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Shopping With Momma Benson

Olivia Stabler had been married to her former partner Elliot Stabler for close to ten years, It had been a long and bumpy road to get them to where they find themselves now.
They have three children. Two girls and boy. Jordan Addison is eight, Peyton Jennifer found herself in the middle at age three and baby Sadie Aurora was just eight weeks old.

It was a Thursday morning Olivia found herself doing the shopping alone without Elliot this week and it was summer vacation so she had all three children with her.

"Mommy!" Jordan yelled in the middle of the candy aisle.
Olivia exhaled a deep breath, hoping he hadn't woken the baby up in the pouch on her chest, once satisfied that he hadn't she looked at him. "Yes, Jordan?"
"Can I please have some candy?"
Olivia was about to reply but Peyton decided to grab something off the shelf and shuck it in to the shopping cart.
"Peyton Jennifer Stabler, stop throwing things in the cart. That's warning number two. One more and you will time out when we get home, young lady," she disciplined the toddler.

"Mommy!..." an impaient Jordan yelled from where he was in the candy isel "Can i have some? Pleaseeeee?!?!" he asked again

"Maybe on the way out Jordan now can you please come over and stand by the cart" Olivia asked already sensing this was doing to be a long and stressful shopping trip. Once again Peyton threw some penguin blanket in the cart and Olivia thought this never going to end.

"Peyton Jennifer thats the last straw... when we get home you are going straight to bed" Olivia scolded her eldest daughter

things were going quite smoothly for all of maybe 3 seconds till Sadie woke up screeming. 'I swear i am never shopping by myself again' Olivia thought.

Finally. Finally. Sadie started quieting down after Olivia sang quietly and soothingly to her, but between Jordan asking for almost everything they walked by and Peyton putting everything else in the cart it was never gonna end. Nothing was gonna make it to the car...That or everything would.

"Payton Jennifer Stabler i swear if you put one more thing into this cart i will smack your bottom""Jordan Addison Stabler get over here right this instant!" Olivia felt like all eyes were on here as she tried to make her way through the Walmart Supercenter.

The mother was so embarrassed, people were staring at her and her children and whispering.
She heard one older lady's comments.
"She can't even handle her own brats."
Olivia was furious. No one calls her children brats. She clenched her fists and took deep breaths. "Mind your own damn business, woman. My children are not brats. They are just normal children," the mother defended her own children.
"Well learn to be a normal mother then."
Olivia shook her head and went in to the next aisle.
"Mommy, can I have a teddy bear?" Jordan asked as Peyton threw one in to the shopping cart for her older brother.
The detective was shaking in frustration and anger. "No, Jordan. Peyton stop throwing stuff in to the cart!" She yelled, in turn waking the baby.
She grabbed out her cell phone and called her husband. She couldn't take it anymore.

"Stabler" Elliot said upon opening his ringing cell phone

"Elliot if you don't get your ass down here i am going to kill you and make it look like an accident" Olivia snarled into her phone

"Wait where are you? What's wrong?" Elliot asked confused

"I am at Walmart. Nothings wrong if you like screaming babies 3 year olds who throw everything in the cart 8 year olds who wont stop asking for shit... Oh and old bitches who cant mind there own god damn bissness" Olivia snapped

"Ok Ok Olivia i will be there as fast as i can babe just breath" Elliot soothed

"Please hurry, El. I'm losing my mind," Olivia begged.
The only times he had heard his wife beg was when she was in labour with each of their children. Especially with Jordan's birth because she didn't know what to expect and she was so scared.

Elliot was already up from his desk and running out of the squad room.. "I'm coming, baby. I'll use the sirens. Take the kids to get some lunch. I'll be there really soon, baby," he promised her.
Olivia could hear her husband running down the stairs and get in to the car before starting up the engine.
"Please hurry, El."
"I am, baby. Take slow deep breaths and stay calm,' he tried to reassure her again.
Olivia nodded and took slow deep breaths before hanging up. "Come on kids," she said taking Peyton out of the shopping cart and put her on the floor, taking her hand in her bigger one. "Let's go grab some lunch. Daddy is on his way to eat with us."

