Designation: X5-392
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A/N: I am going through and editing all my one-shots.
Ask me no questions and I'll tell you nothing. Ask me who I am. Go ahead and ask me. My designation: X5-392. My occupation: soldier. My name: I don't have a name. Once I was Kavi. But now I'm simply X5-392.
I was an '09er. I was the youngest of the group and the first to be recaptured. I was outside the walls of Manticore once but no longer. I am a soldier.
What I was before is nothing. I was a screw up. I was caught at age 12. Surprised? I had been on my own for five years.
Only Zack would let a seven year old raise himself. Only Zack would separate me from Kat. Kat was partnered with me. She's the reason I survived. Zack took her from me less than a year after the escape.
I didn't see her after that. Zack wouldn't let her near me. He made sure that he was the only who ever saw me.
When I was brought back to Manticore I said nothing. I knew nothing. I was sent me through psy-ops and reindoctrination. I tried to forget the others but I couldn't.
I couldn't forget Zack and his orders. I couldn't forget Ben and his stories.
I couldn't forget being Krit's little brother. He let me follow him. I was his shadow. How could I forget Krit? Krit was my favorite brother.
I couldn't forget Kat. She had held me right after the escape. Kat calmed my nightmares in her quiet way. She wasn't a talker, Kat. She was controlled and she had shadows behind her eyes. I loved her. I didn't want to be just her little brother. She was four years older than me.
Jace ignored me when I came back to Manticore. The others whispered and they thought I couldn't hear. "Traitor." Snake." "Rat." "Deserter."
I forgot the world outside Manticore until they brought Vada in.
Vada, she wanted me to be her friend. Manticore wanted me to the get information from her. I did what I was told. Do I regret it? The answer is yes.
I can still see her face when she first saw me. She hugged me. Her eyes lit up and she smiled.
"How did you get here baby brother?" she asked.
I told her my story. She wept for me. I had never shed a tear over what had happened.
How did I repay her loyalty? How did I return her words of love? I'll tell you how. I betrayed her. I got information from her and I gave it to Manticore.
I became a good soldier. Whenever they needed help finding one of the others I was assigned. I was one of the soldiers who cornered Seth at the Space Needle.
Years passed and I grew up. I was assigned. I lived the life of a soldier. I was alone.
The others hated me because I was an '09er. I was never forgiven. I was alone. No matter how good a soldier I was I would always be viewed as an '09er.
They assigned me to the breeding program. I hated my partner and she hated me. She lay there cold. She wanted someone better and I wanted Kat.
Can a seven year old fall in love with an eleven year old? Yes.
Now I sit in this black cell. I see nothing. I hear nothing. And in a short time I will be nothing. The others, the other '09ers did they forget me? Did Kitty-Kat forget me? I hope not. Did she love me? I know she did but I don't think it was the way I loved her. Did Krit forget his little brother? I doubt it.
Why didn't they come for me? It's a question I ask myself every night. And I'll never get an answer.
Ask me who I am. I'll answer you. My destination is X5-392. My name is Kavi.
The End
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