OMG!.. you guys!. I was soo pissed since I already started making this like 3 hours ago and I'm about to finish it. But it just have to all go away! How freaking bad is that!.. Grr... really!.. I was typing and then everything went black and everything was gone... Grr.. I'm really pissed right now..

*breath* But anyways.. I decided to retype it all... As long as I can while I'm in the mood. So please, bare with me.

I don't own anything except for the plot and ideas.

xoxo..rizelle

Chapter One: He Leaves.

It was weird.

I just can't seem to forget about him even though how hard I try. Even my brain won't allow it even for a second. It's hard to live with it. Knowing that all that chances that I can get was being given, but I still chose to break his heart. It's been what? 8 months? Oh, who Am I kidding? It's been exactly one year since it happened. But everything seems to be just like yesterday. And it hurts.

It was entirely my fault. I admit it. I even admit from the start. I hurt him, I broke his heart and there's no other way to put it. But things always happens for a reason. Am I stupid? I think I am. I still can't get over the fact that somehow, I have to move on. But destiny is pulling me apart. He is pulling me apart.

I wish I could take all the pain away. Not from me, but from him. He thought that he's the only who's hurting. He thought that I did the things that I've done just to hurt him. But he doesn't know that, the pain that he's feeling right now, is twice the sorrow that is killing me everyday.

Its killing me. I never meant to hurt him. I never intended anything to happen that way. I was trying to fight for the both us. I know it was cruel of me, because I didn't explain to him what's going on. But it's better for him not knowing what my reasons are. I was trying so hard to fight for the both of us, but fear got the best of me. And I hate myself for that. God knows that I still blame myself for everything. I was so cruel that I didn't notice that I'm hurting him too much.

It was the same for me though. Every time I think about it, I always end up being alone and confused. For some reason, I thought that this is what I deserved. After all, I hurt him. And I may never turn back time, but the pain and sorrow will never be back, 'cause it was never gone.

"Sharpay!"... That was my twin brother, Ryan. "For God sake!.. Get the hell up! It's 10 o'clock in the morning!"

"How many times do I have to tell you! Don't just barge in inside my room!. God!"... I shouted at him. It's been like this every morning between me and my brother. He wakes me up in the morning, I throw tantrums at him,and we make the world a better place. Or not!

"Still using the god's name in the process of shouting, I see".. Gabriella smirked. My brother's girlfriend and my best friend. They've been together for 4 years now. They started dating when we were in high school and everything starts to hit it off from there.

"Hey Baby!"

"Hi!".. Gabriella said softly before kissing my brother.

"OH my god! Please!.. You guys! This is the last thing that I really wanted to see right now. One of the reasons why I'm not a morning person!.. Please!.. Go make out in Ryan's room, not mine!".. I shouted, literally putting my hands over my eyes and not before throwing a pillow at them.

"Okay!"... Ryan said defeated. "But get up already! The boutique's supposed to be open 5 minutes ago."... Ryan said before walking out of my room.

"Sorry Shar!".. Gabriella giggled the follows Ryan.

Ugh! What a way to start my day huh?.. Gabriella and Ryan has been dating for 4 years and they seem to can't get enough of each other. Oh, curse you cupid for getting these two lovebirds together. I mean, I'm happy for them, really. At least my brother is having a blast of his love life. At least one of us is.

Ryan and I are leaving in this apartment now for quit sometime. 3 years to be exact. After we graduated from college, we decided to be independent. Get away under our parents' rules and roof, under any circumstances. So, we have our own place. Okay, maybe not that independent.

Our mom and dad can't even be more proud of us being independent, so they sponsored the place. Since my parents are known the be the richest people in town, they'd like to make a point. So, after telling them the whole plan, they insist of paying for the apartment and the things that's in it. It's way too big for me and my brother to say the least.

Let's see. We have three floors apartment. Contains 5 bedrooms. 2 at the ground floor and 3 at the second floor. All at the big size. The third floor was actually build for parties and celebrations. It's big space, terrace with a great view. A little bar in the side, but it's not like we're usually there, 'cause Ryan and I don't drink that much.

See, way too big for the both of us. But since our parents are the ones who made all of this happen, we can't argue. They want to call it as a "Congratulations Gift" as they put it.

