A/N: I'M JUST FEELING SO CREATIVE LATELY.

I used to think that true love only existed in the movies. In real life you found someone that could put up with you and in a sense that was love. I mean you have to love a person if you're going to put up with them, right? Love, I thought about it a lot. Not that I haven't felt it before, but I wanted that movie love. The kind of love that engulfed you almost drowned you. The kind that made you feel like your heart ached in a bad way even if you were tremendously happy. I was thinking about that type of love when I saw him.

He was helping his daughter walk as she grabbed on to his fingers to steady herself. She was giggling and he looked even happier than her if possible. I knew she had to be an exact replica of the mother because she had very little in common with him. The resemblance was in the eyes. They had the same green eyes and their hair matched slightly. They both looked like they had just rolled out of bed. I smiled at the sight of them and I thought then that was true love.

She looked up at me and I waved at her. She tugged her hand free from her father's to wave back. I let out a small laugh and looked up to see him. He was looking at me with an identical smile. I guess another thing they had in common.

"Dada."

"You ready to go home?"

She ignored his question, not that she could talk, and continued walking. He kept constantly apologizing as they walked through occupied tables his daughter leading the way. I couldn't keep my eyes off them.

"What you looking at?" My boyfriend asked.

I had forgotten he was here for a moment.

"They're so cute." I said.

"I don't like kids." He grunted and continued eating.

That was one of the many things we did not have in common. I loved children and I kind of had to otherwise I might have made the wrong career choice. I was a preschool teacher. My boyfriend on the other hand was doing his residency, which left him with no free time. I was still wondering how he had managed to find time for me. I saw him in the morning, maybe for lunch if our schedules matched up and I was lucky if he made it home before I was in bed.

"I guess starting a family is out of the question?" I teased.

"Definitely." He said flatly.

Another thing we didn't have in common, our humor. It was strange when I thought about it, our relationship. We met through mutual friends and despite having nothing in common we found ourselves drawn to each other. Ironically his school schedule that keeps us apart now was what brought us together. We would show up late to a lot of friend functions and we constantly found each other alone. While most of our friends were already blacked out drunk we would just talk. We both weren't drinkers. I guess one thing we have in common.

"Are you done?" He asked as he grabbed my still food covered plate.

I wasn't having much of an appetite today.

"Uh, yeah." I said.

He stood up and stepped aside and a thud startled us both. The little girl began to cry and her father was there in seconds. I felt bad almost immediately and I could tell that my boyfriend felt the complete opposite.

"Honey, it's okay." He said as he picked her up. "I'm sorry. I just let go of her for a second."

"It's okay."

"Babe." I whispered disapprovingly.

He had knocked her down. The father didn't have to apologize.

"What? This isn't a playground." He said and walked off with our trash.

"I'm sorry about him." I said.

"He has a point." He said feeling bad. "She was just so happy, I guess I got carried away."

"Please, don't be. I liked watching you guys." I said and immediately blushed realizing what I had said. "How old is she?" I asked trying to ignore my vocal farce.

"About to turn one next month." He said proudly.

"I guess I have a couple of years to wait before I see her again." I said and again it sounded extremely stupid. "I'm a preschool teacher." I explained.

"Oh, I wanted to go into teaching." He said.

"What do you do?" I asked.

"I'm practicing to be a pediatrician."

"Oh, wow, that's a coincidence."

"I know." He laughed.

"You ready to go?" My boyfriend asked rudely.

"Uh, yeah." I said.

"I'll go get the car." He said and walked out.

"It was nice talking to you, um…"

"Edward." He said and stuck his hand out for a shake.

"Jacob." I said.

Our hands connected and I swear the world stood still. It was only he and I as we stared at each other. I was getting electric shocks through my body from a simple handshake. It was as if my body craved more and I suddenly felt unfaithful. I pulled away quickly and got up.

"See you around." Edward said.

"Yeah, see you."

