Shinji, if I was never an angel and you weren't a pilot would I be able to make you happy? It's strange to say but when you killed me that was the happiest moment of my life. I really loved you but you were so fragile, I couldn't touch you. Even when I shared my feelings, you retracted and became closed off. You wouldn't let anyone in so I couldn't figure out how you felt about me.
Being an angel it shouldn't have bothered me. I shouldn't have cared what a human feels. You weren't a part of my original purpose; you were just a human and nothing more. You were barely an obstacle in my path to Adam. Yet for some reason I became obsessed with finding your true feelings for me. It was because of this obsession I was able to find my purpose in life, which had nothing to do with Adam or being Tabris, the Angel of Free Will. The reason for my existence as Nagisa Kaworu was simply to meet you and that gave my life meaning. No longer was my life controlled by SEELE and their vision of the world.
Most importantly I found that you returned those feelings of love. With this wondrous discovery, I was no longer an angel sent to destroy human kind. I was an individual that was capable of love and being loved.
Thank you Shinji. My life had meaning all because of you.
Though I do wish I could have done one thing before I died. I wish that somehow, I could make you happy. In some way I want you to be as happy as you made me.
Shinji I wish you would open your heart.
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