Being part of being independent is having a job or a business of some sort. The one that Ryan is talking about earlier, the boutique. Yeah, it's mine. After I graduated, I've realized that I have to put up with something for a living. So, instead of finding a job, I've decided to have my own. The boutique is fairly enough to make a money for my everyday needs. Asides from Ryan, of course. My boutique contains of assorted things, different accessories that you'll surely need if you're a creative person like me. Flowers, figurines, angels and so much more. It's all in one, like other people wants to call it. I named it, "Crystals and Hazels".. Of course it was from me. Further explanations on how did I end up naming my boutique that name.

On other hand, Ryan has his own dance studio. Ever since high school, dancing is his passion. He's running the studio together with Gabriella. One of the things that they both love to do, is dancing. They met back in high school because of the dancing audition that was held back then for the theater. And it's amazing how these two gives dancing a credit on how they ended up being together.

Ryan and I are the only two people who lived in the gigantic apartment that our parents bought for us. We have a helper, her name is Patty. She does all the work in the apartment, cook foods, clean the place, does the laundry, water the plants and basically all the chores inside the house. But she never stays over and sleep there. She has her own family to go home to. So, she came in the morning around like 6 to make breakfast, and got off like 11 in the evening to go home. But not after making dinner and midnight snacks for me and Ry. Sometimes, for Gabby too. She usually sleeps over because god knows what they're doing inside Ryan's room!.. You didn't hear from me! But sometimes, Ryan sleeps over at Gabriella's when they just feel like it. But most of time, they're at home, 'cause for some reason, they don't want me to be left alone at home, and that's sweet.

Gabriella has her own place, not too far from us. She lives there alone, and it's big enough for her since she's the only one who stays there. After graduation, her mom got remarried again after a long time of being divorce with her dad. Her mom and her new husband-Gabby's step Dad- got transferred to Miami because of some business connection and they are to live there permanently. Her Mom ask her to go with them but Gabriella refused to. She said that she'd better stay here in Cali with us, and live her life just the way she wanted -with Ryan.

Her Mom agreed but not after telling her to visit them in Miami once in a while. Her parents both have new families right now, and she is very happy for the both of them.

Though, they never forget about Gabriella so that's good news.

Well, as for me and Ryan. We're still trying our best to work things out. I mean, being independent is a very big step, but hey. It's been 2 and half years and we've got this far.

"You're spacing out again."... Gabriella came into the kitchen. I already took a bath and change into something presentable and Hot if I may say so myself. "You wanna tell me what you're thinking?"...

"Nothing in particular."... I shook my head and put some coffee in my cup.

"I just wanted to tell you.."...Gabriella said after a while of silence. She sat across me.

I look at her and i know that look. "What is it?"... I asked her.

"I talked to him, last night."... She said. Him. It could only mean one thing. She continues, "He said that he's leaving for a vacation. You know, get away from all the drama for a while."

"Good for him.".. I nodded trying my best not to sound like my voice is cracking.

So, that's it. That's his way of making things alright? By leaving? Leaving me! It was horrible to hear this. But I thought that maybe this is for the best, take a break not from the drama, but away from me.

"Shar..".. Gabriella started, trying to say another thing but I just can't take it anymore.

"Please don't.." I whispered and tried my best to cope with the situation and not cry. I started to gather all my things and stand up. "I'm gonna go. I have to open the boutique. I'll see you guys later."... I tried to smile and hug her.

How was it possible to feel all the pain all over again even though he's not there? It kills me to hear that he's leaving even just for a vacation. It's just a simpler way of telling me that he gives up. But I can't blame him. No one can. Because the only person to blame is me. I was the one who hurt him, I was the one who made him think that everything that we had was just nothing. And I was the one who chose to let him go.

But I have my reasons. Things happen for a reason and I'm still trying my best to believe that my reasons are enough to satisfy me that whatever I did to him was for the best. But it never did.

We're okay. No we used to be okay. But I don't know what happened. It just all came in way too fast that I didn't know that it's already happening.

We were never together. We're not official to say the least. We never actually tell each other that we're a girlfriend and boyfriend thing. But it's the only thing that's missing and we know it.