I felt ashamed of myself and hurried to my boyfriend. He was in the front waiting for me. I got in and before strapping myself I practically slammed into him. Our lips connected and I was quenched. He slipped his hand to the back of my neck and kept me there until our heated kiss died down.

"Well that was different." He laughed.

"Shut up and drive." I said and sat up straight.

At that moment Edward had been standing off to the side. His face was unreadable and I was frozen still, was he homophobic? He was staring and wasn't discreet about it, but then he gave us a small smile and a wave.

"What a fucking weirdo." He said and drove past him not even acknowledging him.

"I thought he was nice." I said trying to return the sentiment, but I'm not sure he saw me.

My comment went ignored. I didn't care. I simply let out a rough breath and I felt a sudden hunger within me that I didn't know how to quench.

That's how it started. I never got another chance to talk to him, not like that day. Forks is a small town and at some point you realize you have met everyone in town. Edward seemed to stick to the same places. I saw him at the restaurant often, at the coffee shop rarely in the mornings, at the park once James and me got a dog and frequently at the grocery store. I hadn't had the courage to ask more about him, but the only other information I got was that his daughter's name was Renesme. I had furrowed my eyebrow at that and he laughed. Apparently it was a common reaction. I never asked about his wife and I kind of didn't have to, as he was always alone. I knew his sister Rosalie baby-sat for him often. His parents liked to take Renesme for weekends and sometimes for longer. Edward didn't like it, but his parents lived in Chicago and didn't see them often. Due to his school and later work he couldn't travel a lot and so his family always came down for the holidays.

James and Edward had both done their residency in the same hospital, but James was back in Seattle for the better pay.

I guess I knew a lot. That's what I was thinking about when him and his daughter walked through my door.

"Hi." I said, trying not to show how mortified I really was.

Renesme looked terrified enough for both of us. I lowered myself and pushed her messy hair out of her face.

"Say hi." Edward said quietly, but she didn't budge.

"My name is Jake." I said. "You know the best part of this room?"

"No." She said on the verge of tears.

"My friend." I said and grabbed my stuffed animal hippo. "His name is Nessie and he likes hugs."

I wrapped his stuffed limps around her and she giggled.

"He's soft."

"You want to hug him?" I asked and she nodded. "Everyday he will be here to say hi and good-bye. Does that sound nice?"

"Yeah."

"Do you want me to help you put away your things?" I asked motioning for Edward to leave secretly. "Do you want to play with Mike and Jessica?"

She looked over at the other two kids here and walked over to them. I had her backpack in my hand and I put it away. When she sat down on the table she looked around and her eyes began to water. Jessica quickly distracted her with trucks and they began smashing them into each other. Catastrophe avoided. There was always that one kid and I was always prepared for them.

Once the whole class was in I began. I loved my job and so the days always went fast. By the end of the day I was excited to see Edward again. The school I worked made it so that kids got dropped off and picked up at the classroom. One by one all the kids started to leave until it was just Renesme and I.

"Was Nessie nice?" I asked as she held on to the stuffed animal.

"Yeah. He will be here tomorrow?"

"Everyday." I reassured her as she handed him to me.

"I'm sorry I'm late!" A tall woman said, rushing into the room. "I'm Rosalie."

"Edward's sister."

She looked nothing like him. She was gorgeous with long blond locks to her waist and piercing blue eyes.

"How did you know?" She asked surprised. "Hi, honey. Go get your things."

"All parents have to fill out a paper when they are giving someone else permission to pick up their kids." I explained as Renesme came back with her backpack on.

It was true, but I also didn't want to say that Edward had mentioned her a couple of times those brief moments we had small talk.

"Oh, that's good." She said pleased. "Thank you."

"Daddy?" Renesme asked for both of us, not that I would have.

"He got busy at work. Don't worry Emmett is waiting for us we're going to go eat." She said picking her up. "Where do you want to go?"

