A/N: Some things have been changed to fit this story: House never went to rehab and the structure of Cuddy's office has been changed in the next chapter.

It was a few days before the trial and House was in his office contemplating his future. He knew there was a good chance he'd be going to jail for a long time. He regretted so many things. But it was too late now. He regretted how his pride with the whole Tritter situation had jeopardized his career, his friendships, and especially his relationship with Cameron. Even though she had been angry towards him lately, he understood where the anger was coming from. She was upset that he had done this to himself.

And to them.

He knew she was probably just as scared of him going to jail as he was.

Their "relationship" was a strange one. He still tried to push her away for her own good. And as always she would push back. Try as he might to persuade her there was nothing between them, the chemistry that they shared was undeniable. There was an unspoken bond between them. Next to Wilson, she had the uncanny ability to read him like no one else. Not even Stacy had been able to do that.

And God was she beautiful. How many times had he fantasized about touching that alabaster skin and running his long fingers thru her gorgeous chestnut hair? Too many to count. Of course that didn't include all the times he would just stare at her across the room when she wasn't looking.

But when their eyes did meet, neither of them had to say a word. All the longing and desire was there in their eyes for the other to drown in…to get lost in. And though he would never admit it, he did have feelings for Cameron.

But once again his stupid pride would make it so that they continued this dance of angst that had started roughly two years ago. She could do so much better, and yet lately he had wondered if he was in fact passing up a chance of being in a loving relationship. His indecision and insecurities on whether she really loved him for himself, or because he was broken had caused them both a lot of suffering. Maybe it was time to take a chance?

Maybe.

But he had waited too long. For now he faced serious jail time. And this was one mess he couldn't seem to bullshit his way out of.

House shook himself out of his trance and started to panic. He had to get Cameron out of his mind. He couldn't go to jail thinking about her day after day, night after night. He was going to be miserable enough as it was. He had to find some way to force her out of his mind once and for all. He got up from his desk, grabbed his cane and headed for the clinic.

TBC...

Please leave a review and let me know what you think so far. Chapters are not that long, but should be updated often!

---------------------------------------------------------------------