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Disclaimer: Kuroko No Basket does not belong to me but to the one and only Fujimaki Tadatoshi. All I own here is the story below.
Warning: Character Death
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A Broken Love Story
BAD ENDING
Kuroko's POV
We used to be madly in love with each other. So, what happened? When did you start drifting away from me? Leaving me alone in that house of ours, while you would sometimes disappear for days at a time and come back with a heavy stench of perfume on yourself. Were they really just because of your so called "business with clients"?
I waited for you every single night thinking 'He'll be back tonight, I'm sure of it.'. I trusted you so much so why, why did part of me say that you're never coming back for me? I pushed all my negative thoughts away, after all, relationships are built on trust. So I kept on trusting you, never doubting you even if I wanted to.
I wanted to at least be able to fulfill your wishes and give you the help you needed. But I could never do that since you never needed me to, you were after all the symbol of perfection. I always wondered: Why did someone as perfect as yourself choose someone like me? But then again I was content even without knowing just as long as you're here for me.
But just that one day curiosity had me caught up in its web. You came back late again and this time at 2 in the morning. I just couldn't suppress the question that come out of my own mouth. I asked you : "Why do you always come back at this hour?" . As usual you said it was just business with your clients. After that you tried to excuse yourself by saying you were tired. It was at this point where everything went wrong.
Akashi's POV
As I was heading to our bedroom, I heard you say : " You always have 'that' stench on you." 'That' stench? What did he mean? Oh. I thought as I sniffed the air noticing the heavy women perfume that has indeed engulfed air. I turned around to face you. You were looking at me with a pained expression, have you been keeping all your emotions and questions bottled up until now?
I arched an eyebrow and reminded you that I was with my clients but you just didn't seem to believe me because you asked : " Were they really just your clients?". "Of course they were, who else would it be?" I said with slight annoyance in my voice, I was just too tired for this. But our conversation, as I expected, didn't end there.
"You would be back only after days at a time."
"I'm always busy, you of all people should know that."
"You always leave me alone in this house."
"We obviously need someone to take care of the house"
"You...you always neglect me."
Silence filled the room after that. I what? Neglect you? When have I ever... That was when I realized the meaning of the question. When? Always is the answer to my own question isn't it. But I was too tired to think, I was annoyed, irritated, I just couldn't keep my calm. And I made everything worse than it already was. If I knew what was going to happen after I answered, I would've gave anything to change it. To change that cruel fate, preventing it from happening.
But then again, it's all too late now.
Kuroko's POV
"If you think I meant for this to happen, then you know what? Just go kill yourself."
My eyes widen in shock. I was close to breaking because of all of this. Right when you started to drift away from me till now, I held it all in. In doing so, I just broke myself even more and that one sentence was the finishing blow for me. My emotions got the best of me as I turned on my heel and ran away.
"Tetsuya!" I heard you call my name, sounding desperate but I didn't turn around. All I did was ran and slammed the door behind me. You must've thought I needed space or time to think since you didn't come chasing after me. Or maybe because you just didn't care. I ran and ran, further and further away from our house, from all those broken memories, and also from the happy ones.
I ran until I saw the familiar view in front of me. The place I once loved the most, being with you here was one of my happiest memories. I smiled sadly while all my memories filled my mind. Memories that I shared with you. Huge waves rolled across the surface of the sea with the reflection of the moon shining brightly upon it. I stepped on the white sandy beach, walking closer and closer to the edge, letting the water touch my feet, slowly wetting them.
I took out my phone and took a picture of the beautiful scenery I was currently enjoying, though I knew it would've been better if you were here with me, making even more memories before everything ends. Thinking of you, I sent you a message along with the picture I just took.
You must be sleeping right now since you were that tired, I thought as I stepped deeper and deeper into the sea. Since you just don't care, I thought when the water reached my knees. Oh well, at least I managed to fulfill one of your wishes, I thoughtwhen the water reached my neck. I love you, I'll always love you, I thought when the water pulled me in completely.
Goodbye, I thought as I slowly lost consciousness.
Akashi's POV
I was worried. All my tiredness seem to fade away the moment I realized what I just did. Where are you? Why aren't you back yet? I should've left to find you but I didn't, thinking you would like to be alone for a while. Thinking that you would come back soon, I stayed up waiting for you. Who knew you wouldn't be coming back. Forever.
I felt my phone vibrate my pocket. I forgot I left it on silent mode. I took out my phone to check the message I just received, hoping its from you. And I was right.
MESSAGE RECEIVED
FROM : KUROKO TETSUYA
SUBJECT : Thank you, goodbye
"Thank you for what we had. I'll always love you."
-photo here-
I read the message again and again. Not believing a single word you sent. But still I kept my cool while looking at the photo, letting the memories flood my mind for a moment. I'll apologize and we'll be together again...right? Then I realized that wasn't the end of the message. I scrolled down and...
"I died, I'm sorry."
I broke down completely.
We found your body in the sea. We had your funeral. You looked so peaceful, paler than usual but it looked as though you were just sleeping, waiting for someone to call you up. But your cold stiff body and your non-existing pulse told me otherwise. Everything passed by in a flash without me noticing. I felt the unwritten words of "This is what you wanted, isn't it?" stabbing my chest every time I look at the last message you ever sent to me.
You died. You left me all alone in this now empty and colourless world. It wouldn't have happened if I just chased after you, explained everything to you, spent more time with you. But telling myself these things are useless since there's nothing I can do anymore. You're gone. And its all my fault.
I want to apologize to you, to touch you, to hug you, to kiss you, to make you feel like the most important person in the world. One more time, just once will do. But I know that no matter how much I wish for these to happen, it won't. Because the world is not a wish-granting factory, its just a cruel place filled with cruel people.
"Tetsuya, wait for me?"
MORE NOTES:
Yes, I used John Green's words from The Fault In Our Stars. {Great book btw}
Is the ending weird? What happens to Akashi depends on your imagination!
Hope you liked my second fanfic! :)