Hi guys, this is my collection of crellie song-fics! And no, it has nothing to do with Nick and Nora's Infinite Playlist, I just thought the name would fit the concept. All of these will be separate from each other, so they're basically one-shots unless I say other wise. Some will be AU, some will go along with the story line from the show, and some will be a mix. That being said, this first song to kick-start this is 'When You're Gone' by Avril Lavigne and takes place after Craig first goes to Vancouver.

Disclaimer: I sadly do not own any character in this chapter, nor do I own the song.

Song: When You're Gone

Artist: Avril Lavigne

Rating:T(suggested sexual content and mentions of self-harm)

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I never thought I'd feel such need for someone before. My dad was always away for the Army, and my mother could barely take care of herself, let alone another person. But when Craig came into my life, that all changed. He taught me that I could actually trust someone besides myself, that I could actually be capable of loving and needing someone.

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When I joined his band, everything seemed perfect. We were the best of friends, and then when the wedding gig came around, we became much more than that, and I loved every second of it.

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Everything was going great, for once in my life. I had great supportive friends, I got in-touch with my inner musician again, and I found someone who understood me completely, and loved me despite my imperfections. Then, I came to a fork in the road. We played in front of a live audience, and a manager found us. Turns out he only wanted Craig. Craig said it was all of us or none, but could I really let him do that? Could I let Craig give up his dream just so he could stay here? He said he loved me and would never leave, which only made my decision that much more difficult.

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That night I told him to go. I said we'd all be fine, that I'd way goodbye, for him. He told me how much he loved me and how he'll think of me always. I ended up loosing my virginity that night.

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We stood laced in each other's arms while Leo and Joey talked. I had gone with them to Vancouver to say my official goodbye to Craig.

"I love you El, and I understand that you can't stay here with me. Just know that I'll be thinking of you everyday and every time lyrics for a song come to mind, it'll be for you." He said sweetly. He grabbed my face and passionately kissed me for a few minutes. When we pulled away I was breathless and even though my heart was souring, it was also breaking.

"I love you too Craig." I smiled slightly.

"Come on Ellie, let's get you home." Joey said, walking away to the car. Craig have me one last smile before he turned to walk into his new house.

One,two,three,four steps...

and he was gone

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The first two months were hell. My dad had found out he had to stay on the peacekeeping trip even longer, and no matter how hard I tried, it was no use, my mother started drinking again. As soon as I found out I called up Craig, and we talked for hours until he was forced to hang up. Apparently being a singer-song writer was harder than he thought. As the days passed without his help, I spent more and more time staring at a razor, willing myself not to touch it.

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Whenever Craig called it was a blessing in disguise. He'd tell me how much he loved me and how cutting wasn't worth the pain, and it'll all be ok again. But the times he didn't call very often were the worst. I get it though, he's livin' the rock-star dream while I'm here, waiting.

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I opened my eyes and rolled over, seeing the other side of my bed empty. I remember the nights when he'd sneak into my house from the back door and come into my room with me to stay the night. I shook my head and sighed heavily, I really miss Craig.

Ok so that was the first of Craig and Ellie's Infinite Playlist. I'll be updating this randomly, so look out for the next one:)