I didn't get a chance to hear her answer as they have walked out of my room. I smiled after them and turned to my classroom. There wasn't much tidying up to do, but enough to keep me busy for another hour. I gathered my things and made my way home. James wasn't going to be home as he was away at a conference. After getting his title he had moved up very quickly becoming a very prominent doctor and that caused him to travel a lot.

"Jake!" Alice said running up to me. "I knew you were still here."

Alice was another pre-school teacher. We had become quite the work besties quickly and now we were just plain best friends.

"Hey."

"I'm going on a date tonight."

"What?" I asked surprised. "When? I didn't even know you were on the market?"

She had dated Alec for a couple of years and that had ended terribly. Short story his twin sister, Jane, was psycho and creepily obsessed with him. Alice ignored it, but when Jane moved in with her brother she drew the line. They never had any alone time and Jane was somehow manipulating Alec into thinking that Alice was the problem. By the time she was going to end it with him, he did it. It was rough.

"I didn't either!" She squealed. "I met him at the bookstore of all places."

"That's different."

"Yeah and he's a teacher too! He teaches history at the community college."

"What's his name?" I asked.

"Jasper. Isn't that just an amazing name? So old school."

"Edward is an old name too." I said before I could take it back and quickly did damage control. "Also, Rosalie. They're siblings."

"Why couldn't our parents be more cool?"

"I don't know about you, but I'm okay with my name." I said laughing. "Where are you guys going?"

"We're going to the community college. They're putting up a play. How cute is that?"

"Cute and safe. You don't know this guy."

"Don't do that." She said pouting. "I think he's the one."

"Okay, calm down." I said laughing. "Are you psychic now?"

"You know…"

"Never mind."

"I told you! I knew Alec was going to break up with me before he did. If I was right about that then… that means that they're…"

"God. That's so disturbing in so many ways. I don't want to know about any incest." I said covering my ears.

"Anyways, how was your first day?"

"It was good. Yours?"

"Good, but I have a little monster. A little boy named Tyler bit another boy named Eric. I had to send the boy to the nurse and I sent Tyler home."

"I bet his parents weren't happy about that."

"Nope. His dad seemed irritated, but overall it was okay. Any trouble makers in your class?"

"There was a boy named Mike who was bothering the other kids by pulling toys away from them. I had to tell him to play nice and to ask first."

"There's always those kids. I have a little helper already. Her name is Angela and she came in with an apple. She was so excited to start school and she's really bright. I wouldn't be surprised if she skipped a grade or more."

"I had Renesme she's going to have trouble adjusting…"

"But you pulled out Nessie, right?"

"Yeah. It always works."

"You're so good with kids."

"You mean we're both good with kids."

We continued to chat in the parking lot until going our separate ways.

It had been another good class and especially good because today was the first day that Renesme didn't go straight to Nessie when she came into class. Instead she ran to Mike and Jessica. In fact, she was playing with Jessica when her father walked in. I hadn't seen him for weeks since the first day actually. Rosalie had been dropping her off and picking her up.

"Rosalie said she was adjusting well." He said as he saw his daughter. "I'm sorry I haven't introduced myself formally."

"We already know each other Edward." I reminded him.

"Yes, but this time you're my daughter's teacher. Would you like me to refer to you as Mr. Black?"

I couldn't help, but laugh. He was serious and I shook my head.

"No. All the parents call me Jacob or Jake."

"Jake it is." He said with a smile. "I see that she doesn't have Nessie in her arms."

"Today is the first day actually." I said proudly. "And she is adjusting really well as your sister informed you."

"Renesme." He called to her and she ran to him quickly.

"Daddy!" She said as he picked her up into his arms.

"I heard that you've been really good."

"Yeah! Yeah!"

"I think this deserves some ice cream."

"Yeah!"

"Her things are over there." I said pointing at the wall that held her backpack and sweater.

They left just as Jessica's mom walked in and that signaled the end of my day at school. I rushed out knowing that I had to go pick up James from the airport. I didn't want to be late, but I definitely was.

