Hello everyone! This is not my first Fan Fiction, so I know what I am doing…well sort of… ANYWAY this is a Tarrant/Alice story and Alice is narrating…but Tarrant might later on in the story…maybe in a few Chapters or so…
This is a romantic story and right now rated T… hopefully it stays this way throughout the story but who knows ;)
Enjoy and R&R! No flames please….constructive criticism is welcome!
2 years, 4 months, 9 days and about 3 and ½ hours since I left Underland. Currently I am in China, trading with Hamish's Father, Lord Ascot. And the 2 years have been dreadful. There was one place, one person, one thought that I constantly has in my mind. Underland and Tarrant. The Mad Hatter.
Sometimes I asked myself why I left in the first place. Hamish proposed, and I left to "think". Honestly I never liked the man. He was as creative as a hatter with no fabric to…make hats. You see, ever since I left I would make analogies with Tarrant. And sometimes I would be brave and call him MY Tarrant.
Anyway, it was not like Hamish deserved an answer. He was just…there. No life in his eyes. He was spoiled as a child and was raised…properly. His face was pale white, green narrow eyes, and a crop of orange hair. Ever since coming back from Underland, almost everyone and everything reminds me of Tarrant. Hamish, despite his ugliness and uncreative mind, reminds me of Tarrant. Only his hair really but STILL. The friend I made here in China, Lee, reminds me of Tarrant because of her courage and how you knew exactly how she was feeling.
Why did I leave him? Did he miss me? Of course! I thought to myself. I could tell in his eyes that he loved me, but I left him. I left him there alone for 2 years, 4 months, 9 days, and almost 4 hours. I am such a complete bitch.
Ever since I arrived in China, I appeared to look happy and content, but on the inside I was crying my eyes out in guilt and self hatred. I just left him.
I left London to come to China to trade, but I decided to stay while the sailors went back and forth from ports to China, to London, and so on and so forth.
I need to talk to someone about this. For these 2 long, dreadful years, I only made one friend, and that was Lee. She spoke perfect English and Chinese, and I have learned a few words, but I am afraid to speak them in public until I get the full pronunciation of the word.
I left my apartment, and walked down two flights to Lee's room. I did not bother knocking, knowing that she would be sitting on the couch, reading some novel.
"Lee?" I asked as I saw her sitting on the couch, looking completely absorbed in her book.
"Yes, Alice?" She asked looking up.
"We need to talk," I said and sat down next to her
"I think I know what you will be saying," She said and put down her book, "You miss your home in London do you not?"
"How did you know?" I asked, eyes narrowing.
She smiled and said softly in a deep accent, "I can see it in your eyes. It is love. You love someone but you are scared to go back. Am I right?"
My eyes widened as I said, "Yes! Is it obvious?"
"No, only if you look really closely. I am just your best friend so I would know,"
I smiled and said, "His name was Tarrant. He lived in…Oh if I tell you, you wouldn't believe me!"
I was so frustrated that I could not explain anything to anyone.
She smiled and said, "Try me,"
I laughed a bit and said, "A dreadful man named Hamish proposed to me. I did not want to, so I ran off into the forest and I told him that I needed to think. I fell into a hole, and landed in a world known as Underland. I met a man named Tarrant. At the time I only thought of him as a friend. Anyway I kill this Jabberwocky to save Underland and the Red Queen was thrown in prison with another betrayer. I left Underland to fulfill my father's dream of trading with China, because he died. I regret leaving. I wish I had not. Because I left Tarrant. He loved me, but I was blind and too arrogant to see it. I loved him too but I just could not admit it to myself. Now I can go back because I am here and"—
"Honey!" Lee said and touched my cheek to get me to be quiet, "Understand that I have no idea what you are saying! I believe you love this man! Truly I do, I can see it in your eyes. Did I not already say that? No matter. And why can't you see him?"
"Because the rabbit's hole in back in London!" Now I was crying. This was the first time I cried in 2 years, 4 months, 9 days, and 4 hours.
Lee comforted me by rubbing my back as I cried in her shoulder.
"I love him so much," I whispered, "And I left him! For a trading business! I am such a jerk! He would never want me back! Hell I wouldn't"
"Do not say that, Alice," Lee said harshly and pulled me away so I could see her face, "If you are making this big a deal then you must go back. If you love him go. If he doesn't want you then you can come back to me and we can talk about how much jerks boys are. But I doubt that he wouldn't just tremble under your arms. Be confident, Alice."
I sniffled and managed to whisper, "How will I be able to get back to London?"
She looked at me as if I were the Jaberwocky ( I am really losing it), "Can you not take a ship back to London?"
I gaped. How did that skip my mind? I could have left and been with him maybe months ago.
I stopped new tears. I couldn't. I loved him, and I would go now.
"Oh yes, Lee, you are right. When can I leave?"
"I will help you pack your things. You can leave before this ship leaves port,"
"Thank you so much Lee! Wait," I said after pausing, "What about you?"
She smiled and said, "I have other friends, and I am hoping that I met the man of my dreams one day. I will. I know that I will. But let us hurry we have no time to waste!"
***2 months later***
I am on the Mermaid's lover. I am on my way back to London. To Underland. To Tarrant. And I have not been this happy since… Gosh I have never been this happy!
One more day and I would be walking down the maze, and falling into the rabbit's hole. And seeing Tarrant. MY Tarrant.
But then a thought hit me. Does he still love me? And then a bigger question hit me.
What do I do if he does not love me?