Been really busy, but here's some (poetry?) for you. It's...something I'm gonna hate in the morning, but enjoy for now.
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It started out okay
He was a kid and you didn't need to impress him
Because he was your replacement
and even though he would know what that felt like later
It stung in that moment
Replaced by a circus freak
But that was okay
It was fun to hate him, to show him up, to prove you were better than him
It hurt so good
Bruce wasn't going to come around and pick you, but then again, he always was
So stubborn
Made it so hard for you
The struggle was real and still you pursued it
Masochist
Little bat replaced by a littler bat
Overlooked by a big bat and shoved to the side
...
But then things started going downhill
Because then you realised he wasn't so bad
He was pretty good actually
He made you laugh sometimes
When he wasn't being a pretentious little jerk
Still, though, it was alright
Because he was your little brother
Puppy-eyed, round cheeked, minuscule, knobby kneed and bony-thin
With nerdy little ears that stuck out like a monkey's
And tiny baby hands
Your little brother
And that was good, the perfect in between of
Hated circus freak always better than me why doesn't Bruce notice me I'm nothing
And what came next
...
Because next your little brother is growing up fast
He's taller than you now
Baby fat replaced with muscle
Filling out his frame
Hair growing out to hide those dorky ears of his
And even though you're so much older than him
Somewhere along the way
It feels he became older than you
And his puppy dog eyes
So bright and blue
Are twinkling
They twinkle at you and you don't know what to do
Except ignore that lurchtripstumble in your chest and shrug it off
Sideline yourself as he twinkles at other girls
You never noticed how many there are in the world until they're all following him around
And you want to make them go away because he's your little brother
But is that all?
No
It isn't all
Because that lurchtripstumble is now a thudthudthud
that makes your lungs shrink so you can
Never seem to catch your breath around him
And something deep inside you is aching
And your palms are sweating and you're kinda dizzy
Obviously you're sick, so you leave the room in a hurry
But he follows you and dammit why is he so good
Too good (for you)
...
He sits and asks you why you avoid him
And you can't help but look in his so twinkly eyes
And you can't deny yourself the simple pleasure
Of turning on him and kissing him
Because he won't shut up and
god you've been wanting to do this for a long time
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So you give in to the (love)sick
Let him take you out
Hold hands, exchange kisses
But you don't have high hopes
He may be the best friend, the best brother
But you've seen what he does to the other girls
Girls girlier, prettier, more alluring than you
Still, you're content to live in this moment
It's everything to you and so is he
...
It's been a while
You expected he'd be long gone by now
But look at him
Pressing kisses to your temple when he passes by
Slipping you little love post-its throughout the day
Taking you out for dinner
And you think
God what've I done to deserve this boy?
You don't want to admit it
But you're falling down a rabbit hole
You're falling in love with this
Sweet, twinkly, beautiful boy
...
So when he gets down on one knee
You can't help but say yes
(You never could resist those eyes)
(And you love it)
...
It's been a couple years now
A bunch of years actually
You've lost count
Long enough that your hands shake all the time
The corners of your eyes crinkle even when you aren't smiling
He's standing by your side
Staying strong still
And you cry every other day
Because you know you'll be leaving soon
And you never
Never want to leave him
Never, never
He's your everything
...
He's twinkling at you
Or maybe those are just the tears
You can't tell
Things are getting
Darker
Darker
Dark
Goodbye
My
(Brother, friend, love)
Everything.
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So there you have it, some dibs for your health. Drop a review, please *finger guns away*Been really busy, but here's some (poetry?) for you. It's...something I'm gonna hate in the morning, but enjoy for now.