A/N: Hey guys! New story :) Enjoy!

Disclaimer: Victorious = not mine. I also do not own 'Les Miserables'.

CHAPTER 1: The Role of Eponine

Beck. He's been my life for the past 2 years, and he's absolutely perfect. I love him. However, things just aren't the same. With most relationships, the beginning always feels like that fairy tale love. You think you're going to be together forever and that you couldn't love anyone more than you love each other. That's how I felt... until I met Cat Valentine.

1 year & 6 months earlier

I had gotten accepted into Hollywood Arts and we had to do a summer show right before school started. This summer's show was Les Misérables. One of my all time favorites! It's french for 'The Miserables'. If you don't know me, I guess I should tell you that I love pain... well, causing pain anyways. This was the perfect show for me.

I really wanted the role of Eponine, a tough girl who is deeply in love with a boy named Marius. Eponine is one of my dream roles. I had to audition for the role though. After my audition, I felt confident that I would get a major role. However, this musical is double casted, which means that there is a red cast and a black cast and some of the parts will be shared between two people. We don't find out the parts until the first rehearsal though.

As I sat in my room, studying the lyrics to the musical, my phone began to vibrate. I looked on the screen and saw that it was my boyfriend, Beck. We'd been dating for almost 6 months now and I was completely in love with him.

"Hey babe!"

"Hey gorgeous! What are you doing?" Beck said.

"Just trying to learn all the lyrics for the summer show."

"Oh cool! I'm so excited for it!" Beck was also going to be in the show. He had gotten accepted into Hollywood Arts as well.

"Me too!" Beck was the only one who could bring out this side of me. Usually I'm just really annoyed with most of the people I talk to, but Beck makes me happy.

We talked for the rest of the night. In the morning, we would have our first rehearsal.

I jumped up at the sound of a loud beeping and slammed my hand on the snooze button. My mom walked in my room and pulled the covers off of me.

"Come on Jade, you have rehearsals today." I groaned, and got out of bed.

When I walked into the theatre where we'd be rehearsing, most of the people were talking and laughing in groups. Most of the students had already known one another. I felt alone, but then I saw Beck. I walked over and he embraced me. His arms are always so comforting.

"Alright everyone, settle down and take a seat!" Said Rocco, the guy in charge. Once everyone was seated, he began to talk again. "Welcome to Hollywood Arts summer production of Les Misérables!" Everyone clapped. "If you don't already know, Les Misérables is about a man named Jean Valjean who is released after spending 19 years in prison for stealing a loaf of bread. Then, a Bishop helps him get on track and Valjean is able to find God and is motivated to be a good man. He eventually rises to become the Mayor of a town and a factory owner. But, he has also broken his parole and Javert, a policeman, is after him. Then, one of his workers Fantine, is about to die, and Valjean promises to take care of her daughter, Cosette. Valjean purchases Cosette from the money-grubbing Thenardiers, where she had been lodging. And 9 years later, Cosette has become a woman. Some students are trying to start a French Revloution to gain more freedom and Cosette falls in love with a student revolutionary, Marius. However, the Thenardier's daughter, Eponine is in love with Marius, but Marius loves Cosette. When the revolution starts, Eponine follows Marius to the battle and gets shot. After a battle, all the students die, except Marius who becomes unconscious in the sewer of Paris. Before Valjean dies, he manages to save Marius so that Marius and Cosette can be wed. It's all very confusing..."

He talked about all the rules and a bunch of other boring shit. Then, he got to the casting part and I paid close attention. I ignored all the other roles and listened for Eponine. "Eponine is..." I crossed my fingers. "Cat Valentine."

"WHAT?!" I yelled, not meaning to say out loud. All heads were turned to me, but then snapped away to smile at the girl who's name was 'Cat Valentine'. She had curly brown hair, and the biggest, most beautiful eyes I had ever seen. I hated her. She looked like a stuck up bitch. What did she have that I didn't that caused her to get the role of Eponine? I know I sound like a fucking diva, but I really wanted and deserved that part.

It was time to rehearse the songs and I made sure to listen closely to Eponine's parts. Cat was good...

Ugh, this pissed me off! Beck told me that I needed to calm down. He thinks I'm over reacting and that it's 'just a part'. Well, it's not just a part... it's Eponine. However, after watching and listening to Cat... I began to wonder if I was so perfect for the part. The way Cat sang and expressed her feelings through every word that she sang... it was amazing. Damn it... I feel as if I'm not good enough anymore.

Everyday at rehearsals, my focus was on Cat. No matter how hard I tried to think about something else, I couldn't. But it wasn't because I was pissed at her for being Eponine... it was because of how good she was. I'm not the type of person to really look at other people's talents, but Cat's seem to explode from her. She seems too perfect to be true... it disgusts me.

"Sweetheart, you need to calm down. You're not fun to be around when you're all... moody." Said Beck.

"I'm sorry babe. She just... I don't know. It's really weird. I'm not sure if I should admire her for her talent, envy her for her talents, or hate her for her perfectness..." Shit, I wasn't even making sense. Why is she making me feel this way? No one has ever caused me to have all these conflicted feelings.

"Well, just stop thinking about her." I paused for a moment. And realized that, I can't seem to get Cat off my mind. It's like she's stuck...

"I can't..."

"Why not?" He said curiously.

"I don't fucking know." I sighed and went to the bathroom. When I entered the bathroom I walked over to a sink and looked in the mirror. I didn't know what the hell was going on or why thoughts about Cat were swirling in my head. Suddenly, one of the stall doors open. My heart almost leaped out of my chest, and I was confused as to why I was getting extremely nervous all of a sudden. The girl walked towards me, headed for the sink next to me. I wanted to say something to her so that I could hear her angelic voice respond to me. What the fuck? Ugh...

"Hi." She said bubbly. I was surprised to hear her talk to me first.

"Ummm... hi." I replied trying to hold myself together.

She didn't respond, but I wanted to keep the conversation going. "So, Cat, right?" I asked.

"That's me. What's your name?"

"I'm Jade." I smiled at her.

"Oh cool name! I'm really bad with names though, but I'll do my best with remembering it!" She smiled. She seems like such a bitch... but she's hot... UGH, why did I just say that? Well... it's true. She walked out.

Everyday was a constant war with my thoughts. I didn't understand what was going on. I could barely hear anything around me half the time because of how confusing my thoughts were getting. Why is Cat making me feel this way? Do I hate her, or like her? It's a stupid thing to be so conflicted about, yet, it's causing a riot in my mind!

At dinner that night, my mom kept staring at me.

"What?" I asked.

"You've been acting so weird..." My mom said.

"I have? Oh, well, don't be worried! I'm fine..." I said, trying to cover how confused I've been.

"Well, I'm still worried." That was the last thing she said during dinner. I thought she was just going to let it go, but before I went to bed she grabbed my hand.

"Roll up your sleeves please."

"Umm... why?" I was confused.

"I just want to make sure you aren't cutting or something."

"Mom, I don't cut!"

"Just show me your wrists." I groaned but did what I was told. "Okay, thank goodness. But I'm still worried about you. After rehearsal tomorrow, I set up an appointment for you to go see Mrs. Parham."

"I don't need to see a therapist, I'm fine!"

"I can sense that your not..." I ignored her and went to my room. My mom is so overly worried about me and she's extremely Christian too, so she wants to make sure that I'm not 'sinning'. But I've always been pretty good! Besides my cussing, I don't think I've ever really done anything bad. Nothing is fucking wrong with me! At least... I'm pretty sure...

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