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I thought I saw a man brought to life
He was warm, he came around and he was dignified
He showed me what it was to cry
Well you couldn't be that man I adore
You don't seem to know, seem to care, what your heart is for

I always told Spike he was evil. I guess I only half beleived it. Used it as a
shield. An excuse.

I don't know him anymore
There's nothing there, he used to lie
Conversation has one dry
That's what's going on

How long has he been sneaking behind my back? That bastard. Was it sudden,
or has he been doing things like this for a long time? How many deaths has he been
responsible for, if any?

Nothing's fine, I'm torn
I'm all out of faith
This how I feel
I'm cold and I'm shamed
Lying naked on the floor
You should've never changed
Into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn

There's this feeling in my gut. Like there's a demon inside me trying to get out.
Biting,scratching, punching, kicking, gnawing, doing anything it can to get out and into
the world. But I can't let it out, and it never will get out. It will be there, torturing me
for all eternity.

You're a little late
I'm already torn
So I guess the fortune tellers right
Should have seen just what was there, and not some holy light

You can try to make it better, but it's too late. The wholes are to big to mend.
The sack is bursting at the seams. The damage has been done.

But you crawled beneath my veins and now
I don't care
I have no luck
I dont miss it all that much
There's just so many things

I still can't stop thinking about you. Your with me when I sleep. Your with me
when I slay. Your with me when I eat. I breathe. I cry. Your always with me.

That I can't touch
I'm torn
I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I'm shamed
Lying naked on the floor
You should've never changed
Into something real

Were you plotting this, the whole time behind my back? Couldn't kill her, so rip
her still beating heart out of her chest and put it through a blender.

I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
You're a little late
I'm already torn
Your a little late
I'm already torn
Torn....

So confusing. I want him so bad. But he is evil. And I know that too. I can't tell
whether it's guilt I'm feeling, or just plain hurt. I want him.

There's nothing there, he used to lie
My insperation has one dry
Thats whats going on
Nothings right I'm torn
I'm all out of faith
This is how i feel
I'm cold and I'm shamed
Lying naked on the floor
You should've never changed
Into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn

Did he do this because I told him that I didn't love him? That we didn't have a
real relationship? I did do the right thing, didn't I? He told me that he was "Love's
Bitch." Now I think it's me. Owen, Angel, Parker, Riley, I failed with them all. Now
Spike.

You're a little late
I'm already torn
I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I'm ashamed, bound and broken on the floor
Your a little late
I'm already torn
Torn...

It hurts, just to think. I trusted him with my life. Dawn's life. He could have
sided with Glory at any moment, but he didn't. He was tortued, stabbed in the gut, and
shoved of a tower. But he didn't betray me. What has changed? Why is it different
now? The more I think about it, the more confused I become. He doesn't feel for all
those he killed in the past. How can he feel love for me?


Please give me a review! I want to know in I captured Buffy's thoughts and feeling
correctly. I'm not a very expereinced writer, and I want to improve.