There is only one person who has governed my cold, empty heart for so long now. It was her warm smile, and the innocent glow of her brown eyes that made me live this long.
It was the desperate yearning to protect her with every facet of my being that forced me to step forward and forget the bloodstains of the past.
Yuki.
The dances she makes in my imagination, during the nights when I haven't seen her face, are like the movements of the graceful snowfall in winter. They fall and cover everything with its mystifying purity. All the pains, the agony, the melancholy dissipated with the touch of her soft hands.
"Yuki…"
Happiness glazed over her wide innocent eyes as she heard me say her name. Her cheeks turned to a dark shade of red, and that captivated me in a way that only she can do.
Snow was falling all around us, covering everything. I know that it was cold and yet… she waited for me outside her house, ignoring the sharp coldness that enveloped her small fragile body.
Why is that?
Yuki, tell me, how could you love me when you know so little about me?
How can you love me when the only knowledge you hold in your heart is the knowledge of me being in the same species as with that that tried to hurt you?
How can you love me when you know that I'm a vampire?
You're now human and all your memories about me and our family have been erased. I hate that fact. I hate it. I don't ever want to leave your side. I don't want to play in this game of pretense with you. I want us to stay the way we were before, to freely hold each other and love each other.
But…
You're human now. And our parents did that to save you. To protect you from the insane chaos that's now enveloping my every existence.
You're human now, and you have to… fear me, right, Yuki?
And yet, here you are running towards me wearing a wide smile on your enchanting face.
"Kaname-sama! Kaname-sama!" you said with glee as you wrapped your cold hands around my waist and smiled at me.
"K-Kaname-sama?"
"Today is my birthday! This day was the one when Kaname-sama saved me from a bad vampire a year before!" She excitedly said to me. "Congratulations, Kaname-sama!"
The innocence in her beguiling eyes were so beautiful—so warm. It's only in these moments where a vampire like me can feel warmth.
I knelt down and locked her in my arms. "You've got it all wrong, Yuki." I said and I saw confusion in her brown eyes. "This day is for you. Happy birthday, Yuki."
I can feel her heart beating rapidly against my chest that instance. It was beating for me.
I know that she loves me… that in her heart, it's me that governs it.
And I hope that it will only beat for me and no one else.
I hope that I will be the only one to enter her heart….
Because when that pitiful stranger comes and forces his way through Yuki's heart, I might be unable to stop myself from killing him.