The mother was on the verge of pulling her own hair out as she tried to get the kids seated at a table.
"Jordan. Peyton sit down," Olivia stressed.
"Mommy, can't reach," Peyton said, reaching up to her mother.
Olivia sighed and picked up the toddler before sitting her down on a seat.. "Jordan, sit down. How many times do I need to tell you?"
Jordan was in his own little world. Something had caught his eye and he began to follow it, only to be lifted up off the floor.
He screamed, right in to his mom's ear.
She wanted to block her ears but she was not going to release her son. "Jordan! Stop screaming!" She had to yell over his screaming.
The brunette sat the child down only for him to try jump off the chair again. "Jordan! Do as you're told!"
Olivia could feel eyes on her. People were watching her trying to tame two young children, while carrying a baby in a carrier on her chest, who was screaming from the noise and tension.
The mother was going out of her mind. Where was her husband? She needed him right now.

Olivia's P.O.V.

I had been sitting at his table for over 20 minutes and Elliot still wasn't here yet. I thought i was going to lose my mind, Peyton wouldn't stop singing some song about 5 spekled frogs, Jordan was staring off into space about something, Sadie was still crying in her carrier and my ear was still ringing from Jordan screaming in my ear. I finally felt like eyes were off me untill Peyton saw someone with chocolate cake and God forgid she stay quiet about it.

"Mommy. Mommy! Cake. Chocolate cake!" Peyton yelled as she jumped up and down in the booth next to me.

"Peyton Jennifer Staber sit your little butt down before i smack it" I threatened to try to get her to shut her mouth

"BUT MOMMY!" she cried

"Peyton i promise if you sit down now i will buy you some cake when your father gets here. After you finish your lunch." I promised but made sure she knew she had to eat her lunch.

"Fine" she pouted showing her Benson-Stabler attitude, which made me smile for the first time today.

If Elliot isn't here soon i am going to rip off balls and feed them to him.

The screaming in my ear from Sadie was driving me up the wall. I decided to try humming to her. It was just not working. "It's ok, Sadie. It's ok, sweetie," I cooed to my child.
"Daddy!" Both Jordan and Peyton called out in unison and jumped off the seats.
I turned around to see my husband. He had finally come….And he was smiling. The smug bastard.
"Liv, it's ok, baby," he spoke softly to me and gathered me in a loving hug, being careful of Sadie.
He pulled back and he could see the tears I wax trying to hide from him.
"Hey. Hey, it's ok, Livvy," he tried to assure me but it just was not working.
He kept telling me that I probably had Post Natal Depression and should see the doctor but I refused to believe the fact. I didn't have it after I had Jordan or Peyton so I was certain that I did not have it now.
I undone the buckles on the carrier and passed Sadie to him. "Here take her. I can't calm her down," I said, passing our youngest child to him.
Elliot delicately took our eight week old daughter. "Ok, baby. I got her. Can you calm down for me?…Take slow deep breaths."
"I…I can't. Jordan! Peyton! Get back here!" I scream as they start to wander off.
The thought of losing Elliot or one of the kids, scared me so much I was scared I would have a heart attack. I knew for a fact that I could not live without any of them. They were my life. My everything….But right now, I needed some time to myself because I lost it completely.
I shake my head and put my hands up in front of me as I exhale a deep breath that I didn't know I was holding
"I…I can't. Elliot. I…I got…gotta get ou…outta here," I stuttered anxiously and run out towards the main entrance. I needed fresh air and I needed it right now before I could pass out.

I stand outside, leaning against an exterior wall, leaning down with my hands on my thighs as I took slow deep breaths, in an attempt to calm myself. What was I thinking? Having three kids…I couldn't handle it, I hadn't even been ready for Jordan. He had been a surprise. When I finally got the hang of bringing up one child, I found out I was pregnant again. Only to discover I was pregnant with Sadie when I was finally handling just two children. I was losing my mind with three. Knowing my luck by the time I can handle it, I will only discover I am pregnant with baby number four. I can just see it. Why stop the trend now?
"Liv?"
I look up to see my husband with all three of our beautiful children, acting the way they were supposed to be. Jordan walking along side , Peyton on the other side, holding his hand and my precious baby Sadie happily cooing in the carrier on Elliot's chest.

