It was a shock to see such a new baby in a dresser drawer. His diaper was in dire need of changing. He couldn't be more than a few weeks old, the newborn blue eyes just staring around and occasionally screwing shut as he began to fuss. Olivia carefully picked him up and looked for diapers and some clothes. She changed him and dressed him before removing her vest and cuddling him to her ample chest as Amanda finally walked into the room.
"Liv, what's going on other than you found a baby?" Amanda's voice nearly whispers as the infant begins to root around the older woman's chest for food.
"He was in the drawer over there, in nothing but an over filled diaper. He's hungry and there are no bottles, would you hold him for a second?" she asks the blonde while gently placing the young infant in her arms. Amanda is shocked when she sees her colleague slipping her shirt up and undoing a nursing bra before taking the infant back and helping him latch on.
"How?" Amanda is stunned, to her knowledge Olivia had never had children therefore could not breastfeed, but the evidence was right in front of her.
"I had a baby once, she was beautiful but SIDS happened. I keep pumping and have a good diet so that I can donate the milk to pre mature babies and babies who don't have parents, like a nursemaid. And whenever I have time I visit them and give skin to skin contact and nurse them. I've been doing it for four years now." Olivia looked down at the baby boy in her arms and smiled as he greedily suckled from her. The senior detective looked at Amanda and nodded to her vest. "Would you call bus and tell them we have a baby boy Doe that needs a checkup and inform them that he is nursing right now?" Amanda just nodded and did as she was told.
"You know I'm sorry to hear about your baby girl Liv, I couldn't imagine that happening to me." Amanda said after she returned to the room in time to watch Olivia detach the infant and put him on her shoulder to burp.
"It nearly broke me, to be honest. But donating the milk makes it a little easier. Therapy really helped me understand that it was absolutely nothing me or my ex did. It just happens sometimes and while it does hurt and that will never go away, one day I may have another child, but for now I try and help other babies have their best chance." Olivia smiled as the small baby let out a big burp and began fussing again. Switching sides, she sat on the bed and watched as he ate his fill, falling asleep while still attached to his savior.