I'm not that Girl

by mydreamsaremyreality13

This is a story about a girl who was invisible. She felt like she never lived up to her parents expectations that they had for her. She was short and fat and didn't feel like she belonged. However, choosing day has come and she decided to go Dauntless. Why? Who knows? Maybe to prove people wrong. What will she do when someone finally notices her? Will she run away? Please review!

1. I'm not that Girl

I can't believe I just jumped into a dark hole from ten stories high! My heart is racing and I can't see the bottom. I finally see a net down at the bottom and I hear people cheering. I feel a sense of relief. I sigh when I hit the net. I am rolled off and I stare into these deep brown eyes. "What's your name initiate?" He says to me. I hesitate. "You can change your name." I nod. "Taylor." He smiles. "Last jumper Taylor!" He screams. "You better get off quick cause I see Eric falling." I hurry and jump off and run over to my fellow initiates.

We see Eric land and he jumps off the mat gracefully. "Dauntless born transfers your with Lauren. Transfers your with Four and I." I roll my eyes. Great. "You got a problem with what I just said Candor?" I shake my head no. I can't believe he saw me roll my eyes. "As Eric said, my name is Four. I usually work up in the control room. However, once a year I get to train the transfers. I'll show you around your new home. Don't get to comfortable though, some of you wont be staying with us." He seemed to look my way. I feel my face go red and look down to the floor. You see I'm not your typical Dauntless transfer. I'm 4 feet and 10 inches tall. I am also overweight. However, there is nothing more than I want to be Dauntless. I'm not going to let my size or my weight hold me back.

We are walking in the pit and I am still in the back I don't have really any friends that transferred with me even then I didn't have a whole lot back at home. Four is explaining the rules and what's going to happen the next couple of weeks and I can feel myself zone out. All of a sudden I feel a nudge. I look up and see Eric. "Pay attention." I roll my eyes. He just looks at me and walks away. We are moving again. I stand my distance and I walk by myself but I also keep my pace with the group. Making sure I don't get lost. He leads us to what I assume is going to be my new home for the next 6 weeks. "This is the training room." Eric said. "This is where we will teach you how to fight, shoot a gun and learn how to face your fears." He adds a dramatic pause. "Wake up call is 6:30 Am. You are expected to be here by 7. Then 8 you'll have breakfast shower and resume back at 7 after dinner."

There will be no fun for me. I'll eat if I have to but no way I'm I going to waste my time in the pit. "Time to show you your sleeping corridors." Everyone starts moving and we go through the same double doors and there is another door right next to the training room and we enter in the door and I see a whole bunch of cots and showers. I smile. Maybe I'll get away with staying in the training room. I think to myself. I feel eyes on me. I look up and I see Eric staring at me. I quickly look away and find a nice spot on the ground. "All right, you guys are free to go. I don't want to see any of your old faction clothes on so if I were I'd take this time to go shopping." Four said I roll my eyes. I hate shopping. All the girls get excited and they run out the door and I find myself alone in the room. At least thats what I think.

"Why aren't you running out the door like all the other initiates?" I hear someone speak. I look up and sure enough it's Eric. I don't answer. "What's wrong?" I hear him speak again. "Nothing." I stare at him and I see grey. Deep grey eyes. My heart does a flip flop and I immediately get mad at it. "I'm going to get myself familiar with the training room if you'll excuse me." I say trying to walk away. He grabs my four arm. "I'd listen to Four and change." I keep my stare. "Fine I'll go shopping." I say through gritted teeth. "But, I'm going to train before dinner." I say He lets my arm fall. I am easily half his height. "As you wish." He says and walks away.

I look at my watch. I've got 2 hours before dinner. If I hurry and buy my clothes I'll be able to train for an hour. I smile to myself. I've got this. I'll be number one. I start a slight jog to the pit hoping it'll warm up my body so I'm not so sore later on. I see all the girls in the clothing store. Here goes nothing.

I walk in casually. I go straight to the work out gear. I find my sizes quickly and then I get to the cashier. "Are you sure you want something more then just work out gear? The other initiates are getting outfits and such." She says with a smile. "No, I'm not going to buy clothes until I know I am safely secured in the faction." I say with a smile on my face and I hand her the money and walk out of the store.

I head to the dorms and I quickly change into my black spandex and I put my black sports bra on along with my T-shirt to cover my stomach. I look myself in the mirror and sigh. "This is as good as it's going to get." I say to myself with a slight frown. I jog out the door and head into the training room.

I scan the room and my eyes land on the punching bags. I smile to myself. I run to the punching bags and stare at them. I start punching and kicking. I remember seeing the Dauntless kids fight at school and I am trying to do the same moves that they made. I'm on the punching bag for about an hour when I hear doors being opened and I turn to the front entrance. I don't see anyone so I ignore it and I go back to kicking. I'm getting higher. I smile.

