Chapter 1

Katherine never believed her life was worthless, she just didn't have desire to fight it anymore. At the age of 29, married to an amazing man, she was anything but happy. Three years ago Damon Salvatore asked Katherine Gilbert to marry her, and that too out of pure love. But for Katherine that love always had translated as pity. You see Katherine was pregnant; but with Stefan Salvatore's child, Stefan had no idea that Katherine was indeed pregnant because he was in love with Elena Gilbert. But Damon being the gentlemen he was, and carrying the deep-rooted love he held for Katherine, it led him to ask her to marry him.

Katherine and Elena Gilbert were twin sisters born to Merinda and Grayson Gilbert. They had a younger brother named Jeremy, who was the heart of their small family. Katherine and Elena had always loved and supported each other, like any twin siblings would, but what got in the way was that Elena had was everything that Katherine wanted. Elena was the daughter to follow Grayson's footsteps and become a surgeon; Stefan Salvatore was the love of her life, which made everything in Elena's life allot more rosy. Katherine was the wild one; she dreamt of being a fashion designer and ever tried to gain Stefan's attention while she was at the Columbia design school, though failing time and time again.

She felt that everything for her was a battle, to tell a father who is a surgeon that his daughter dreamt different was allot more difficult then one would think, especially when she had gotten into med school with Elena. Stefan never had the slightest bit of interest in Katherine, expect for the one night when he had a fight with Elena, leading him to getting drunk and sleeping with Katherine. By the next day Stefan had kicked his senses and realised the mistake he made, leaving Katherine hopeless and pregnant.

Stefan and Damon Salvatore were born to Giuseppe and Maria Salvatore. Damon was the elder son, and the one who carried responsibility on his shoulders. For him ambition and work was everything, graduating as a Lawyer from Yale and working rigorously under his father so that one-day he could take over his Law firm. Stefan was always far more relaxed about his life, he still followed his family footsteps by graduating from Columbia law school instead and working alongside his brother. Stefan since high school had been in love with Elena Gilbert, and he knew that their careers were important to both of them so they delayed marriage until both were ready. Instead they moved in together.

Damon on the other hand was far less serious about relationships; he enjoyed casual dating and sex but avoided a serious relationship at any cost, all because of Katherine Gilbert. He was hopelessly in love with her, but she had always said no to him because she loved someone else. Damon knew in his heart knew who that someone else was, but he didn't bring it up to his lips. When he saw a very distraught Katherine, who told him of her situation his heart broke. He knew who the father was without asking her; and she refusing to tell him. He did what any man in love would do; take the opportunity. He asked her to marry him if she planed to keep the child; Katherine knew her parents would pity her raising a child on her own, so she accepted.

When Katherine and Damon announced their engagement contrary to Katherine's belief, everyone was beyond excited. Grayson was pleased with Katherine's choice, while Maria and Merinda rejoiced together. Giuseppe always felt a little closer to Katherine because of her free spirit, while Elena gushed and squealed about being the maid of honour. If only Elena knew about the child Katherine thought. Damon and Katherine had had the wedding rushed without leading to suspicion about the pregnancy.

All was going to plan, or at least they thought it was but Damon and Katherine had to discuss their relationship. What was it going to be? They both decided to raise this child as parents but what were they going to be for each other. Katherine had finally gathered her strength to have the conversation, which led both of them to decide to start this relationship as friends and if it went anywhere they would both let it.

Damon had known in his heart that if they spent enough time together, he would win Katherine's heart. The wedding had happened, and Damon and Katherine had gotten busy in their lives. They moved to Damon's Manhattan apartment, which looked over one of the most beautiful skylines in the world. They grew to become very close friends, and became allot more comfortable with sharing each other's space. Damon had even convinced Katherine to start sleeping in the same bed as him, so he could keep an eye on her at night if she needed anything. He loved being so close to her, to be able to give her all he had, and eventually to make her his own. Their life was growing and moving forward and Katherine was becoming much more comfortable with it. All this came to a crashing end when Katherine miscarried.