He courted me. I know what you're gonna say. Old fashioned, right? Isn't like the whole couple thing goes along with the process of the guy asking a girl out for a date, and then make up in front of the porch of the girls house at the end of the day and call it a night and them BAM! They're together. Like boyfriends and girlfriends. But, it never goes the same with me. Call me old fashion all you want, but that's how things are with me.

And I can't never be more than happy when he agreed to it and actually courted me. Bring flowers, chocolates, call me whenever he wants, takes me out for dinner and a whole lot more.

Everything was going great. And the only thing that's missing is the official word coming from me. It lasted for 5 months. But even though I didn't say anything for the moment yet, we we're practically together already. Picking me up when I asked him too, even sometimes when I don't. Spending countless night talking over the phone just because we feel like it or when he's one the who called just because he misses my voice.

And just right then, I know to myself that I love him. It was all a perfect way to start the year. Though we never really release the word to each other 'cause it's obvious that we're both scared of what's going to be the reaction of the other. But I so wanted to tell him that I do. I love him and he makes me happy no matter what mood I have. He always know what to say. Though he did tell me that. He told me he loves me. Over the phone, one time when we're talking late a night just because we feel like it. He thought that I was already asleep 'cause I've been silent for a long time. But, I'm just listening to his sweet voice and trying not to laugh when he's till talking and thought that I was sleeping. And then he said, he told me he love me and I wanted so bad to say it back, but I just got mesmerize.

After a short period of time, everything was already planned out. I planned everything out that I picture it to be so perfect. I was gonna say yes to him for us to be finally together. But then, things started to go down hill.

Fear got the best of me and I just have to end things from where they are. I remember all the things the he said to me. How broken he was and the look on his face. It was haunting me and I can't stop blaming myself for all of it. It was all my fault.

I still remember every single detail. Every time I close my eyes it's all coming back to me and haunting me.

Now, all that's left to me are the memories that we shared together, that we had together. From the very first time that I met him until the day when i chose to break his heart.

It was weird. I just can't seem to let any of it go.

"Look, she doesn't have to go."... Ryan insisted.

"Hey, I want to go!".. Sharpay butted in the conversation of her brother and his girlfriend.

"See, she said herself, Ry! Just let her go!"... Gabriella pleaded.

"Yeah, Ry! Just let her go!"... Sharpay mocked her best friend and look at her brother with puppy dog eyes.

Ryan just rolled her eyes. "No! Gabby, I didn't even allow you to go."

"Oh Shut up Ryan! It's a just a girls night out!"... It's Sharpay's turn to roll her eyes.

"No... It's a girls night out to begin with, but hook-ups are always the destination."... Ryan explained.

"Oh please. Gabriella and I are both mature and responsible grown-up women. We can take care of ourselves. Besides, what makes you think she's gonna hook-up with someone? She already had enough of you!"... She smirked.

"Sharpay!"... Ryan shouted.

"I'm gonna be outside Gabs. Don't take a long."... And Sharpay is out of the door.

Gabriella look back at his boyfriend and starts to sit on his lap. "Don't worry okay? Hook-ups are so out of the list for tonight."... She teased her boyfriend.

"Hey!"... Ryan starts until Gabriella started to kiss his neck.

"We're gonna be good girls, I promise."...

"Just make sure, Sharpay don't do anything stupid, okay?".. He said while caressing his girlfriends arm.

She have to giggle to that. "Come on, Ry! She's your sister. Besides, she's with me. Trust me, she's in good hand."

"Hey, and same goes for you, Missy!"... He added.

"Don't be ridiculous, Babe!"... She started kissing him. They probably so caught off in the moment that they started making out for 5 minutes.

"PTTTTTTT!"... Sharpay repeatedly press the honk in her car to get their attention. "Come on, Gabriella! Stop playing tonsil-hockey with my brother! We have to go!"... She shouted.

Gabriella pulls away and sighs. Sharpay can really be impatient sometimes. "Bye Baby!"... She kissed Ryan one more time fore running out the door.

"Be good!"... He shouted after them,

At the party..

"It's crazy in here!"... Gabriella started shouting over the loud music that is blasting around the place while looking around trying to find their friends.