Then I feel someone tap my shoulder. I jump and turn around I see Eric dripping sweat with just running shorts on so I can see his abs. He pulls out his head phones and smiles. "Your kicks are surprisingly good." I smirk. "Thanks." I go back to the bag and I continue I'm not going to let him ruin my work out. Then I feel hands on my waste. He turns my body slightly and whispers in my ear. "Your kicks will be better if you put more pressure on your left leg." He says. He steps back and I kick. Indeed they were better. I turn around. "Thanks." He looks me up and down. I quickly look down. "You know your not supposed to be in here alone with out a trainer right?" I look back at him confused. "What?" He laughs. "If you were paying attention earlier you'd have known that rule." I shake my head. "Why can't I be in here alone?" He looks at me in the eye "It's not safe." He says I just stare back at him. We have a staring contest for about 2 minutes.

"What are you guys doing in here?" I look and see Four with a chalk board in his hand. "I was just explaining to Taylor the rules about the training room since she wasn't listening earlier." Eric said while taking a few steps back. I didn't realize we were that close. "Taylor have you been training?" He says clearly seeing myself all sweaty. I sigh. "Yes." I say while looking down at the ground. "It's not safe, I haven't explained how to use the equipment yet. You could've gotten hurt." Four said. I get frustrated. "I know. Eric already said that." I say I start to walk away. "How bout you go and find your friends and get some dinner." Four says yelling at me on my way out.

Eric's POV

When she is out of ear shot I whisper to Four. "I don't think she has any friends man." I say to him staring back at her. Four looks back at me. "Is that why she was in here alone?" I nod. "I think she is going to train every spare second of the day." I say with a voice of concern. I shake my head. "Is Eric showing emotion?" Four says laughing while putting the chalk board up. "No. I just don't want to see anyone hurt this year." I say while helping him.

Four shakes his head. "She's not the type of girl I thought I'd see you with. Whatever floats your boat." I get mad. "What's that supposed to mean?" Four gets off the chair. "Well, come on man. She is short and fat." He says bluntly. I shake my head and walk away.

Four is annoying. I think to myself. I don't have feelings for her. He is right. She is not my style. Innocent, short, and fat are not on my list. As I get lost in my thoughts I find myself in the pit. It's loud and I make my way towards my friends. When I see Taylor by herself in the corner eating her food. A couple of guys walk up to her table and I instently get all tense. I'm within ear shot. "You enjoying the food fatty?" One guy says. She just continues to eat her food. I look at her plate and she has a small handful of grapes. I roll my eyes. That wont last long at practice. "Look she can't even reach the floor." The other one says. I start walking towards her and clear my throat. They look up and see me and run away.

My authority here has it's ups and downs. "You know that wont help you at all in the training room." I say. She looks up at me and I see that her eyes are red and she has tears streaming down her cheeks. She blinks a few times realizes it's me and gets up and runs away. I stand there in shock.

Taylor's POV

I can't believe that just happened. I just started crying trying not to let my bullies see me. Then I hear Eric's voice and I tense for a second trying to control myself. I look up at him and he smiles down at me. Then his face is full of concern. I realize why and I get up and run.

I end up in the dorm room. Sitting on my cot. I'm in the corner alone. I pull my knees up into fetal position and I rock myself back and forth. Wishing I had my iPod with me.

I am almost asleep when I hear the sound of my fellow initiates come back and change for training. I am praying they don't see me and I quietly get off my bed and I change into a new outfit, since the one I'm currently in is dirty. I hear whispers. I look up and I see the girls just staring at me. I shake my head and hurry and pull my new T-Shirt over my head and I walk out the door. When I hear. "I don't even know why your trying fatty. Your going to die just running with us." I hear from an Erudite boy in the corner and I just run out the door.

I run. I don't care where. I just run. I however end up in the training room before everyone else. I take my spot against the wall and I slid myself down to the cement. Maybe he is right? I am panting just from that short run. Today we are going to do 3 miles. I've never done that in my life. I get mad. Why did my test result say Dauntless? I get up and pace the floor.

Four's POV

I see Taylor run into the training room crying. I wonder what happened? I just got here to make sure they all get there on time and follow orders. She is pacing now. Never a good sign when a women does that. I roll my eyes. I'm not going to worry about her. She wont make it past the first round any ways. I think to myself. However, I hope that she will prove us all wrong.

I see Eric walk into the training room with other initiates behind him. He sees Taylor hiding in the corner and I see his body tense up and I just laugh. That boy has no idea what he is getting himself into. I guess I better get in there before something happens.