Summary: D'you have a new companion? I bet you do. I hope she's nice…I hope she's worthy…I hope…I hope you can be happy again. I dunno why I'm writing this…someone told me to do it for closure, but I don't think I can ever find that again
Disclaimer: I Don't own Doctor Who
P.S. I Love You
You once said to me "Now forget me Rose Tyler", But how could I? How could I forget someone like you Doctor? Not then and not now. Not after all of this. If I ever knew saying goodbye would be this hard then maybe I never would have said hello. No – that's a lie. I wouldn't have changed it, not a day of it – you know that yeah? You know that you made life worth living…you made it all…bearable?
Here I am pouring my heart out in a letter whilst you swan around the universe in the Tardis, typical isn't it? Yeah well…I guess I should have known. That it couldn't last forever…if I could of known then maybe it wouldn't hurt this much. Sometimes I wake up, and in that tiny moment after sleep and before reality, I forget it all. All the pain, all the loss, I forget it all and its just me and you again. Sounds silly doesn't it…but its true…I live for these moments. But it hurts after…remembering that you're gone…that you aint coming back. You think I'd be used to getting out of bed to face a routine…but I can't hack it. It's just too…final. "Living a life day after day, the one adventure I can never have"…you said that to me once. D'you remember? You can't, you told me…but d'you know what? Neither can I. It hurts too much.
I remember when we met, what you said to me, the way you touched my hand, "I'm the Doctor by the way, what's your name?", I told you it was Rose, "Nice to meet you Rose. Run for your life!". Why can't it have been like that? Why can't it have ended like that? With an adventure…saving the world…sometimes I think death must be better than this…than this constant knowing that you're out there somewhere, living your life…our life.
D'you have a new companion? I bet you do. I hope she's nice…I hope she's worthy…I hope…I hope you can be happy again. I dunno why I'm writing this…someone told me to do it for closure, but I don't think I can ever find that again. I guess I just wanted you to know that I'm alright…I'll be alright. I hope you will too. And I hope we can meet again one day, I know it aint possible…but you're the Doctor…impossible's what you do. But I need this bit of hope to cling to.
So…yeah…guess that's about it. There's so much more I could say but if I start I'll never stop…that's one thing you and mum always agreed on. Well…I'm gunna bury this…you know, message in a bottle and all that. I just hope it reaches you one day…in the future or in the past. If you're ever around drop in for a cuppa yeah? Nothing like a cup of tea to sort this all out…
So, Doctor, I just want you to remember, I don't hate you. It weren't your fault. And no matter what…don't stop. We need you. We need you to save us. I need you to save me.
Well…I guess this is the end…I think I now understand why you never say goodbye. It's too hard…too final. So I won't say it…
See you soon Doctor,
Rose xxxxx
P.S. I love you.