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My hands trembled; my knees were weak, I had never been so afraid to see Jacob Black in my entire life. How was I supposed to look into his beautiful brown eyes and tell him goodbye forever. Especially after what I knew now, at how much I love him and want to be with him, but I can't. Not now, not ever.
I opened the door to his bedroom and slowly entered to see him looking out the one small window by his bed. I shut the door behind me, closing my eyes down tight to stop the tears from flowing. I took a deep breath and opened my eyes turning to him. He looked so fragile, so vulnerable and it was my entire fault.
"Billy said you were awake." I managed to say. "How do you feel?" I knew that was a stupid question but for the first time I felt awkward standing in his presences.
He didn't move, not a muscle, he just kept his focus on the window. I swallowed the lump in my throat and made my way over to his bed, taking a seat next to him. I could feel the heat from his skin as I let my fingertips trace his hand. He jerked it away placing it on his bare chest.
"I deserve that I guess." I whispher. "I deserve a lot of things."
His hand fell down upon mine, and gently he squeezed it.
"Oh, Jake…" I bit my bottom lip. "I need you to talk to me. I need you to understand why I have to do this."
He turned his head to look into my eyes. "Do you love me?" His voice was soft and hurt filled his face.
I closed my eyes again, this time tighter than before. "Yes. With every part of my body, mind and soul." I opened my eyes to see a half grin upon his face.
"Then how am I supposed to understand why you have to marry him? How can you just walk out on what we have?"
"I can't explain it. I am drawn to him, and no matter how hard I try I can't let him go."
He took his hand from mine and wrapping his arm around my shoulder and pulling me down upon his chest. "I could see us… you know the future us, when we kissed. You were happy and so was Charlie." He paused. "How can I forget that?"
"I hope you don't." I said honestly. "I know I won't. I'll never forget our dark haired kids, or the way your long hair was blowing in the wind as she held me in your arms on our wedding day." I felt my tears surfacing in my eyes. "I'll never forget that you're I wanna be."
"Then stay, Bella. Marry me." His eyes lit up and there was this calmness that I hadn't seen since pre-Italy. "Choose me." He pleaded.
I felt my heart start to race, and my body start to shake as if I was a race car starting its engine. I was now facing a dilemma of a life time. What was I suppose to do?