"How come they cant act like that for me? Why does Jordan walk right next to you with out running off? Why does Peyton walk hand in hand with you witout trying to pull away? Why does Sadie sit there perfectly cooing at herself without screaming in your ear. How come? How come? HOW COME?" I heard myself crying into my husbands side "It's just not fair, they were horrible for me yelling crying and screaming, It's just NOT FAIR" I heard my self go on but it was like i was a 3rd person hearing it, it didn't feel like i was saying it.

"Livvy calm down why dont you head home, take a bath, get some rest, and i will take the kids with me and do the shopping this week, Ok?" Elliot offered

"Ok" I wimpered calming down "but i want to take one of them home, I want Sadie or Peyton" I said trying to breath deeply

"Are you sure baby?" Elliot asked me with unsertanty

"YES!" I demanded as i stomped my foot like a 3 year old throughing a fit. " I want one of my babies to take home and cuddle with" I told him

"Baby, our. You want one of our babies, right?"Elliot asked me

"Yes El I want to take one of our babies with me" I fixed my mistake that iknow hurt my husband of almost 10 years.'Hey! Almost 10 years...our anniversery! Saturday! Saturday is out anniversery Fuck! I forgot! I cant lethim know, I will plan something tomorrow while he is at work.'

Finally after what seemed like an eternity, Elliot finally gave me Sadie. "Here, take Sadie. She'll probably be hungry very soon, baby," he offered, softly.
I smiled slightly, tiredly and gave him a kiss quick, lightly on the lips. "Thank you. I'm sorry, I'm such a mess."
Elliot shook his head and gave me a kiss in return. Just as soft and loving. "No, baby. It's ok. You grew up an only child where I was the oldest of five. I've had more experience, baby."
I nod exhaustedly. "I better take Sadie home. She'll be wanting her next feed really soon and I'm uncomfortable…Too much milk," I said quietly, so no-one could hear.
Elliot nodded and gave me another kiss, careful not to hit my tender breasts. "We'll be home in a few hours. Feed Sadie, have a bath and a sleep, ok?"
I nodded back. "I love you," I said and headed to my car.
"I love you too," I hear Elliot say. "Come on, kids," he added afterwards.

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I was a block away from home when Sadie started to cry, hungrily in her seat in the back. I took a quick glance in to the rear view mirror and see my precious baby kicking her legs frantically with angry fists waving around as her belly convulsed with her screams.
"It's ok, princess. We are nearly home and I'll feed you as soon as we get inside, Sadie," I try to calm her but it doesn't help.

'Is Elliot the only one who can sooth her?' I thought I mean really? When will I be able to? I half-heartedly laughed. Then yawned Goodness I was tired. I finally got home with Sadie still crying hungrily. She was still kicking her legs and it was starting to hurt. "Goodness baby what's with you today? Huh? Are you a tired hungry baby? Huh? Is that what's wrong? I know. I know. Its rough being so little" I tried to sooth her as she cried some more "I know baby just way one moment baby I need to go to the bathroom" I sighed as I tried to calm down my youngest and smallest baby girl

"Baby I will feed you just as soon as I get you changed ok? I don't think you want to lounge around in a stinky diaper. Do you?" As if she understood me Sadie Giggled and kicked her legs as she waved her hands around

"I didn't think so my beautiful baby girl" I cooed as I tickled her belly and she squealed happily and kicked her legs and waved her arms even harder

"Ok baby now lets get you fed. You are hungry right?" I couldn't help but laugh as she squealed again as continued to kick her legs and waved her arms, which hit me in the face, but I was in such a great mood I could care less. I finally got into the nursery and sat down in the rocking chair and then it happened. She burped loudly I might add which made her make the cutest face like she didn't know what that was then start laughing which I couldn't help but laugh at as she squealed.

'Now how about we get you fed and down for a nap, Huh?"

