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A Clean Break with Every Breath

Chapter One: Unbearable Pain

Bella's POV

Billy called Charlie three days ago to tell him that Jacob was missing; it had been hours since Jacob left after a fight with Leah Clearwater. I kept thinking about all of the reasons as to why he left without even saying goodbye. I was pulled out of my thoughts by a knock at the door it was Edward. I opened the door looking at my smiling angel holding a dozen red roses and freesias. His beautiful crooked smile broke as soon as he sensed my distress I tried to pull my emotions together but just like an open book I could not wipe the deep sadness from my face, I just couldn't I was devastated and worried out of my mind. Jacob was missing, my Jacob alone and vulnerable. Edward quickly pulled me into a caring embrace holding me close to his chest. I beckoned him inside and he followed, he instantly saw Charlie sitting on the couch looking at the TV, not watching trying to hold back tears.

It had been three days now, the hope and faith of finding Jacob was disappearing fast. Jacob had been like a son to Charlie, If Charlie and Jacob had their ways then he would have been a son to Charlie, my thoughts lead to Sam and the others had been out looking for him but they could find no trace. I called to Charlie telling him I would be upstairs if he needed me, he just nodded and stared intently at the screen. I don't even think he realised that it was not on. I lead Edward upstairs and I sat on the bed, he just sat looking at me intently in the rocking chair, his eyes topaz and smouldering at me. I started to cry uncontrollably as I shook and he just pulled me over and sat me on his lap holding me close trying to take the pain away. We sat there rocking for hours and eventually my crying subsided. I snuggled into his chest as he just sat there looking at a loss, I was suddenly laughing and crying as a wave of hysteria passed over me. Edward lost for words? Never!

"Are you alright Bella?" He asked.

"What-kind-of-a-stupid-question-is-that?" I managed to spit out between sobs.

There was an awkward silence as my sobbing got much worse. I couldn't hold in all of the emotion I had kept bottled up in front of Charlie trying to be strong I just couldn't do it anymore.

"I'm sorry Bella" he said, leaning into me his chin rested on my hair. More hysterics continued.

"Don't you see?" I asked incredulously.

"See what?" He asked genuinely confused.

"This is all my fault! I'm a horrible, horrible person I am pushing away everyone I have ever loved. I'm even pushing you away too! If I hadn't been so mean to Jacob the last time I saw him, if I hadn't have crushed him I…I…." I trailed off into more crying.

"This is not your fault" He exclaimed defiantly, "I could never stop loving you, you should know that after all this time. After all we've been through!" A slightly angry look glazed over his face before a look of love and concern washed back over. "I love you Bella and nothing will ever stop that or get in the way of us being together"

I looked up into his eyes past his long eyelashes and saw the golden beauty that shone through genuinely worried for me. I couldn't stop staring as his eyes grew a shade darker, a fraction darker. Most people would not notice but I did. I just pulled him closer to me giving him a forceful hug,

"Actually Bella…" He said pushing me off his lap and standing me up.

"What?" I asked blinking back my tears. He walked by the door with a look of guilt on his face

"I may have had something to do with this..." Edward said gauging my reaction.

"Y-o-u… WHAT?!" I shouted not being able to hold onto my composure any longer, at least my crying had stopped.

"I sent him a wedding invitation" he looked down at the floor guiltily.

"Oh…I see" He winced waiting for a violent reaction from me, or worse telling him he should leave immediately.

"Is that all you're going to say?" I had left an awkward silence between the two of us.

"Yes, it's not your fault" He stood there looking shocked as though I said something that was unable for him to comprehend. I continued "He knew it was coming and I suppose that's that". He stood there his jaw still at his feet. Charlie called downstairs mentioning something about dinner. I glanced at the clock it was already eight-o'clock in the evening. Time had flown it was morning when Edward came; then I looked over to my dresser where the roses were.

"Thank you" I said holding them to my nose and inhaling deeply they smelt great and my spirits were lifted instantaneously. Then I remembered Charlie and I went downstairs to find him still in front of the television slightly shaking.

"Are you hungry Dad?"

"I don't feel like food right now Bella"

"OK – I'm going out back to the Cullens' I'm staying over"

"Sure Bells, just…be safe…don't get lost or anything" I was astounded I expected him to fly off the wall but nothing was normal any more. He trusted me and Edward not to do anything stupid, his resentment for Edward slowly disintegrated after we told him and Renee that we were engaged. I can't believe that there was such a time when I felt such happiness with my parents.

I went out of the house to find Edward's shiny Volvo there I got into the passenger seat and we drove off. The speedometer reached 40mph; I sighed and told Edward that tonight I wanted to take the scenic route. He nodded and kept looking straight ahead as if focusing on the road, every few seconds he looked at me with an expression of worry and disdain over his perfect features. The car sped smoothly until it reached top speed. I felt free at last; I wanted to get out of the house for a while to get away from everything, to get away from the sorrow and sadness that was in a shroud over our house and at the La Push reservation. We drove fast I looked out of the window at all of the trees whizzing past me it was just like that. Life was whizzing past me, I could not wallow; Jacob would have wanted for me to be happy. At least that was what I kept telling myself. Edward was being so good he would switch places with me in an instant to stop me from feeling like this but the fact was he couldn't. Jacob leaving left me with a clean break; I shuddered; I had heard those two words once before and It had left me broken and I hadn't properly healed. But I now knew what I had to do now the wedding was three weeks away. Three weeks until I was to get what I wanted, what I needed. To be with Edward forever I gazed up into his eyes a deep honey colour and just got lost in them.

Before I knew it we were at the house, and I was being carried by Edward to the front door where the Cullen family stood with sadness and worry etched on their perfect faces, even Alice. I felt awful knowing that I had caused this stain on faces of pure beauty. I looked at them all Emmett looked especially upset but before I could say anything Rosalie swept me up in her arms and gave me a huge hug. I was in complete shock I just stood there motionless and Edward started to laugh then before I knew it I was drowning in cold arms as Emmett and Alice and Rosalie tried to cheer me up. I have to admit it, it was working better than I expected. Esme came over and kissed me on the cheek and Carlisle put his hand on my shoulder.

Alice suddenly dropped to the floor, Jasper ran over there before I blinked to catch her. Alice's face was clouding over and an empty look was on her small face. I looked at Edward trying to decipher what emotion he was showing; he looked worried as did Jasper. A few minutes had passed when everyone started to get exceedingly anxious.

"Carlisle?" asked a panicking Jasper.

"Jasper put her on the sofa, it's all that we can do for now" Carlisle said walking over with Alice.

"Why has it been so long?" I asked. The others just shook their heads, they were in the dark as much as I was.

"Edward? What can you hear?" I turned around and faced him

"Nothing…Nothing at all"