AN : Hello ! I'm back ! In english this time even if this isn't my first language
It' a one shot for now may be i'll add another chapter.
I apologize in advance for the mistakes.
If you have any grammar correction/suggestion/review feel free )
Well, enjoy !
Disclaimer : i own nothing , the story and the characters aren't mine.
Life is hard.
Life hurts.
A lot.
Even a lot more than expected.
But sometimes it can so beautiful, so full of joy, even breathtaking.
You know that feeling, when you can't stop smiling and laughing like an idiot because you're so happy. A moment with a loved one is sufficient.
It's was cool while it lasted, it's now a memory.
You're practically reliving it in your head because happiness is so real, so intoxicating, you can almost touch it but you want more,you want to feel it, you're like addicted.
You wanted so much more, that's why you became addicted to something else that's supposed to replace what you've lost because you couldn't bear the pain anymore.
Heroin.
But it's not enough, you feel empty.
She left you, she left with your happiness, with your memories, with your heart
She took all of it, she didn't have the right.
You can't decide whether you're angry or sad, maybe both.
Definitely lost.
Your mom died but she abandonned you anyway on the worst day of your life.
You're in so much pain, so vulnerable and you hate it oh you hate it, because you always were in control, no matter what.
But you weren't prepared to this, although your father did the same thing you can't get used to it, nobody can, it hurts too much, it's the worst feeling.
Abandon.
It's hard to trust again after being disappointed by someone and when you succeed, it's even more painful when this trust is shattered once again.
You can't take it anymore, you don't have the willpower to do it all over again, to rebuild the wall, your protection against life, against people and now against you, because you know you're hurting yourself.
You decided to take revenge on life, using some girl to numb the pain, using heroin to get away from the void that's sucking you into even more darkness.
You crave it every day and it's getting worse, you have to take more even if it's destroying you. At least it brings you relief for a couple of hours.
A perfect life doesn't exist, it's impossible, we can't help it but we have too hurt people and they hurt us back, it's a defense mechanism. After all we're just humans.
Weak and shelfish creatures.
She hurt your feelings so you named her when they offered you less time to serve.
You didn't think twice, it's was just payback.
You aren't proud of yourself, It was supposed to make you feel better but in fact you're ashamed, for the first time, in years.
You've fucked up, again, like always.
Nothing that you did was right.
Your life is a vicious circle that you can't escape.
You think you probably deserve it because of all your bad actions and decisions, you're just paying it.
The price is fucking high, crushing you.
You became the shadow of yourself, just a facade. Pretending to be alright except that it's a lie, it's chaos.
But who cares ?
You've nobody left, you're on your own.
Until that call...
AN : have you figured out what call this is about ? )
Thanks for reading