I move my top and bra and guide Sadie to my breast. She immediately latched on and started to suckle hungrily, as she hummed and cuddled against me.
"I see….I get you now, baby girl. You were grumpy because we were out in a noisy place. You like to chill at home with Mommy. I'm starting to learn, Sadie. You're so different to how Jordan and Peyton were but I am learning, princess," I said, softly.
Sadie looked up at me uninterested. It seemed like she didn't care what I had to say as long I provided the milk.
I caressed her little chubby and started gently rocking back and forth as I hummed her favourite lullaby.

Sometime later, I noticed that my precious baby girl had stopped suckling and had lost suction. I look down to see her fighting sleep. I laugh softly as I moved her up to my shoulder and fix my bra and top.
"Just give mommy a burp and then you can sleep off the full belly," I whispered and start to softly pat her back.
She lets out a loud burp and her eyes flutter shut, seconds before her breathing evens out.
"Ok, nap time, baby girl," I said and gently get up out of the rocking chair.

I gently set Sadie in her carrier and put it on the bathroom floor facing the tub so I would know if she woke up while I was laying in the bath I was about to draw. I finally got into the steaming water and settled down, I soon was to tired to stay awake so I got out of the tub dried my self off and got into my pajamas. I took Sadie out of the carrier and cuddled her next to me as I laid on my back. I was almost asleep when I heard the front door open and Jordan and Peyton run in I could tell Elliot let Jordan get the candy he wanted-and possibly more-and of course that meant Peyton got a toy…or candy as well and I'm almost positive that they are bouncing off the wall.

"Hey baby lets just lay here and sleep while daddy takes care of your brother and sister ok?" I cooed at my beautiful sleeping baby girl and smiled. About 5 minutes later I heard Elliot open the bedroom door.

"El?" I quietly called out

"Hey baby what's going on?" He asked me as he sat down on the corner of the bed

"Baby I don't wanna get up, Please let me sleep here with Sadie. Please you go play with Jordan and Peyton. Let me sleep PLEASE!" I begged to tired to get up

"Alright baby, I'll go play you sleep and I will wake you before dinner ok?" He asked me softly

"ok babe. I Love You! Tell Peyton and Jordan I said I would be out later." I called softly as he closed the door and I yawned again as my eyes drifted shut and I drifted into la la land.

I don't know how long I had been asleep for when I was woken by the cries of my youngest daughter and the feel of the bed bouncing.
"What the hell?!" I screeched, startled.
I picked Sadie up and started to rock her before looking up to see both Jordan and Peyton jumping up and down on the bed.
"Mommy!" Peyton said, forgetting to use her inside voice.
I exhaled a deep breath. "Peyton, use your inside voice and stop jumping the pair of you. Where is your father?" I asked.
Elliot had promised to let me sleep and judging by the time on the alarm clock I had only slept for maybe half an hour.
The kids stopped jumping and looked at me and Sadie, who was finally beginning to go back to sleep.
"He's asleep on the couch," Jordan informed me.
I groaned.
In the last few months, he has much twice as much sleep as me and he couldn't even do me that small favour. He couldn't even take care of Jordan and Peyton, while I got some much needed sleep and spend time with Sadie. I hadn't really had much time to take care of myself after birth or spend some alone time with Sadie besides when I nurse her, change or bath her.

I felt like I was a single parent a lot of the time unless the kids went crazy and I called Elliot. I seriously needed to sit down with him and talk, No I don't need talking I need mediating. This was crazy I can't take care of all three kids by my self. I wonder if I should call us Casey…Hmm… That's not a bad idea, Then again she did lose her job and move and…

"Mommy!" Peyton yelled as he and Jordan started jumping on the bad pulling me out of my reveries.

"Peyton Jennifer Stabler Stop yelling before I put you in time out and both of you stop jumping on the bed unless you want to go to bed now." I threatened trying to gain some control. They finally stopped jumping right when Sadie started crying, really? I thought I mean does anything ever go smoothly in this house? I groaned and decided it was time to feed Sadie give her a bath and lay her down for the night, because she will surely be up at one. And that's when she let out a high-pitched cry and she kicked her legs and shook her little fists at me, and that's when I knew if I didn't feed her soon I might be looking forward to a night of crying and squealing.

