all of the steps that led me to you
~ by Ro-Ro Weasley
and all of the steps that led me to you,
and all of the hell I had you walk through,
but I wouldn't trade a day for the chance to say,
my love, I'm in love with you.
~ from The Words by Christina Perri
A/N: I went to see Harry Potter and the Cursed Child back in November 2018 and it was honestly amazing! Jonathan Case was my Scorpius Malfoy and he is my precious cinnamon roll and Scorbus is canon even if the Cursed Child story itself isn't. FIGHT ME. (Just my opinions guys, don't hate me please, I love the Harry Potter universe with all my heart and soul) xox I've wanted to write about these two for ages, but I've never found the right muse, until New Year's Eve when this happened, and it wouldn't leave me alone. More to come so let me know what you think!
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Wednesday 20th December 2017
Dear Albus,
I know I just wrote to you and sent Bathilda over with a letter saying I got home with Mum and Dad and can't wait to see you again in two weeks, but I decided to write again. Only you won't ever receive this letter. In some muggle books I've read, writing to someone but never sending it can be therapeutic, except I feel incredibly stupid as I'm basically just talking to myself. You haven't done anything wrong, far from it, and this is definitely not an angry letter that I will proceed to destroy whilst imagining that you are being cursed or something… Merlin, I'm definitely glad you'll never see this, look at me being all Death Eater-y...
Albus, I'm so happy you are my friend. I was so incredibly worried back on September 1st. I assumed I was destined to be lonely and looked down upon because I'm a Malfoy. And, well, you know the rumours. They're most definitely not true but you know that. And you also made sure I wasn't alone on that day. You stayed, you accepted my sweets and we became friends. My mum gave me those sweets, she says sweets always help you make friends, and wasn't she right? Pepper Imps are most definitely the king of the confectionery bag!
Well, even though you stayed with me on the Hogwarts Express, the next thing was the sorting, and I just thought that you'd be a Gryffindor like your entire family and I'd probably just be lonely again. But then the hat sat on your head and said Slytherin and the entire Great Hall went a bit mad with horror. I may have squealed a bit myself but in utter joy! And now you, Albus Potter, are my best friend. A Malfoy and a Potter friends, who'd have thought?
I'm sorry that some people don't appreciate you for who you are, Albus. Ignore the likes of Polly Chapman, Karl Jenkins, and Yann Fredericks, who call you a Squib and make fun of you every opportunity they get. Of course, easy for me to say as I'm no better off really, but I'm your friend and we can ignore them together. You are your own person and definitely don't have to be just like your father. We both have that in common, don't we? People see who our fathers are and base their expectations off of that rather than actually try to get to know us.
I'm also sorry that you don't really talk to your family much. Rose Granger-Weasley, your own cousin, hates you because of me. She's very pretty though, I hope that's not weird… But you haven't really talked to your brother either. I'd love to have siblings, you know. You probably don't realize how lucky you are to have such a big family. I know James makes fun of you a lot as our classmates do, but surely that's just good-natured sibling teasing? I mean, I wouldn't know, most of my family only ever see each other at big social gatherings and mostly it's all just a big front and there's never any actual familial love or concern, more of just rigid politeness.
I probably should be sorry that you are friends with me, but I'm not. We are Albus and Scorpius and no one can tell us otherwise! Except for maybe our professors so we don't break the rules and get into trouble, and the ministry as we can't do magic outside of school… I think all of our lessons have been great so far, and I'm looking forward to starting all the homework we got stuck with, it will give me something to keep busy with so I'm not missing you all the time. That's why I'm writing, really, and this is somewhat therapeutic I suppose. I miss you being around, I'm so used to just having you right beside me to talk to all the time.
It's weird not being in the Slytherin dormitory and having your bed just a few steps from mine. Malfoy Manor is huge, you could probably fit the Great Hall into our sitting room…It's too empty with just three of us living here, and Mum's sick anyway and we're not sure how long she's got so it might soon be just two of us. Okay, wait, I really didn't mean to say that and now I'm the most horrible person. Hogwarts feels like a blessing and a curse, you know? I don't have to watch my mum get worse and we're getting ever-deeper into our magical education, but then it means I'm not spending enough time with her. We really don't know how long she has, and my father never talks about it and I never want to think about it… I'm definitely going to spend as much time with her as I can while I'm here. And I'll owl her more often while we're at school. I wonder, do you think McGonagall would allow me to see her on Hogsmeade weekends? I know we can't actually go there until third year, and I'd probably come home anyway come to think of it.
Look at me rambling on, I'm sorry. Although, there's probably no point in apologizing for rambling seeing as you'll never see this anyway. I'm finding this more therapeutic than I thought, those muggle books were right! I think I'll read that section on the Goblin Rebellion of 1557 that we have to write an essay on before I head to bed. I know you hate History of Magic, Albus, but I find it so fascinating! It may be my favourite class, though I think my best subject is actually Charms so far. I know you enjoy Potions, you don't give yourself enough credit sometimes.
I hope you have a wonderful Christmas, try to not let your family get to you.
Thank you for staying for my sweets and being my friend, Albus.
From,
Scorpius