The day her little girl was born she was sure it was a mistake. Some how she managed to get one of heaven's angels. She was such a happy little girl. She made her mother smile when her mom just wanted to shut the world out. The service was beautiful. The people were clearly numb though. They all stood around with coldly blank expressions. It was sad. The only time everyone was together was when somebody died.

Catherine lived for her daughter, she was her life. But not anymore because her daughter wasn't there anymore. Catherine stood over the coffin. Lindsey was pale and lifeless. Catherine was too numb to even cry. She ½ expected to wake up any minute and it would just be a nightmare. But it wasn't it was real. It was dark and rainy as they lay Lindsey to rest. Warrick had to stand behind Catherine to hold her up. Catherine had a blank expression on her face and was silent. She had so much anger and resentment at the world. She just wanted to scream, but she couldn't force herself to make any audible noise other than sobs. She had cried every second since it had happened.

It had been 3 days and she hadn't said a word since she saw her daughter lying on a slab in the morgue. The whole ordeal was so difficult to believe. Sara was the one who had found her. She as lying in the parking lot. She was lucky to have even made it that far. She had been beaten nearly beyond recognition there was blood everywhere. But Sara could still hear her breathing. She rushed over and scooped the lifeless 13 year old of the pavement. All she had wanted to do was find her mother. Catherine was at a scene. Sara rushed her into the building and took her to doc Robinson. By the time they got there she was barely breathing. She grabbed Sara's hand. And said just above a mumble "Tell mom to be strong," "I love her," she exhaled deeply, then she just stopped. She ceased to exist. She lie there on the morgue table. Sara screamed at the top of her lungs through tears at the doctor, "Do something," It wasn't her daughter but she knew it would give Catherine every reason for herself to quit existing.

Catherine didn't get back to the lab until an hour later everyone that was their just stood around waiting for her. The doctor had wiped off all the blood, and closed her eyes. When Catherine entered the building everyone was just standing there. None of them wanted to tell her. But she knew something was wrong by the look on their faces. Warrick went up to her. He took the evidence from her hands and handed it to Grissom. He tugged on her hand and whispered, "I need you to come with me,"

He stopped in front of the morgue doors. "Catherine please just stay calm," he says. "What's going on?" She asks in panic. He pushes the door open. She sees the usual sight. A body covered in a sheet. Warrick walks her up to the body and stands behind her as the doctor pulled the sheet down past the young girl's face. Catherine didn't say anything. She started sobbing uncontrollably as she collapsed to the ground. "My baby," she muttered as Warrick held her tightly. A death certificate had never really meant much to her. She saw them everyday, she was numb to them. They were just words written on a piece of paper. But as she was handed her only child's death certificate it was so much more than that. It was her entire reason of living taken away from her and simply summed up on a piece of paper.

She was never a quiet person, but as she stood over her daughter's grave words would still not come. She had all the support in the world, but felt lonely. She had every emotion inside of her yet felt nothing. She had no tears but cried a river. Every tear she shed in anger. She blamed everyone around her, but mainly herself. She was overwhelmed with grief, anger, and hate. She just wanted her little girl back.

Catherine would give her own life in exchange for her daughter's. Her daughter was everything to her. But as she lied in a cold grave Catherine realized she had nothing to lose but herself. It had been raining for three days. It started nearly the second Catherine found out. It was as if God knew how she felt and he was shedding tears for her. As she turns to walk away from her daughter's grave she is met by a familiar face. This familiar male face walks from his limo without saying a word. He simply meets her on the path she's walking on, and embraces her. "It'll be ok Muggs," he whispers as he hugs her tightly. That's when she snapped. Emotionally. It wouldn't be ok. Nothing would be ok ever again. Her reason for living was gone.

After the funeral Warrick takes her home. She still is speechless. When she arrives home he stays to make sure she doesn't lose it. She takes a bottle from the cabinet and unscrews the top. He sees her out of the corner of his eye. He walks up to her and takes the bottle from her hand. "This isn't the answer," he informs her, "it won't drown your sorrows." She just glares at him, and then takes the bottle back. She chugs the whole thing. She throws it on the floor and it shatters. He follows her as she goes to the couch. They both sit in silence. He goes over and embraces her tightly. She buries her head in his chest. She sobs.

"Catherine I know you feel angry right now, but if you don't let that go you'll never be able to function,"

"Angry? I'm furious. Somebody took my baby away from me. I just want to crawl into a whole and die,"

"Catherine what can I do to help you? That's all I want to do,"

"You can't help me. You can't just pick up the pieces. It isn't that simple,"

"I know that, but I don't want you to give up on life because of this,"

"Why does it matter if I do? No one cares,"

"That isn't true. Everyone around you cares,"

"But you don't,"

"Of course I care,"

"Just not enough," Catherine fumes as all of her frustrations pile up.

"I care more than you know. Catherine I love you,"he says truthfully.

"Warrick please just go,"

"Why?"

It seems when you're angriest sometimes you say the most. Sometimes you can't help and pour your heart out.

"I just lost my daughter, and I'd rather nip this relationship in the bud,"

"What are you talking about?"

"All I ever wanted was a happy family. And over the years I realized I wanted you to be part of it. But you're married so that part will never happen. And my daughter is gone so I don't have a family,"

"Catherine I never knew you felt that way about me,"

"Yes you did. But then you went and got married. I love you, and you don't love me because you stay with wife. If you cared about at all you never would have married her,"

"Things between Tina and I are pretty much over,"

"Don't lie to me,"

"I'm not. When I left the house this morning I took my belongings and left my ring. I can't be with someone I don't love. Life is to precious to wait for the right time. Catherine I left her. I love someone else,"

"Yeah and who would that be?" Catherine rages on in tears.

"You,"

She beats her fists on his chest a couple of times and screams at him "Why couldn't you have told me that before,"

"I'm sorry," he whispers as he holds her closely.

He knows she needs to be distracted. As he holds her tightly he begins to kiss her. She begins kissing him back through all her tears. She straddles him on the couch. Catherine always functioned the best when she was angry, or she had nothing to lose. This was one of those times. She was so angry. The entire time she cried tears of anger. She was angry at the whole world, and she just needed to escape.