Sailor Moon
Poetry/Romance (G)

Author's notes: This poem is all of Serena/Usagi point of view. A poem about what happens on one of her daily "meeting" with... (well, I'm pretty sure u know!)

I Love To Hate You


I try to stay away
You tease me all the time
You always get to me
In any way, any time

My heart...
why is it beating so wildly?

Then why am i so excited to see you?
Why do i want to be beside you?
Why does all of this have to be so confusing?
What is wrong with me?

It's not like i like you...
right?

My head, body and mind screams "stop thinking of him!"
My heart and soul whispers "don't turn away from him..."
The logical part of me thinks i'm crazy
The other one says i'm crazy about you

Why...
am i thinking of you?

I can't help from shivering when you're near me
I can't get you out of my thoughts
Am i insane or something?
Or am i just afraid?

No, of course not...
but...

My heart murmurs "don't be scare of your true feelings."
My brain shouts "you hate him, he hates you, that's it!"
I hate you, you hate me...
I love to hate you!

But then...
why does it sound so wrong?

My mind says i'm desperate
My soul replies i'm desperately in love
Wait a minute... love?
Where did that word come from?

I'm in love...
with you?

Of all people
It had to be you?
You just had to make me fall for you?
You had to make feel like this?

Why...
didn't i see this sooner?

And here you are right now
Walking up to me
I can't help staring at you
I can see that smirk on your face

Don't...
don't look into his eyes!

But i can't help
Our gazes meet
And i drown myself into your eyes
My knees are giving out

Quick...
say something!

"I love you!"
It appears i have no control over my voice neither
I can hear you gasp
Your gaze's burning me

Did i...
say that out loud?

You must think i'm crazy
I know that you must hate me now
Or worst, you will only laugh at me
And then reject me

I better...
leave before it's too late...

I shouldn't have say it
You must be thinking i'm some ditz
So i turn and walk away
Not wanting to look back

I'm...
afraid of what i might see...

But now i feel warm hands around my waist
Pulling me close to your body
Weird how i fit perfectly in your strong arms
Your lips suddenly pressed against mine

So soft...
so sweet...

When you back away slightly
Our eyes stares in each others
I can then hear you whisper to my ears
"I love you too..."

He loves me...
he loves me!

I loved to hate you
Now i want to hold you
I never thought we could be like this
But here we are, right now

I love you,
you love me...

My heart was right
I can hear it giggling happily
My mind was wrong
But i can almost see it smiling!

My only love
came from the only one
i thought i hated

Vi. Nguyen
9 mars/March 9th 2001