"What took you so long?" James asked as I pulled up to him.

"A couple of parents came in late."

"I don't know why you deal with that." James scoffed as he threw his bag in the back seat and joined me in the front. "That school policy is outrages. You're a teacher not a babysitter. Send them to the front office and let the parents pick them up there."

His dislike for children was still there.

"Its not a problem." I said trying to reassure him.

"Oh, so I'm chopped liver? Yeah, fuck James." He said.

"Hey." I said and tried to reach out to him, but he grabbed my wrist.

"Next time make me your priority." He said and shoved my arm away. "I don't work my butt off for our nice house, cars and money for you to set me aside. God knows where you would be with your lousy pay. Drive."

"I'm sorry."

I drove off then shakily and trying hard not to look at my arm. It burned where he had held on to me. I felt relief knowing it was the weekend and whatever mark would fade. When we got home I hurried inside with the excuse that I needed a shower. Under the water I inspected my wrist that was red and I pounded my fist against the tile wall.

"Hey." He said quietly as he walked in. "You look like you could use some company."

He was already undressed and in full display for me. He was hard and my body reacted to him. He stepped in and pressed me against the wall attacking my neck. I crumbled under his attack and let him devour my body. His hands roamed all over me and then I found myself pushed around. He lifted my arms forcing me to spread my legs as he prepped me. His hot breath was on my neck and my own erection pressed against the tile wall was making me go crazy, I needed him.

He entered me slowly and painfully. There was a tension in my body I hadn't been able to release, but eventually my body relaxed to his thrusts. Holding onto my shoulders he slammed into me continuously until our climax, it was quick. He spun me around and gave me one of those kisses, the ones that always said he was sorry without him saying it.

We showered after that and then the rest of the night was bliss. We cuddled on the sofa watching movies until he fell asleep. Not wanting to wake him I turned off the TV and made myself comfortable on his side.

When I woke up it was the middle of the night and he was gone. I groggily walked into our bedroom where he lay all snuggled in the blankets. I crawled in and wrapped my arm around him.

"You're cold." He mumbled and threw my arm off him.

My classroom was a mess from when I had left Friday. James had gone off to another work event and this time I rushed out without cleaning my room to make sure to make it on time. I fixed up the classroom just as Edward and Renesme walked in. It seemed like one week a saw Edward and another week he would be gone again.

"How was your weekend?" Edward asked as Renesme ran to play with the toys.

"Good, Good." I said and tugged at the edge of my sleeves nervously. "Yours?"

"Renesme and I did the usual. We didn't see you at the park yesterday."

"Oh, yeah." I said. "We just walked Aro around the block. James came back from his trip on Friday and we just wanted to stay close to home."

"That's nice." He said and then looked over at Renesme. "I wanted to let you know that this Friday she will not be in class as my parents will be taking her for the weekend."

"No problem."

"Alright. See you after school." He said and then walked over to his daughter.

He kissed her good-bye and then left the room. I walked over and joined Renesme. We build blocks and then as I reached to place the last block at the top of our tower she pulled my arm down.

"Do you want me to kiss it all better?" She asked.

"What honey?" I asked and then she pointed at the bruise on my forearm.

"Kisses make it all better."

"Oh, no. I'm fine." I said with a smile. "Thank you, that's very nice of you."

I pulled my sleeve down and then stood up as another kid walked in. Maybe today was going to be a long day.

"I'm going to marry him." Alice sighed as we talked outside in the hallway.

It was naptime and that gave us about an hour of free time. Luckily for both of us in our classes all the students nap. If not, we would be doing quiet activities with the awake kids.

"Hope you didn't tell him that." I laughed.

"I did."

"No you didn't!"

"He took it very well actually. I also think his family is going to love me."

"You told him all that?" I asked in disbelief.

"Not the family part, but I just know."

"And he didn't run for the hills? Okay, he might be as crazy as you."

"Its called love Jake, not that you would know anything about it."

