, I look up and scream out of fear; there, in my room, is Eric, looking shocked at me.

"What are you doing in here!?" I scream at the top of my lungs, but he doesn't seem to listen. He's still shocked "get out!" I slap his face so hard, my hand appears over his skin in a reddish tone.

He mumbles a "sorry" and immediately gets out. I thought only the mark of my slap was red, but his whole face was now red, just as mine.

I climb into the shower and start to clean my skin fast and hard, I feel really dirty now. "Two men have seen me naked today" a laugh escapes my mouth and I cover it with both hands. What is wrong with me? I think being shy right now is making me feel funny. I lean my face towards the cold, white wall. "It's not like he's gonna make fun of me for having a 12 years old's body" I say, trying to calm down "Is Eric, he'll obviously will" I shut off the shower and dry my hair, with a towel on my body. I put on eyeliner and mascara, some powder on my cheeks and gloss on my lips. I wear some black ripped skinny jeans, a black top that uncovers my shoulders and some combat boots. I let my short blonde hair hang loose, it has grown, but I like it better when it isn't in a ponytail.

I get out of my flat. I start to walk fast toward the net; every face I walk past in the hallway, feels like he or she has seen me and Eric half an hour ago. I try to forget about it but it seems almost impossible. I feel a hand on my back. "Eric's hand" I think to myself and feel dirty just thinking about it.

"Don't touch me" I say covering my face with shame. I can already feel my cheeks burn.
"Tris?" Asks a strong voice. Not Eric's voice. "Are you alright?"

Tobias holds the back of my torso with only one hand; enough to make me shiver.

"Yes" I don't know if I should tell him or no "I just" I hold the bridge of my nose "I remembered that time when Al, Drew and Peter tried to throw me into the chasm"

I lied. I lied to my most beloved one.

"Tris" he hugs me so hard I can barely breath "you're safe with me now"

I feel guilty. Really really guilty.

"I love you" I say, not sure why I didn't tell him the truth.
"I love you too" he stares back at me "do you want to go to my place?"
"I think I don't feel like having intimacy right now, Tobias"
"I—I" he blushes "I didn't mean, I mean, I wasn't talking about..."

I laugh at the thought of Four, the strong and intimidating Dauntless, being shy and blushing.

"I get it" I say, grinning "but I would prefer to eat something"
"You know" he takes my hand an we both start to walk towards the dinning hall "sometimes I fell like you are rude to me, Beatrice"

A laugh bursts out of me.

"I'm not rude" I close my eyes. Eric's shocked face is still there "you're just...soft"
"Soft?" He asks, jokingly surprised.
"Yes, the opposite of tough"

We both grab an orange juice and three chocolate cookies. There isn't anyone on the dinning hall; I guess everyone's getting ready. We walk to the net, over the platform and suddenly a voice rises out of nowhere, a tough and raspy voice that makes me shiver from feet to head; now, it was really Eric.

"Beatrice" he looks at both of us.

Tobias looks at him as if he wanted to make him burn into ashes.

"I mean" he stands up straight "Tris"

We both catch our eyes; I immediately look away. I just can't look him straight. I can't think straight.

"I need to talk with you" he looks over his shoulder to Tobias "Alone"
"Why?" Tobias asks, being defensive.
"No need to tell you" he answers, looking him deadly in the eye.
"It's ok" I let go off Tobias' hand "Im going to talk with him"
"But why?" He asks, pressing my shoulder.
"I already answered to that question" the tension heats up. I can't believe this is happening. "Four"
"Let's go, Eric" I say, taking his arm and getting away from Tobias.

We walk to the pit, some meters away from Tobias. I let go off Eric's arm and look to his eyes, arms crossed. He's the one that looks away now.

"I" he says, almost mumbling "I think I owe you an apology" he scratches the back of his neck an I bite my lip. Why am I doing it? "So" he extends his hand towards me "Sorry"
"Let's just" I look at his hand and then back at him. I do not take it. "Forget about it, shall we?"
"Yes" he puts his hands in his pockets "I mean, I'm just, really really sorry"
"Why where you in my room, anyways?" I lean back to a wall.
"I just wanted to wish you luck on your first day as a, um, initiate trainer"
"Well" I give him a little smile "I guess you can wish it now"
"Good luck, Tris" he puts his arms around me and hugs me. Not tight, but neither loose.

I hug him back and his smell is all I can breathe. He smells like perfume and laundry detergent, who would think Eric smelled good. Wait, did I just say that?

"Thanks" I say, arms crossed again "I think I better go back with Four now"
"Yes" he leans into a wall "See ya in training?"
"I guess so" I say, walking to the net.

What just happened. Was him Eric or just some look-alike? Why did he even hugged me? Why did I hugged him? At least I won't have to be preoccupied about the accident anymore.

"Why did he wanted to talk?"
"Are you jelly?" I grin.
"Yes" he rounds my waist "a lot"
"You shouldn't be" I smile.
"I saw you too hugging" he remarks my tattoo of the birds.
"He was just wishing me luck"
"You don't need it" he leans and kisses my neck.
"I know" I kiss his ear "but luck is always necessary"

Suddenly the room us surrounded with too many Dauntless; everyone wants to see the new initiates. I almost can't hear over all the noise they make, but I can hear the train getting closer. The next thing I hear is little sobs or screams saying things like "ow" or "it hurts". Now I know they have already got off the train. I hear Max an Eric giving instructions to them; explaining what Dauntless is for an believes in. Suddenly, a strike of reddish hair and freckles falls over to the net. The fist initiate that jumps.

"Your name?" I ask to her, trying to be intimidating.
"Lara" she says, being confident and smiling.
"Four" I look at him "announce her"

He takes her hand and raises it in the air.

"Lara!" He screams happily "The first jumper!"

All the people being to scream and cheer for the girl; suddenly, they're all stretching hands and talking to her. She's an Erudite; I can tell by her clothes. Blue shirt, black pants and sneakers.