DISCLAIMER: I do not own Fairy Tail..if I did natsuXlucy will be cannon

HEAVEN CAN WAIT

Rain falls down

I hated these kinds of days. The days which you wake up to the threat of a heavy downpour, the lingering tension in the air, and the very knowledge in the bottom of your stomach that life as you know it is going to change.

"Pshaw", thinking like this is only going to make me depressed. I convince myself that I just need a warm bath.

Bathing, choosing clothes, accessories, make up; it's all normal. I am surprised that I can't bring myself to simper and wink at myself for my usual pep talk before leaving the house.

I looked up at the sky. I missed my nakama who generally didn't give me peace for a full day.

"It's only been a few days since the last mission, I am sure they are recuperating or taking care of other business", talking aloud to myself seems to all I am doing these days.

Who am I kidding? It's been a week.

Relaxing my face, i walked into the guild with a half-smile.

Having Lisanna back has brought so many obvious changes to the guild.

Mira and Elfman are conspicuous in their absence. Two of the hired barmaids are now handling the counter.

The most glaring change was in Natsu and Gray's behaviour. Erza, Grazy, Natsu and Lisanna were sitting in one of the corner tables, and discussing a mission from the looks of it.

Before I can walk towards them, Kana stops me and gives me a card. "I am here for you if you need me", she tells me seriously. Looking up from the card I smile at her in confusion.

"Thanks"

She walks away as I look at the card again and walk towards the four who still haven't noticed me.

Tucking the card into my pocket, I grin at them "hey guys"

They turn to smile at me and I felt foolish for worrying for nothing.

I sat down feeling quite at peace, only then did I notice the looks they were giving each other.

Natsu started haltingly "Lucy please don't take this the wrong way" glancing at the others his eyes lingered on his childhood love, he gave her a smile before he continued "we have accepted a four person mission"

I understood.

I did my best not to show my hurt on my face or in my actions.

Before I knew it I was in the apartment that I called home. The tension of the impending rain still lingered in the air.

I barely remembered what happened after I received the initial shock of the news. All I remember now is controlling myself from showing what I felt and acting how a friend who understood would act.

The chocking crushing feeling of stopping myself from screaming and crying out of sheer will.

Gray and Erza telling me it was only temporary.

The finale was Lisanna herself "I am really sorry, are you ok with this?"

I smiled at her, how could I not? She truly was sweet and innocent. I will be their nakama and give them what I want.

This hurt is no one's fault but mine. Wanting what I cannot have, trying to stay where I don't belong.

Sitting in the tub, the shower beating down on me I sob, with my heart feeling like it is going to break.

I cry for the fact that I have turned me into one of those heartbroken idiot girls I have scoffed at in the sappy romances.

Am I so easy to push aside Natsu?

Am I just a friend to you Natsu Dagoneel?

It feels like hours before I am able to drag myself to get out of the tub to wrap the towel around myself.

The next day was the same. The same cloudy skies and the same heady air. I did not want to get out of bed. I didn't have the heart to face another day.

Finishing up the day's routine I found the card Kana gave me yesterday.

Searching out the tarot book I interpreted what it meant. The tower was perfect -sudden change, release, downfall, revelation.

I had to smile because it had given me an idea that I would have never had the courage to have thought of otherwise.

Facing the world alone after getting a taste of companionship was difficult. But I am Lucy. I may be just Lucy but I will be fine.

Life as we know it is going to change

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