"She says to the man who has been in an eight year relationship."

"You and James are co-habitating. Somehow you guys fell into this weird routine…"

"You did not just call my relationship a routine."

"I know you hate it when I say this, but you guys are not going to last…"

"You've been saying that since I met you three years ago and look at us." I laughed.

"Fine, fine." She said lifting her hands in surrender. "I digress. I was going to ask you if you wanted to meet him tonight?"

"Really?"

"He's going to introduce me to his siblings tonight and you're like a brother to me. The closest thing I have to a family really, you know that."

Alice had been abandoned at birth. There were no births recorded in the area the night she was found, she had been left at a church. People had speculated that her mother was young and had a home birth. She definitely wasn't a newborn and they guest she was at least a couple of days old. But with no confirmation she was given the day she was found as her birthday. She grew up in homes all her life and never made any connections. She was quiet and shy.

That all changed when in high school she earned a scholarship to study abroad in France. She came back a different person. She loved her independence and freedom. When she came back at sixteen she got her emancipation and worked to put herself through school. By the time she graduated high school she had her whole life planned. All she was missing now was her husband who she knew would be blond and tall. Alec definitely fit that bill and I wondered if Jasper did too. God, maybe she was psychic.

"Alright. What are we doing?"

"We're going to his place. Its my first time, too." She said leaning against the wall. "He lives in a small one bedroom apartment. He says its cluttered with books and it's a mess of a place, but he'll have it spotless for me."

"Did you tell him how you keep your tiny studio apartment? I think he has the wrong idea of the type of woman you are." I said laughing and she joined me.

"He knows I'm a mess. We're so perfect."

"A perfect mess, literally." I laughed.

"Shut it. Anyways, I'll text you his address and plan to uber. We're going to be drinking. He's a wine person and he's going to cook. His brother is going to help, but still. A man who cooks? Amazing, huh?"

"Now that's a rarity and that's coming from me a man who doesn't cook and who is dating another man who doesn't cook."

Before she could answer there was a shriek from her classroom and she ran quickly. I walked back into my classroom knowing that if it was an emergency that she would be back. Most of the time it was just a kid who had woken up earlier than everyone else.

The school came to an end after that. Alice reminded me again at the parking lot about the meet up. Once I was home I was surprised to see James lounging in the living room.

"You have the night shift today?" I asked.

I leaned down and placed a kiss on his lips and he quickly pulled me down to his lap.

He was gone in the morning when I left, but he had probably just gone out for his morning gym session.

"Yeah. I'm working the ER."

"Have you eaten? Do you want me to make you something?" I asked getting out of his grasp.

"You don't cook." He said laughing as he followed me into the kitchen.

"I'm pretty sure I can scrap something up."

"Are you trying to make me wife you up?" He asked as he came up behind me. "I can put a ring on that."

"You should have been putting a ring on this." I teased him and moved aside.

"I don't see you getting down on one knee either." He laughed.

"Oh, shut it."

That's how the afternoon went. I managed to scrape up pasta with garlic bread with the help of Google. James hadn't liked it that much. I had apparently over cooked the pasta and put too much garlic on the bread. He couldn't finish it. He got in his scrubs and kissed me good-bye. At that same time I had gotten a text from Alice telling me that she was on her way already. I got myself ready and also made my way to Jasper's place.

Alice was already inside when I knocked on the door.

"We're the only ones." She said as I walked in.

"Hi, Jake. I'm Jasper nice to meet you."

Jasper was beautiful. He had shoulder length blond hair that curled at the ends. He had blue eyes that I knew had to shine under the sun. He looked familiar, but I couldn't put my finger on it.

"Nice to meet you as well." I said and we shook hands.

"The others will be here soon."

"Isn't he cute." Alice whispered in my ear as Jasper continued working in the kitchen.

"The party is here!" A loud booming voice said and I turned back to the door.

He was tall and extremely muscular. He had short dark, brown, hair and was taller than me and I was pretty tall. He was followed by… Rosalie?

