Telling
By: DarkBlue Mint
Disclaimer: I wish… so, so, so much.
Notes: Yes is short, yes is not that good… But I had like the worst writer's block ever and this is what came out and I think it could have been worst.
There are a lot of things I have always wanted to tell you, apart from the fact that I think that your food is the most perfect thing in the whole world and your breasts make one of the best pillows known to man (two things that I said to you almost everyday). I want to say to you all the things that I would not normally say; things that for some reason never come out of my mouth.
I want to tell you how beautifully your eyes shine whenever we pass next to a karaoke place, or how there's happiness in your voice when I offer if you want to go inside. I want to tell you how my heart beats faster when I start to get close to our room because I know that you will be there (back from work and doing homework), I want to tell you how it skips a beat (several actually) whenever you caress my head or how it constricts when you tell me you love me.
I want to tell you how much those words hurt, how they make me want to let myself fall from the roof or on my sword (and do so many other dishonorable things), for I know you don't mean them in the way I want. I want to tell you that I love you, more than anyone could ever love you. I want to tell you that my heart breaks whenever I see you with him.
But more than anything, I want to tell you that I want you to always be happy, to always smile, because your happiness is the most important thing. And I see that beyond his shortcomings (and according to Nao he has a lot) he makes you happy, maybe more than I could always make you (although I'm sure I would try harder than him). And more important is that it was you who chose him, above my brother, above myself…
So this is the reason why I'm saying "goodbye Mai".
End.
More Notes: Thanks to all the people who help me with my block and shared their recipes, something must have worked as I'm writing now.