A/N: Sorry. I had to delete this cause I had to change A LOT of stuff. I'll try to not change this. I have an idea of everything the stories gonna be about, so there should be about 12 chapters, if I decide to continue past chapter 4. And this story is probably gonna be VERY OOC, but I'll try to keep it as IC as I can.

Disclaimer: Don't own

Warnings: Yaoi (boyxboy)

Chapter 1- Lost Without You

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"Brother, why don't you take a vacation? And it's been a year since we last saw Winry and Granny Pinako! Plus, Winry keeps calling about you. It's kind of annoying…" Al blushed when he said the last part. He knew that Ed knew what he meant. He'd rather Winry call about him, or just to talk.

Ed groaned. He really didn't want to go. He was happy with his life as it was. He was a colonel now, and the Fuhrers secretary (1). He was really happy with his life and didn't want it to be interrupted, even if it meant going "Home".

"I dunno Al. Its not like I don't want to see them, I'm just still trying to get used to life." This wasn't completely true, but it wasn't a complete lie either. He did want to see them, but he didn't. It was complicated even for him.

"Please brother? If you over work yourself this much your gonna get sick from too much stress then you wont be able to do anything."

"Not a bad idea. If I get sick then Roy can call in and say he needs to take the day off to take care of a sick family member, and we can stay in bed the whole day!" Edward replied enthusiastically (I never realized how big that word is, lol). Al listened very carefully for a hint of sarcasm in Ed's voice, but it was clear Ed was having another one of his romantic daydreams.

"BROTHER!" Al cried. He didn't even want to know if Ed just wanted to cuddle with Roy or do something more… active. Personally, Al didn't want to know.

"Fine, Al. I'll go. But only for a week."

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Later…

Winry: Rockbell Auto mail, Winry speaking.

Al: Hey Winry! It's Al

Winry: Oh, hey Al! I haven't talked to you in forever!

Al: You call every day

Winry: Yeah, yeah

Al: Sigh Anyways, we're gonna be visiting soon

Winry: OH MY GOD YOU ARE? Calms down How long are you gonna stay?

Al: A week

Winry: But you hardly ever come anymore even though you've completely settled down! Shouldn't you stay at least a little longer?

Al: Fine.

Winry: Really?

Al: A week and an hour

Click

'What the hell? Did Al just hang up on me?' Winry just stared. Then thought about what Al had said. She was really happy that she could get to see Ed longer. Then she realized something that was kind of hard to miss 'that retard only said he'd stay an hour longer!' (2)

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Winry's POV

I woke up to the sun shining right in my eyes. I didn't mind it that much because I probably would still be sleeping if it weren't for the sun. I got up and got dressed as quickly as possible. I didn't want to look like crap in front of them. But then again, it's not like they would care. They've known me long enough to not really care, but that doesn't mean I shouldn't try to look presentable.

After falling down the steps half awake half asleep I stumbled outside to wait for them to come. I couldn't wait to see Ed again. I wonder if he's taller, or shorter? I'd like to see what he'd do if he shrunk. He probably wouldn't admit it. But that's his problem, and he shouldn't be so sensitive to his height in the first place… maybe if he drank milk…

I looked up when I heard talking and laughing. I thought I had heard Ed's voice. When I could finally make out exactly who the people were I jumped up and ran to Ed. I hugged him, which mad him fall backwards, and of course, I fell on top of him.

"Damn it, Winry! What's your problem? I thought you enjoyed hitting me with your wrench more then suffocating me!" Maybe he's not in the best mood…

"Well sorry, if you weren't the size of a bean you probably wouldn't have fallen," I growled, getting up and dusting off the dirt from my clothes. He quickly got up and did the same, but he looked really pissed.

"WHO ARE YOU CALLING SHORT? I'M TALLER THAN YOU!" I looked up. Wow, he's right. He's about an inch taller than me. When did he get so tall?

I frowned and looked over at Al. To make me not look like a total idiot, I flung my arms around him to. "Hey Al! I haven't seen you in forever! I'm so glad your back in your original body too! It's nice being able to see you and not some big huge armor with a loincloth." Al blushed at the loincloth comment.