"Hey, I know you." She said and pointed at me.

"From where?" Jasper and the other one asked.

"Jake?"

Edward walked in behind them. I definitely did not sign up for this. I'm pretty sure this is not appropriate either.

"Yeah, Jacob. He's Renesme's teacher." Rosalie said.

"I didn't connect the dots at all." Jasper said. "This is Alice. She works with Jacob at the same school."

"Alice, these are my siblings. Edward, Rosalie and Emmett."

"It's nice to meet you guys." Alice said and quickly greeted everyone.

Edward joined Jasper in the kitchen and they got to work. He cooks? Ah, this is not good. He had intrigued me from the beginning and I had tried to escape him from then. From the moment our hands touched it was like he could capture me.

"Drink?" Emmett asked.

"Yes." I said and took a cup filled with who knows what.

"So you teach."

"Yep." I said taking a big sip. "What do you do?"

"I own a gym. I used to be a personal trainer back in LA, but I always knew that I wanted to have my own business."

"With my push." Rosalie said as she came up behind him, placing a kiss on his cheek. "Though I do miss you being my trainer."

"I give you a work out in different ways now." He said and snuggled her neck.

"Wait, aren't you siblings?" I asked extremely confused.

"Emmett is my husband." Rosalie said laughing. "Just to get it out of the way. Jasper is my twin brother and our parents adopted us before they had Edward a couple of years later."

"Oh."

"Another round of drinks." Emmett announced and collected our cups.

"Good call on not driving." I said to Alice who sat comfortably on the couch.

Emmett continued to hand out drinks well into dinner. It was fun and I don't remember the last time I had fun. After dinner we all met in the living room where more drinking continued.

"Next time you should bring your boyfriend." Jasper said.

"He's working all the time." Alice said.

"I'll be sure to invite him next time." I said.

"Now we just have to find Edward here someone." Emmett said.

"Someone who loves children." Edward said.

"Someone who loves watching movies because he's a big movie guy." Jasper added.

"Someone who wants to travel though Edward doesn't travel." Rosalie said laughing.

"Alright, Alright." Edward said laughing.

"How about someone who isn't a piece of shit? That should be enough." Emmett said.

"Why do you say that?" Alice asked.

"This asshole at my gym." Emmett said shaking his head.

"Oh, not that one." Rosalie sighed. "What did he do now? What's worse than cheating?"

"Apparently he has a kid."

"No!" Rosalie said. "This is the same one who says he hates kids?"

"I know. He's going to try and have two families. Sick." Emmett said and poured us all shots.

"To not being assholes to our significant others." Jasper said and we all took our shots.

"Who is this guy anyways?" I asked.

"He's only been going there for a couple of months." Emmett said. "He's a doctor I know that."

"I, I think I've had too much to drink." I said getting up because suddenly I was disgusted.

"The bathroom is through that door…" Jasper began.

I didn't even let him finish as I hurried and walked into the master bedroom. I didn't care and walked into the bathroom. I fell in front of the toilet. I heaved, but nothing came out. Instead I cried as I clutched the toilet as if my life depended on it. It was just a coincidence. There was no way it was the same guy.

"Jake." Alice said walking in. "I know what you're thinking."

"I don't want to talk about it." I said.

I got up and washed my hands.

"Do you think James is capable of cheating on you?"

"I don't know what I think!" I screamed. "Maybe? You're the psychic, right? You tell me."

"I'm not going to tell you anything. You have to come to your own conclusion."

"Says the one who tells me we're not going to last."

"Fine." Alice said sighing. "I think he travels too much to be just work. He doesn't make you his priority and somehow you always do. He manipulates you, controls you and is extremely jealous. I think he's hiding something."

"I… Need to go home… I have to know…"

"Breathe." Alice said and guided me to the bed. "Let me get you some water and sober up, okay?"

Alice left and Edward came back with the glass of water.

"Are you okay?" He asked.

