Last night I dreamt of flowers and hummingbirds. And of you, my sweet prince with eyes like sparkling emeralds and hair darker than a starless night sky. You were lying on the grass, with messy hair, filled with leaves and twigs. You were laughing and holding me in your arms. I had never felt so happy and complete. Then I woke up.
"Madeleine, stop staring at your sandwich, you're supposed to eat it", said a voice that belonged to the person I hated the most in the whole entire world.
I glared at my stepdad's smirking face.
"Answer your father now, Madeleine", said my mother in a squeaky voice,
She is always so nervous when he's at home, it's like she tiptoeing around a volcano that could burst out lava and fire whenever. But I know why she is like that, usually I'm also like that, but today I just couldn't be bothered. Today I feel invincible, nothing can harm me.
"He's not my father", I whispered and looked down at the table, "He's just the man who fucks my mother" I regretted the words as I said them.
The room got quiet for a couple of seconds, everyone held their breath and then, hell broke loose. My stepdad rose from his seat and threw the plate with the sandwich towards my head, fortunately, I ducked before it hit its target. My mother took my little sister in her arms to look for protection, leaving her first-born child as vulnerable as I'd ever been. She threw a look at me, right before she left the room, it said "You're on your own now". And then I thought to myself, this is it. I'm going to die now. And do you want to hear the worst part of it? I didn't care.
He grabbed me by the arm, dragged me up the stairs. At first I tried to fight back, but I soon realize it to be impossible seeing he's so much stronger and bigger than me. He threw me like a ragdoll on the bedroom floor, I had no power of my body anymore, I couldn't move a limb, I could only feel. Feel all of his kicks to my stomach, his hands around my neck, his fingers finding their way down my knickers. It had happened before. A month ago. But then my mother hadn't been home. I just wanted her to come and rescue me. I couldn't believe she had just fed me to the dragon. I could see him unzipping his jeans and putting his most valuable member inside of me. He laughed. His bewildered eyes looked at me with such malice and joy, it made me feel like throwing up. He put his hands around my neck, I could barely breath and the pain between my legs only got worse and worse.
Before he left the room he leaned over and whispered in my ear
"Now I'm not the guy who fucks your mother, I'm the guy who fucks you, you could almost call me your lover. " He laughed and then left, slamming the door behind him.