"It's not my fault! It was already on the armor!" We all laughed at this. I turned and looked at the last person, Roy Mustang. I was expecting Armstrong again or some other crazy person, but NOT him. I thought Ed and Roy hated each other so I wouldn't expect Roy of all people. Or maybe he was just using this as an excuse to get away from paperwork. But that didn't seem very likely.

"I didn't expect to see you here!" I said smiling. I didn't want him to get the impression I didn't want him to be here, because I did, but I didn't. His arm was around Ed's waist, and Ed was letting him. That was weird. I would have to watch those two, especially if Ed and Roy really were together, then I would have to kill that bastard so I can have MY Ed.

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We were all back inside, Al and Roy were up in the guest room and I was looking at Ed's auto mail. Al had said that he was limping or something, but it was only because Ed had grown 3 inches in 4 years (3).

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Normal POV…

Later, Winry asks to talk to Ed alone. Roy noticed that Winry likes Ed, and decided to eaves drop.

"So what did you want to talk to me about?" Ed asks, getting a little impatient. He was pretty much away from Roy the entire day because Winry wouldn't leave him alone. Bitch.

"Edward. I love you. I always have. I've wanted to tell you forever, and I'm glad I finally did." She looked at Ed hopefully. Hoping he would say "I love you too". But he didn't. He just looked at his feet and said, "I love you too, Winry." Roy gasped. He didn't really mean this, right? Then he continued, "But I only love you like a sister," Roy let out a breath of relief. Winry nearly broke down. 'So he doesn't' she thought. "I… I'm…" Ed stammered. He didn't know if he could tell Winry about him and Roy after that. He wasn't sure how to in the beginning. This just made it a hell of a lot worse. "I'm… engaged." That was hard…

Winry ran out of the room, ignoring Roy, who now had the shit scared out of him. (Because of Winry suddenly running out of the room)

Ed looked up when he heard someone else walking in, and smiled slightly when he saw who it was. "That was really hard. She's my best friend and I don't want to hurt her. But I love you." (4)

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Back to Winry's POV

(5)

Every move they make disgusts me. If they would just go ahead and tell me they're engaged, I would feel SO much better. I'm tired of Ed keeping secrets from me. At least he told me he WAS engaged, but it would've helped if he had said who it was. Before, I would have never thought that it would be him. But now that I see them together it's obvious. At least they don't sleep together here (that I know of).

At meals they sit next to each other. They cuddle on the couch while reading. They look at each other a little TOO long. Roy didn't jump at the chance to sleep in a different room as Ed when we offered. I don't see why they think I won't notice. Maybe Ed knows I know and doesn't care or maybe he doesn't want to see my reaction when I'm told straight forward, or maybe he hasn't remembered whenever he sees me.

I saw the ring once when it wasn't tucked in his shirt. It's really beautiful. It's a girls ring, but then again he IS gay.

They true fully look cute together and are always happy when the other is with him. I guess I should be happier for them, but it's hard. I always liked to believe Ed would end up with me. I'm his childhood friend; I make/fix his auto mail. I put my heart and soul into making that just for him, but I'm still only his "mechanic". I guess that's what I'll always be. I always wished one day he would say I was his girlfriend, then his fiancée, then his wife. But that's obviously never going to happen, now that he has him. If he had just never come here then Ed would still be living here for good, we would've eventually given him auto mail, he would never have to go on those dangerous missions, and I wouldn't have to be here worrying about him. And the most important thing, he wouldn't be gay and he would be with ME.

Maybe I could convince him to break up with Roy and go out with me. Our relationship would be more easily accepted.

1: I'm a girl

2: I'm his age

3: We aren't coworkers

5: I'm closer to his height (that might not be the best reason, but its still a reason)

6: We've known each other longer

7: Everyone always thought we would end up together anyways.

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1- This is taking place after (or during) Bluebirds Illusion, but it's not after one of the endings…

2- Omg… I just had to make Winry slow. It was too tempting…

3- I don't know if this is really how many years since they've seen each other, but let's just go with that.

4- I know that was so incredibly horribly written. I didn't even want to reread it to change anything. I really don't like that part but I needed something…

5- I wrote this then the first part, so that's part of the reason the little "Edo, I love you" scene is horrible. I didn't originally plan for it to go like that, but after reading that part I realized I needed Ed to tell Winry he was engaged.

A/N: Reveiw if you want me to continue!