"I'm fine." I said and scooted away from him. "Too much alcohol."

"Why does it feel like you're always running away from me?"

"I think you've had enough to drink, too" I said laughing awkwardly.

"I think I've had just enough."

I might have been out of the dating game in a while, but that was definitely a come on. This was the last thing I needed. I knew that… But, somehow… It made me feel something.

"Hmm."

"I know this might be forward of me, but you feel it. Don't you?" He asked and joined me on the bed.

"Feel what?"

"This." He said placing his hand over mine. "I feel drawn to you."

"You don't even know me."

I didn't really know him either, but I knew what he was talking about. I wasn't going to admit that right now. This was not the time, was he crazy? We are both not sober enough for this.

"I know you're the sweetest guy I've ever met." He began. "I've been watching you for a long time."

"You're gay?" I asked surprised.

He was definitely hitting on me.

"All my life."

"But Renesme?" I asked.

"It was a one night stand. She was a very sweet girl, but wasn't ready to be a mom. She gave birth to our daughter and gave her a name. She left after that."

"Oh."

"Her name is Bella"

"That's a beautiful name."

"Jake, why are you with James?" He asked.

"I've been with him as long as I remember."

"Love doesn't have anything to do with it?" He asked.

"I mean… Yeah…"

"You're too good for him." He said placing his hand on my cheek. "Trying so hard to runaway from me because of your loyalty to him, but he's not doing the same for you."

"How do you…"

"I connected the dots long before tonight. When Emmett first started talking about him before tonight. All he said was that he was pretty sure he was dating another man who was a teacher."

"You must think I'm stupid." I laughed and chugged the last of the water.

"No." He said and pulled me to him. "I think you're extraordinary."

Our lips connected and the hunger I had felt for him was finally getting satisfied. It was sweet and slow, our lips molding perfectly against each other. I wanted more of him. I was falling back, but finally my brain was working.

This wasn't right. I'm a cheater now.

"I can't." I said and pushed him away causing him to fall of the bed.

"But he's cheating…"

"You don't know that!" I screamed as I stood up. "I don't know that. I have to find out before I go doing the same thing he did, if he did."

"I'm sorry." He said sincerely.

I could see the regret in his face immediately. I believed him.

"I have to go." I said and ran out.

I didn't care about anybody as I left. I fell to the ground a couple of blocks away, obviously not completely sober. I called an uber for me and my phone was ringing like crazy the whole ride, but I turned it off by the time I got home. The light was on and I knew James was up.

"Where were you?" He asked angrily. "I just got home and I've been calling you for the last ten minutes."

"Phone died." I lied.

"Are you drunk?" He said smelling me. "You reek of alcohol."

"I just had a couple of drinks that's all."

"With who?"

"Alice and her boyfriend. She invited me to a family dinner."

"You didn't tell me that."

"I went out for dinner. That's not something I have to ask permission for." I spat and tried to move past him.

"You're not going anywhere!" He screamed as he pulled me back and slammed me against the wall.

"Let go of me." I said and tried to push his hands away.

His hand collided with my face and I was on the floor before I could register anything. He hovered over me as I placed my hand over my warm cheek.

"You made me do it. You know I hate it when you scream at me."

He pulled me to my feet and examined my face.

"I'm fine." I grunted.

"I'm sorry. I just got jealous."

"Why?" I asked. "Why do you think I'm up to something? Is it your guilty conscious?"

"What?" He said nervously.

"Are you cheating on me?" I asked. "And before you think about lying to me I have good word that you are."

"I think that you're drunk…"

"I'm not fucking drunk!" I said and pushed him away.

"Jake, baby…"

"I'm not your baby either… Edward was right…"

"You've been talking to Edward?" He asked angrily.

He rushed me and pinned me against the wall again. This time my head bounced against it making me dizzy.

"You're hurting me." I mumbled.

"You were with him weren't you?" He said.

He pulled me from the wall only to push me to the floor. My head caught the corner of the table and I was seeing spots.

