Disclaimer: I don't mention
names so try to sue me :P
Author's note: My very first CSI
fic. Feel free to critique!!! 08X07 SPOILER!!!!!!! Don't read unless
you know what's coming... This angers me. My anger had to be
expressed through dear Grissom. Poor sexy man.
To Sammi. Because she has to endure my
obsession the most. "I miss CSI..." ;)
Yesterday
Just yesterday you were right here next to me, breathing the same air, sharing warmth. Your hair always somehow tickling my nose, your breathing a steady white noise soothing any troubles. Your skin up against mine. Sometimes too warm, sometimes too cold but mostly just right. You, stealing the sheets, robbing my mind. Waking up next to you, no matter on which side of the bed. Your scent with me, you the first thing I notice. Sharing a shower. Not erotic or sexual. Sensual maybe. The idea of being close and with each other more relevant than personal needs. Sharing breakfast and a ride to work. Sharing a life.
Like I said. Yesterday.
Today I wake up alone. I get up, take a
shower, eat breakfast while reading the paper. Going to work, going
through the motions. Back to as it were. Like nothing ever happened.
Nothing ever changed.
I know things will be better. We will
move on. Things always get better.
I am not angry because you are true to
yourself.
I am not angry because this wasn't the
life for you.
I am not angry you made a decision.
I am not angry at your feelings.
I am not angry your life is leading you
elsewhere.
I am not even angry that I m let
behind.
I am however furious hat you made me
believe this would last.
You said yes. You said let's do it. You
agreed to spend the rest of your life with me. You smiled as you said
so. You laughed. Your eyes were bright. I saw it. I saw your
reaction. I heard those words.
Not even a month ago.
Only until yesterday I guess.