Merry belated Christmas =3
I will try to make this a story with more chapters. And hopefully will be actually able to write a chapter tomorrow, because then it will be New Years Eve.
Sorry, this first chapter is a mess … I hope that I will be able to make up with you guys!
The captain kept turning in his sleep, to uncomfortable to dream nice, but not uncomfortable enough to have a nightmare. Certain moments he woke up, crying, at those moments he made fists and looked as if he was about to destroy the whole room, but then he turned again, trying to sleep again. Even wondering, what would have happened if they had found a way to get rid of the Tesseract, so he wouldn't had been iced for so long. What would have happened, if he had been able to jump out of the plane, right in time?
During the day, he couldn't find any rest. He made sure he wasn't at home, unless it was to eat or just to sleep. And when het got home outside those moments, he just went drawing things. From moments before he got iced, to moments after the fight with Loki, together with the Avengers. When he wasn't home, he simply went to the gym, punching the bags there every single time. Or he went riding around with his bike, not caring on where he would go to, but he needed to concentrate to the road, so he wouldn't cause accidents. When he took the time to stop, he just enjoyed the view of the sea, the mountains or he even looked from far away to cities. He didn't think during these moments, he just, enjoyed the view. Once, he even got terribly lost, but SHIELD phoned him, to ask if he needed help to get back, which he denied. And knowing that SHIELD would always kept an eye on where he went or what he did, he got even angrier.
But no matter where he went, the dreams kept following him. And also, the cold feeling, as if the ice took over his insides, so he would never feel warmth ever again. Even when he ended up in the heath of Afrika, he just felt cold. Not alone, but just cold.
Even though he and the others were a team, they all had their own life. Tony seemed to be busy with a new suit or something, Natasha still did her … thing … Clint still worked for SHIELD, he didn't had any clue of where Banner was hanging around….. But even though they all did their own things, he knew that when they were needed, they would be all together again.
At some point he took his phone out and he saw a message, from Tony. 'New Years Eve. My place.' It wouldn't surprise him at all, if it would be a party or something, but he didn't mind, at all. He actually thought it would be a good thing. For the first time ever, he decided to send Tony a text message back. 'Count me in' After 10 minutes on looking how he had to answer, to type and even to send it to Tony, he realized that he didn't had any connection, so he couldn't send the message.