"Stop." I begged as he got on top of me.

"Tell me!"

"No!" I cried as fear crawled up my spine.

It was the first time I was scared of him. The first time I realized that he could really hurt me, kill me. His hands stilled as he saw how terrified I was.

"I don't know what came over me." James said pulling me up. "I just get so over protective."

He held me in his arms for a long time. He cleaned my cut and told me I wouldn't need stitches. By the time we made it to bed we already had sex in the living room. It had been painful emotionally. I felt like trash the lowest thing in the world and what pained me was that I would have to face Alice and Edward.

I avoided Alice easily enough when Monday rolled around, but now it was time for class and I couldn't avoid Edward. He was the first one to arrive with Renesme.

"What happened?" Edward asked alarmed as he noticed my cut.

"I was a lot drunker than I thought. I fell and hit my head on my living room table."

"You have another boo-boo." Renesme said.

"Another?" Edward asked.

"I'm just clumsy."

"Renesme go play with the toys." Edward said.

I had never heard Edward use that tone with her.

"Edward…" I warned him as Renesme left us alone.

"Does he hit you?"

"I'm not going to talk about this at work."

"I don't understand why you're with him." He said frustrated. "Did you even ask him about the cheating?"

"Edward, please…"

"What is it going to take for you to leave him? Your death bed?"

Another parent walked in with their kid then. Edward said good-bye and left the room. I was relieved and I made sure to avoid him later that day. Right when class ended I asked one of the office staff to stay with my class and lied about having an emergency. I went straight home.

Ironic though. I left wanting to fine some comfort and peace, but it was the complete opposite. James was home and on the phone.

"I told you that I'm going to support you any way I can."

"A son needs his father and mother." A woman said through the speaker.

"I already told you that you could have as much money as you need to raise him. I'll see him as much as I can."

"You didn't even see his birth! Laurent is two months old today."

"Victoria." He said frustrated. "You knew that I was a married man."

"To another man who you won't have children with. Why can't you be with your family? I love you and our son needs you."

"I don't want a family! Don't you get that? I never wanted this! You told me you were on birth control! If anything you're lucky I'm even helping you support him!"

"How can you be so cruel?" She cried.

"Because I want the life I have now. I have a man who is content with what little I give him. You, women, ask for too much. You think I'm going to give it all up for you?"

He turned around then. He dropped his phone and the call ended. We were both speechless. He didn't move and neither did I. I don't know how long we stood there frozen, but it felt like an eternity. I picked up my phone and dialed a number before facing him.

"I have the police dialed." I said showing him my phone screen. "I'm going to pack my things right now and if you do anything I'll just press this button and it will call them."

I walked up the stairs and got the littlest amount of things. I didn't want to take anything that he had ever bought me. I had two full suitcases by the time I came back down the stairs.

"Jake talk to me." He said.

"What could you say?" I asked.

"I love you."

"No. You love the idea of me. You love the guy you don't have to work hard for. Who doesn't ask a lot of you? The guy that let's you push him around…"

"Jake…"

"I should have left a long time ago. I should have left the night you got drunk and beat me up so hard I ended up in the hospital…"

"I was drunk… and I never did it again… Just like I promised." He said.

He was crying and the sight of him like that made me want to crumble too, but I couldn't. I couldn't give in to him.

"Maybe not, but after that night your hands were on me more frequently. How many times did you shove me into walls? Push me to the ground? Hold on to me strong enough to leave bruises?"

"I can change…"

"I saw what you could do Friday night when you slapped me. It made me feel like that night all over again and I knew then what I hadn't tried to think about… I was scared of you and I've always been."

"Don't say that." He said trying to reach me.

I pulled away from him and walked away. A part of me feared that he would try to do something, but he didn't.

He let me walk away. I kept moving and didn't look back.

A/N: THIS IS GOING TO BE A SHORT ONE PROBABLY NO LONGER THAN 3 CHAPTERS.

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