Katherine had miscarried before they even had a chance to tell their families; ending the only reason for this charade. Katherine was overfilled with sadness and grief, and Damon couldn't help her even if he tried. That distance they worked so hard to decrease had started to grow again. This time much further from where they initially started. Katherine asked him for a divorce for his sake, but he refused saying it was too early for their families to go through. The only escape Katherine got was in her designs; she started to creatively put her mind to work, which eventually led her to start her own label. She would fly back and forth between Paris quite allot, allowing her to pave a new path for her own life. Damon became seriously invested in his own firm, taking on more cases than he needed to. He could simply consume himself with so much work that he would forget that he was married to a woman who could never love him back. This went on for nearly three years, until Katherine decided it was long enough.

Damon had just returned that night to their apartment, it had been near 1 am but Katherine sat patiently at the kitchen table, waiting for him to step in at some point. He placed his bag down, and loosened his tie, slowly turning his face to see her sitting there at the kitchen table in the dark. "You scared me Katherine for a second, why aren't you asleep?" Katherine looked up at him, they had to have this conversation now, if they didn't they would continue to live their lives as miserably as they were. "We need to talk Damon, this has gone on long enough."

Damon immediately understood at what she was referring to, which made his heart beat a little faster. "Damon we both need a divorce, you know it and so do I. Its been three years Damon, and I am sure even they can all sense it by now that there is something clearly wrong between us. It won't come as a shock to them anymore; you deserve better than this. You were the best thing in my life when you came to my rescue, but you don't have to be the hero anymore. You deserve to find true love, someone hell better that I was ever to you. We need to end this now."

Damon just processed everything as she spoke, she had a point for sure, but Damon knew why he had let it reach three years. He was convinced that once she had had the time to grieve, he would try again, maybe she could fall in love with him, but he just became so unsure of what to do. Katherine's sadness had consumed her life that it became impossible for him to do anything, they only way she could deal with it was by letting her work consume her. "What if I don't want to let you go?" Katherine just stared back at him in disbelief, "what if you are the best thing I have? You didn't even try to make us work, you never even gave me a chance!." A screaming Damon demanded.

Katherine closed her eyes and let her tears escape, she knew he blamed her, and he was right. She pushed him way too far, for all the kindness he gave her this was not what he deserved. "You deserve much better Damon, what ever I could even give you was probably never enough." With that she walked from the table towards her room, forced to stop as Damon told her to. "You just don't see it Katherine, it's not what I deserve but what I want. I stayed clear out of your way because I knew the pain you were suffering. I knew losing my brother's child was devastating for you, but why are you punishing me for being his brother. Can you not except me for me."

Katherine was frozen; the words no one had uttered in this house till today were finally out in the open. He had known all along but sacrificed his pain to just be close to her. How much love could this man give. Katherine let the tears drop again but with her back facing him.

"You know what Katherine,! I am done too, I am done dealing with this crap, and yes I do deserve better, but more importantly I deserve what I want!" Without even giving a Katharine a heads up he violently turned Katherine by the shoulder and grasped her by the neck to dive his tongue into her mouth. It was the first time he had ever acted in a moment of passion, lust and rage with her. Katherine couldn't believe what was happening for the first time, she was lustfully kissing her husband just as much he was. Damon didn't want to waste any time of this precious moment so he dragged her to his room while shedding her clothing along the way. Damon wasn't sure if she would even kiss him back let alone be willing to have sex with him for the very first time. He was sure she would slap him away, he was just glad that in that moment he did what he did.

They didn't utter a word that night unless it was a moan; Katherine had never experienced anything remotely close to what her and Damon had been up to. They ravished in each other wouldn't part for even a second. Damon's rage was visible in the harsh and demanding way he behaved with her. Their kisses had left bruise mark trails on each other's bodies. They didn't want to stop until their exhaustion had become so critical that they collapsed into each other arms. Katherine's curls were sprawled over Damon's chest; he wanted to kill himself for not trying to do this earlier. He wasn't sure what Katherine's decision would be in the morning, but he knew one thing for sure, he was going to put up a fight, but not as a lawyer but as a husband.

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