This is an apology story. And I don't need to write much of the author's note. Let's get to it.

Job Classes:

Add: Mastermind

Ara: Yama Raja

Lu: Chilarch

Ciel: Dreadlord

Elsword: Rune Slayer

Chung: Tactical Trooper

Aisha: Void Princess

(Add's POV)

Emotional pain

I watched Ara and Ciel laughed in front of me while talking as I was walk back to the mansion in Hamel. Chung insisted that they stay in Hamel for a while to have a break. And this is exactly what I feared might happen. Ara and Ciel were already getting along really well. Missions and quests made it harder for them to spend more time together. And having a break means that they have all day to hang out.

I sighed. It hurt. Emotionally. I can't concentrate on my research and I keep avoiding eating. With me always losing my concentrations gets me zapped from my machines and almost shot from my Ultimate Fury while I was trying to fix it. And I always forgot things. 'Add never forgets!' I keep telling myself. But no matter what I try I am getting weaker.

"Anything wrong Add?" I heard Ciel say in front of me. I stopped walking "Tch. Can anything else get wrong?" I asked trying to be sarcastic. The word 'else' blew my cover. Also... "No Add it's just that you are kind of... Out of character lately... That's all" Ara spoke. "There is nothing wrong. Now let's get back to the Mansion" I replied. Ciel and Ara just gave me a doubtful look and kept walking.

To be honest to my self I have a deep attraction towards Ara.

But it hurt...

Because...

Ara and Ciel were...

Dating...

Physical pain

I was currently helping Ara and Ciel to cook dinner. It gave me time to think about few things. I was cutting carrots in Ann's house. El gang had to come here because of stupid old William. Muscle Head sent me, Ara and Ciel for the mission. I objected but he said that Ara and Ciel should not be separated like Elsword and Aisha. Elsword and Aisha were also dating.

Ann was sick so we decided to cook for her. Ciel told us what to do and we do it. I was stuck cutting vegetables and Ciel was teaching Ara how to cook. "So you mix it like this..." Ciel said demonstrating how to stir curry. "O-oh... OK" Ara held the ladle with trembling hands nervous. My pace at cutting the carrot grew faster.

"Here" Ciel said and held Ara's hand which was holding the ladle. Ara's hand stopped trembling as Ciel helped her stir it. My pace at cutting the carrot grew faster. "Now let's taste it" Ciel let go of Ara's hand. Ara lifted the ladle and tasted the curry. "Mmmh! It's so tasty!" Ara exclaimed. "Really" Ciel said taking hold of Ara's hand which was holding the spoon again and guided it to his mouth. He put his lips where Ara put hers in.

My pace grew faster. "mhm... It is delicious" Ciel said. Then I snapped. I cut my finger. Both Ara and Ciel looked at me when I stopped cutting. "Is there anything wrong Add?" Ara asked concerned. "... No" I replied. 'What's happening to me?!' I thought 'I know how to keep my calm!'. "Then why did you stop cutting?" Ciel asked.

My back was facing them and they couldn't see my finger. "... I am in the guest room room" I replied as I left. But there was a drop of red liquid on one of the carrot pieces and the knife. I went to the guest room and started bandaging my finger shadow covering my eyes.

Heart pain

I heard the door of my lab open but I was too focused on my own thoughts to notice it. Chung came in to see what I was up to. He saw that I was just sitting on my desk holding a mini chip in my hand and a microscope in front of me with some purple cubes far back of the table. I was dozed out. Chung frowned "Add?". I snapped back to reality and turned to Chung "What do you want?"

"Nothing it's just that I want you to take a walk" He replied his frown still not disappearing. "Why should I go for a walk?" I replied flatly. "Because sitting in your lab is not helping your health!" He said gesturing to what I was doing. "Why do you care?" I replied back clearly annoyed. "Just come on!" He half-yelled. About 15 minutes of arguing later I finally agreed.

Chung started showing me around Hamel. I was clearly annoyed wishing it will be over soon. "And this is the Fountain of Healing!" Chung exclaimed happily. I didn't pay attention to Ara and Ciel who were left of me. "Oh look! That's Ara and Ciel!" Chung said pointing at them. I turned and my eyes grew wide. They were leaning into a kiss. 9 inches... 7 inches... 5 inches... 3 inches... 1 inch. I suddenly felt like the most deadliest acid was sprayed on my heart.

I just turned and headed to my lab. I heard Chung call out my name. "Add wait!" Chung yelled. But I just kept walking my face down and shadow covering my eyes.

Pain of insanity

It has been a month since Ara and Ciel started dating. And I couldn't keep it under control. The one who gave me the control over it is gone now. I am sitting on my bed and inhaling and exhaling really fast while clutching my head. I was staring at a picture on my lap. It was me catching Ara three years ago when she used to be clumsy. I was losing my control slowly.

The heart monitor on my right which I built was beeping fast. It was beeping at 2 beats per second... 2.5 beats... 3 beats... 4 beats per second.

It was taking over me...

Something which I couldn't control 3 years ago...

The monster side of me...

The blood thirsty monster...

My breathing increased and so did the annoying beeping.

The monster of chaos...

That monster...

It is...

Devouring me...

The...

Insanity...

IDK if got chills running down your spine but I have while writing this story...

I am going to update the story and add a new chapter. Till then see ya!