Hello guys. This is my way of dealing with My sister's resent Miscarriage, so if y'all don't like it I'm sorry. This was just for me and my family as a way to help deal but I thought you guys might like it as well. I will be updating my other story in the next few days, I was going to post Friday but had to be at the hospital with my sister... Anyways onto the story, only gonna be a one-shot inless y'all want more... Let me know what you think.
Emily walked into the kitchen, holding her slightly swollen stomach. Spencer sat at the kitchen table, head buried in her paper work. "Spencer, it hurts." Spencer's head shot up from her papers in front of her and turned to her wife. Emily had tears streaming down her face. Spencer quickly moved to her pregnant wife and looked for signs of injuries.
"Emily baby, what hurts. talk to me so I can help you."
Spencer looked down at her wife, placing her hand on Emily's stomach. "I'm bleeding Spence."
Spencer's eyes widened as she took her wife into her arms. "We have to get you to the hospital Emily."Spencer whispered moving to find her keys.
Once Spencer had her keys, she got her wife into their SUV, she ran back inside to get clothes for Emily. Spencer called Pam Fields and their best friends, Hanna and Aria, letting them know to meet them at the hospital. Spencer threw the bag into the back seat and got into the SUV with Emily.
"Everything is gonna be okay baby, your mom is on her way and so is Aria and Hanna."
"Did you call you parents?or sister?"Emily asked through tears.
Spencer shook her head no as she started the car.
After being married for three years, they started trying to get pregnant. They had planned for Spencer to carry their first child so Emily could keep training for the U.S. swim team, but Spencer was unable to have children. It broke her heart that she couldn't give her wife what she wanted, without Emily having to give up her dream of being in the olympics.
Spencer pulled out the driveway and sped towards the ER. Spencer took Emily's hand in her's as she drove. "It hurts so bad Spencer." Emily cried out, gripping Spencer's hand tighter. Spencer pushed her SUV as fast as it would go but it didn't seem fast enough for her. "Why didn't I buy the freaking sports car when I had the chance" Spencer thought to herself.
Spencer sat in the white hospital room with her wife, waiting on the doctor to come back in and tell the two women what was happening.
Spencer got up from the chair next to the bed and climb in the bed with Emily. "I love you Emily, and I will always love you no matter what happens."Spencer said wrapping her arms around Emily, pulling Emily into her. Emily cried harder into her wife's arms. She had never been so scared in her life and had never been in so much pain.
Spencer was just as scared as Emily, maybe even more. Emily was only 13 weeks along, there was still a chance of a miscarriage. Neither women wanted to think along those lines but the thought of a miscarriage was pushing to the front of Spencer's brain.
"I love you too Spencer."Emily whispered as the doctor came into the room, a grI'm expression on her face. Spencer tightened her arms around Emily as the doctor took the seat Spencer had just left.
"Ladies, I want you to know, that you did nothing and this was not your fault."The doctor paused and took Emily's hand. "You had a miscarriage, I'm so sorry. but there is some good news."
Emily buried her head in Spencer's shoulder and cried harder, harder than she ever cried before. Emily had never felt pain like this before, her whole world has just been crushed, she had dreamed of being mother her whole life. She had wanted to give Spencer a child more than anything. She felt like she was in a nightmare, she just wanted to wake up and see Spencer sleeping next to her, instead of Spencer holding back her tears to be strong for her.
"Good news? We just lost our baby and you say theres good news?"Spencer said raising her voice. Spencer didn't mean to raise her voice. She couldn't help it really, it was the Hastings in her. Turn pain into anger, its the Hastings way.
"What caused the miscarriage?"Emily asked, grabbing Spencer's hand to calm her.
"You have RH negative blood, Your donor had RH positive blood, and when your baby's blood entered your circulation, your body seen this as a foreign body, your body developped antibodies against it, the anitbodies attacked your baby's red blood cells, which proved to be fatal."
"We can prevent the development of RH antibodies the next time you get pregnant, by giving you a shot of Rh-immune globulin, that is the good news Mrs. Hastings, this won't prevent you from having children. After three weeks, you can try to get pregnant again, you just have to get s shot as soon as you find out your pregnant again."
Spencer buried her face in her wife's neck, trying her hardest not to cry. Spencer was blaming herself forthe miscarriage, she had be the one to pick the donor. "Why did I pick him? Why didnt I know this could happen?Why didn't I prevert this from happening? Why did I let this happen to my Emmy?" Spencer thought to herself, trying to calm herslef but failing.
"Stop beating yourself up for this Spence, this isn't your fault."Emily whispered into her wife's ear. Emily knew her wife better than she knew herself, she knew Spencer was blaming herself for this, even if they both knew it wasn't her fault.
"I'm going to get your mom okay?"Spencer stood and gave Emily a kiss before leaving the room. She wouldnt let Emily see her cry, she would be strong for Emily. Spencer knew Emily would need her to be strong.
Spencer slowly made her way to the waiting room, where Pam, Aria, Hanna and Spencer's parents were waiting. As soon as Spencer stepped foot into the waiting room, Pam rushed towards her.
"Is my baby girl okay?"She asked.
"She's fine, but she needs you, she had a miscarriage."Spencer whispered tears forming in her eyes.
"It's not fair, how could God do this to her, how could He let people who do drugs, people who don't take care of the kids they already have, have more but my Emily got hers taken away from her. She desvered that baby, that's all she ever wanted, she just wanted to be a mother and God took that away from her. how could He be so crule?"Spencer cried, falling into her mother-in-law's arms.
Pam cried with her daughter-in-law, she believed in God, her faith is one of the only things she was sure of but even she couldn't understand why God would give her baby girl, hope of a child then take it away from her.
"Emily needs you, but please don't tell her about my breakdown."Spencer whispered.
Pam nodded her head and handed Spencer over to her mother.
Pam left the waiting room in search of Emily, while mrs. Hastings held her daughter as she cried."It's gonna be okay baby, Emily's heathy that's all that matters right now."
Spencer shook her head at her mother's words. It wasn't gonna be okay, both women were broken, they lost their first child before then even got to see or hold them. They would never heal from this. They would always be scared, that they'd lose another baby if they were to try again.
Spencer moved from her mom's arms and into Hanna's. "Spencer, I'm so sorry, I can't image what you and Emily are going through but know that Aria and I are here for you."
"Spence, Emily needs you, she doesn't need her mom, she needs her wife, you can't leave her side just cause you don't want her to see you cry. You don't have to strong, you just have to be there for her."Aria said as she wiped her tears away then Spencer's.
Spencer nods her head and removes herself from Hanna's embrace. After getting hugs from Aria and her father, Spencer made her way back to Emily's room.
Emily sat up in her bed, wrapped in her mothers arms. Spencer opened the door and Emily got off the bed and walked into Spencer's waiting arms. "I'm sorry I left Em, I didn't want you to see me break down, I wanted to be strong for you but I know now that I just need to be here for you."Spencer whispered to her wife, kissing her head.
Emily looked up at her wife and wipped away the tears that fell from her eyes. "I wish I could turn back time, and bring our baby back."Spencer paused and placed her hands on Emily's empty stomach. "I wish I could fix the problem, so we could have our baby and be a family, you desever a family Emily and I promise you, you'll have one."
So I'm ending it here, I could write more to it if you guys want. I'm sorry if it wasn't very good. This made my sister and I feel a little better. Anyways let me know what you guys think. Thank you for reading.