All Hail The Heartbreaker

I turn the faucet, the water now flowing painfully, punishingly hot against my skin.

'I had the notion that you'd make me change my ways
My bad habits would be gone in a matter of days'

He knows.

'I had the feeling that you'd open up my eyes
To a whole new world that had since been in disguise'

He knows how I feel, and the simple truth is he doesn't feel the same way.

'But that day will most likely never come for me
And it's just my luck to end up getting stuck
To everything you are'

He told me so himself, the eyes that I dreamed about filled with pity, a pity that made me want to die right there where I stood.

'So tonight I'll sit and pick apart your pictures
And overanalyze your words'

No, he doesn't love me back, but he does love my best friend, the best friend that I never, ever wanted to hurt, not even when I finally told him the truth.

'But the truth is that I've never fallen so hard'

She's always been there, helping me whenever I need her, regardless of the situation, being a shoulder for me to cry on, a constant source of support.

'It's taking everything in me
Just to forget your sweater so far'

I grimace at the irony.

'I had the notion that you'd make me forget the world'

The one time I'm really, truly bothered by something is the one time I can never, under any circumstances, tell her. Because I know what would happen if I did. Being the awesome and unmatchable friend that she is, she would break up with him.

'I had the feeling that those looks you gave me were real'

Just so that I wouldn't be hurting.

'What if I ripped your heart apart at the seams
Maybe then you'd know how I feel'

Even though it feels like the pain that I'm in right now could kill me.

'I can honestly say
That I never, ever, ever felt this way
Your lips, your eyelashes, your skin
These are the parts of your body
That cause my comatose to begin'

Things are awkward now, now that I'm stuck in this spiral, this spiral of loving him. His eyes, always pitying, avoid me if it's at all possible.

'I will sleep another day
I don't really need to anyway'

I have never regretted anything in my life as much as I do this. I don't want his pity, all I want, right now, is his friendship back.

'What's the point when my dreams are infected
With words you used to say'

His friendship would at least dull the ache that seems to accompany every beat of my heart.

'As long as I keep my distance
I wouldn't want to go messing anything up'

I'm happy for him, truly. He's happy with my best friend, and more importantly, he's making her happy.

'So don't go worrying about me
It's not like I think about you constantly'

Because that is important to me. But I can't help the overwhelming desire I have for their relationship to fail.

'So maybe I do, but that shouldn't affect
Your life anymore'

She's starting to notice something's up though. Starting to notice that I don't talk as much as I used to, that I don't talk or joke with him like I used to.

'I'll let you get the best of me
Because there's nothing else that I do well'

It's difficult. Difficult to try and stay happy in his company when all I can think about is how I wish it were me he was holding, brushing my hair from my face, gently caressing my fingers, almost without realising it.

'Because there's nothing else that I do well
I'll be the giver and you'll be the taker'

I can never not be his friend though. I know that much. I am always going to be his.

'You've got me down on my knees and I proclaim
All hail the heartbreaker'

No matter how much it destroys my heart.

So there you have it, what do you think? I got this idea a couple of hours ago when i was feeling in an angsty mood and listening to music that didn't help with it lol. Please review x