Bella's POV Why does it have to be like this?
WHY?
I thought Edward an I were meant to be. We seemed perfect together. I thought we WERE perfect, but I guess I was wrong. Why does everything always have to screw up for me? I just can't believe it. Tears are streaming down my face. I look down at my bed, and see the notes that Edward gave me, all ripped up - into a billion pieces. All the notes that said the words 'I Love You Bella', 'I'll never forget you' and 'Forever'. I can't face him ever again. I can't. He's a monster. He really is.
I hate him.
I never want to see him again. I never want to hear his voice ever again. Never. He thinks he's so perfect with his little bitch girlfriend, Tanya, but he's not. Ugh! Where's Jacob when I need him?
I don't know why I'm crying about him. Maybe it's because I...loved him. He was everything to me. He was the only person in my life that I could trust. For all I knew, he could tell everyone my secrets. He can start talking shit about me, and then I'll be an outcast. Stupid Tanya.
Stupid Tanya.
STUPID TANYA.
I have no clue what I'm going to do now. I don't know what my life will be like without him. I just don't. I have to move on though, don't I? 'I wonder if Mike still likes me...' I think to myself.
No, no. I can't do that. No. That would just be wrong. No, not just wrong. That would be horrible. I can't just use him. Can I? No. I won't do it. I'm not someone who does things like that. I can't hurt Mike like that. He doesn't deserve it. He's a great guy.
'Or should I? It can't be THAT bad. Can it?' the though pops into my head.
'Okay. No, Bella, Stop it. You won't do it. You can't. You know it's wrong.'
Ugh. Stupid conscience.
Suddenly, I'm making my way towards the phone. I pick up my address book, and look under 'N' - Newton. I'm dialling his number.
A woman answers. It must be Mikes mom. "Hello?"
"Hi, may I please speak to Mike?" I say.
"One moment please." she replies.
Shit. Am I really doing this? Oh God, oh God, oh God.
"Hello?"
"Hey! Mike? It's Bella." I say, trying to sound interested.
"Oh! Hey, Bella! What's up?" He says, definitely interested. YES! He still like me.
"Oh, nothing really. The usual. Kind of bored. You?"
"Yeah same. I'm pretty bored too. Hey... did you want to do anything tonight?" "Uhm... Is this like a date?" PLEASE SAY YES, I think to myself.
"Uhh..." I think he's blushing.
"Yeah, sure. I would love to. Come to my house."
"Okay. Give me 5 minutes." "Kay. Bye. See you."
And the line goes dead. Oh my God. I am actually doing this? I quickly put on something more 'revealing' and run downstairs to the sound of a doorbell. Oh my God.
I open the door, and there I see Mike, smiling. Oh, he looks so cute. He even brought me flowers! He's so sweet. I think I heard a 'wow' when I opened the door... Must be working.