If Only
A short one shot story on Dodger's love for Maxine. I don't own anything but my imagination lol.
I'm in love with this amazing and beautiful woman-just the sight of her makes me weak in the knees and it has been awhile since I've had those feelings. Probably since Texas-my first real actual girlfriend. My stupid psycho of a brother Will took her away from me and for that I will never forgive him. But it's not that simple…she's with my dad Patrick. I know it sounds foolish and that I should move on but I can't. Maxine is her name-we have known each other for a while now and a few months ago I recently that I was in love with her.
I can't help but look at her whenever she's in the same room as me. When I look into her beautiful blue eyes I get butterflies, when she smiles at me my heart beats faster than normal. And when she touches my arm or my hand there's tingles down my spine. I'm pretty sure I've gone mental now but she seems happy with Patrick and to be honest it hurts me. I want to be with the one with her, holding her hand and all that lot other couples do. That very night I kissed her for the first time, it felt like the world had come to a standstill-all I could think of was her lips on mine and how close we were. But then…she pushed me away.
I wish I could make her see that I would do anything for her. I try to go on with life, taking care of the boat and making sure Sienna is recovering but it's still there-this attraction I feel for Maxine and I don't want it to fade away. Maxine says she doesn't want to be with me but…her eyes and that look on her beautiful face says otherwise. I'll wait for her…even if it's forever which I hope not but Maxine means a lot to me and I don't want to rush something like that. So I just admire her astonishing beauty from afar, glued to Patrick's side.
But suddenly I got this gut feeling that something isn't right with her and my dad. It happened one day while I was at Price Slice and there she was in looking for hair care products. I went up and asked if she was ok and she made an excuse since it was apparent she was in pain. It breaks my heart for her to push me away as if I'm a stranger but there's nothing I can do. She tried to walk away from me after we had a tense conversation in the store. On instinct I grabbed her arm-not too roughly but as she turned to face me there was this fear in her eyes-like I never seen before. I asked her what was wrong and after a moment of hesitating she mentioned Patrick and that I was shocked. Maxine just froze up and walked away.
I don't want to infuriate Patrick-my birth father who I have just found not too long ago but I love this woman so much it hurts. I miss Texas a lot but I can't wonder what might have been for the rest of my life-there comes a time when I have to move on. I think of Maxine quite a lot and I want to hold her in my arms, kiss her, touch her and be with her but I can't right now. I'll wait for the right moment.