Sharpay and Gabriella had pretty much grown popular in their years of high school. They made a lot of friends back then and they are really proud to say that it's not the one with plastic bimbos, but with a true friend. They had their own group back then. So, when they got a hold of each other, they decided to catch up and hang out again. This girls night out is really a big reunion for their group.

"Look, there they are!"... Sharpay pointed to a group of four people in a table and started walking to them.

The club is own by one of their friends. It's amazing that after all the hard work that they put up into it, it became famous and one of the clubs that is very in demand right now. After high school they all sure had their own way to go to.

"Hey! You made it!"... Shiela greeted them. One of their good friends back in high school.

"Wouldn't miss it for the world!"... Gabriella happily greeted her back and hug her.

They all started to talk to each other and catch up. It really feels so good to finally be with them again.

"Hey, where's Kim?"... Sharpay asked after a while.

"Probably moping around and making sure that everything's in place"... Sam giggled. One of her true friends too.

Right, Kim. Making sure that everything is in place. Why wouldn't she? After all, she owns the place. And Sharpay's really happy for all the successful business that she has right now.

"I'm gonna go get something to drink!"... Sharpay shouted over the loud music and started heading in the bar.

She didn't get a drink right away when she reached the bar. She took this chance to look around and study the place. It's crowded. Way too crowded. There's a lot people who's dancing, already wasted and couples making out.

"Hey! What are you doing here?"...

"Kim!".. She turned around and hug her missing friend for a while. She's holding a glass of wine between her hands, she notice. But it's obvious that she's not wasted yet.

"The girls are over there!"... Kim stated pointing to their table.

"I know!".. She nodded. "I'm just getting a drink!".. She shouted over the loud noise.

"Whatever you want, say it. It's on the house!".. Kim smiled.

"No, really. It's okay"... Sharpay insisted.

"Oh, don't be ridiculous, Shar!... It's nothing!"

"Thanks!"

"And really, it's really nice to see you again!"... Kim said heartedly.

"Everything's nice to you when you're not wasted!"... A guy butted in, in the conversation.

Everything seems to stop around Sharpay. The music, the loud noise , the people dancing and the couples making out. Even Kim, her friend disappear. It's just him and her.

Everything about him seems to be blue. His shirt that he's wearing. A baby blue shirt to be exact match him perfectly. It is a little fit for him, it's obvious that he wore that for his muscles to be visible, that musculine body!. And his eyes, his crystal blue eyes that is mesmerizing her, it's perfect. His messy yet sexy hair. The light brown colored hair that is a little bit longer for a guy's hair but somewhat perfect for him. Some of if are even covering his perfect blue eyes.

"It's not like you know any better!".. Kim rolled her eyes to guy.

"I do. That's why I don't show myself off when you started to get wasted.".. He guys smirked.

Kim rolled her eyes one more time before finally deciding to get to the introduction part. "This is Shar. But you can't call her that! The name's Sharpay!"...

Blue meets brown and then it all stopped again for her.

"Sharpay, this is my overly stupid cousin, Troy!"

"Shar?"...

I looked up to see Cecille in front of me. I was at the boutique already and I space out again.

That weird flashback. Do I really have to see it all over again? It was the very first time that Troy And I met. In Kim's club when we decided a girls night. Just us girls. He happens to be her cousin too.

"You okay?.. Are we gonna open soon?"..Cecille asked. I suddenly look up around the place and realize that I didn't put the open sign yet. So much for having a good day.

"Ah, yeah!.. You can open now.".. I told her while I watch her change the sign from close to open. Cecille is one my helpers in the shop. I got two, actually, together with Susan.. I've found them two months after I started opening the boutique. And they've been pretty much a big help for me. The boutiques been build two years from now. It's amazing how long it already took.

"Where's Susan?"... I asked.

"Uhmmm... She can't make it today. She's sick. She have to stay home."

Susan and Cecille live together. They're friends so they basically go to work at the same time. I hire both of them so it's going to be easy to work with each other.

"You can pick up some flowers for her later. Tell her to get well soon."... I told her and she just nod and smiles...

I will probably space out again anytime soon. Seems like I've been doing that a lot lately.

The only thing that is bothering me right now is him leaving.

Review!.. ^^..

This is actually based on true story but of course.. I've changed some of it to go with the character.

xox..rizelle