To to me the season 5 finale left way to much open. It was a beginning not an end. White collars finale gave people a finality and Neil was free and things were good. In CA everything was just beginning to get good. After such a tough time Annie finally had a break and another set of options. It would be ashamed to go 5 years and still not figure out where annie will end up.
"Trust your heart" he had said.
Her heart screamed him.
Him after being tortured, the good and the bad, on the bus when she was dark. That boyish haircut when they had first met, his tattoo in the middle of his back, long lean muscles.
All memories and images flashing before her eyes.
No, no she thought and focused more intently to the point she could hear her own heartbeat.
Ryan, not Auggie, Ryan had to be her life now. No Ryan was her life now. No more Auggie that was a fariytale dream she knew would never happen.
The CIA? Of course she would go back. It would give her a chance to get away from Mcquaid and the relationship would be easier if they were in different workplaces.
But without Auggie? Without her handler in her ear? She knew from the past other handlers were not the same as her Auggie.
Maybe with how different and unique Joans task force was promised to be she wouldn't be forced to have a handler.
She finally settled on, "I got it," even though she was farthest from it. Her heart wanted to hold Auggie hostage and move to the islands with him.
Neither were sure how to say goodbye.
She hugged him fiercely, while remembering that he had just been tortured. "I don't think I'm quite ready to leave the agency yet," She whispered in his ear still holding him, "but it's going to awfully lonely without you," she released him and grabbed his hand, "I'm so happy for you. And if things with Tash don't work out I'm always here. I know things have been difficult but I want you to know that i'll always care about you and love you, keep in touch." She batted tears out of her eyes.
"Annie," Auggie sighed, "your making this really hard. Without you I would never be in this place in life right now. I've been mad at you for so long. I know my reasons were valid, but we grew to far apart and a lot of that was on me. When you said you didn't want a relationship I should have pushed to have one. I should've shown you I cared. Enough with The speeches though. I love you to, and I'll stay in touch you can let me know the best cafes in the towns," He grinned.
"Deal," she said and there hands met as they each reached the guided posture. They weren't back to normal, they never would be, but this was a damn good place to start.