"Mommy I'm hungry!" Jordan called from the door

"Alright go wake up your father and ask him to order in, what do you want?" I asked my eldest child. He hemmed and hawed for a couple seconds then looked over at his younger sister, and as if planned they both yelled

"Chinese!" I was so glad they had mine and Elliot acquired taste at such a young age and liked Chinese and now pizza. God I can't stand pizza. Before I got caught up in my thoughts again I started talking to my two eldest kids.

"Alright go tell you father that that's what we want while I help Sadie" And again as if on cue she cried and squealed and her body shook with anger. Goodness she got my stubbornness and Elliot's anger. Such a great mix in personality-Yet she looks like the spitting image of me.

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I was sitting in the rocking chair nursing Sadie when I heard the door to the nursery open. I turned my head a little and saw my husband enter.
I turn my head back to look out the window at the beautiful view of the sunset. I wasn't in the mood to talk to Elliot right now. I was just too tired and drained.
"Liv?" I heard him call out very softly. Cautiously.
I sighed and gently rubbed Sadie's chubby little arm. "What do you want, Elliot?" I asked simply, not taking my eyes away from the sunset.
I heard my lover sigh and he crept closer to me. He leaned against the changing table and looked down at me. I could see the sadness in his face in the corner of my eye.
"What, Elliot? I have things to do."
"Baby, I'm so sorry for falling asleep and letting the kids run in to the bedroom. I was just so tired," he tried to explain to me, but I just didn't want to listen to his crap right now.
"Well I've had half the amount of sleep you've had, Elliot. Did you think about that?!"
"You don't have to work, Olivia. You stay home all day. You don't work from seven in the morning till sometimes eleven in the evening. You don't know!" Elliot yelled at me.
I can't believe he just yelled at me. The first time in our entire marriage. And how dare he think I don't know. Being a mother and staying at home with three children, one being an eight week old, is not easy. He doesn't know.

"I don't know? I don't know Elliot? I DO KNOW! I use to work at SVU Elliot and your right I don't work seven in the morning till sometimes 11 at night. You wanna know what? I do work I am always working with the children at home, one being only 8 weeks old and you know what Elliot? I don't need crap from you just because you're a little cranky ok? I have a baby to deal with right now. And don't say you understand because you don't. You never will!" I yelled at him as Sadie finished and started to cry as did I. I assume Elliot saw this cause he reached up and tried to wipe away a stray tear of my face as she whispered he was sorry, I had enough of it I pulled away.

"No Elliot" I said turning to fix my shirt and to burp my baby girl. So he tried again he reached for Sadie and I just wasn't having that either. I turned so he couldn't get to her.

"Elliot stop I am spending time with her right now, I am going to go give her a bath and lay her down." I said as I walked out the door "you know what scratch that I am going out and I am taking her with me. Elliot I just think we need a night apart, if you wanna keep Jordan and Peyton with you fine but I am taking Sadie with me and your not going to stop me" called as I walked away. He walked into the bedroom and sat on the bed as I changed Sadie's diaper on a little changing pad.

"Liv I understand what you're saying and please believe me when I say I am sorry angel. I'm sure if you don't mind that Peyton would love to come with you. Angel why don't you take the girls and get a hotel room for the night you guys have fun and hang out together you guys have a girly night and me and Jordan will do the same thing, k?" I heard him ask as I sighed

"Ok El. I'm sorry if I am being crazy but…" I was cut off by Elliot

"No angel your being perfectly honest and that's what I love, I'll go get Peyton's stuff packed you and Sadie go sit with the kids. You go tell Peyton you are gonna have a sleep over in the hotel, It's still early I think Jordan and I will go buy some movies. You just go let the gang what we are doing ok angel?" He suggested "DAMN!" She exclaimed after that

"What's wrong?" I asked confused

"Dickie and Lizzie are suppose to be here in like 10 minutes it's my weekend with them" He stated and I believe he was cursing himself under his breath

"El calm down you keep Dickie and I'm sure Lizzie wouldn't mind coming and hanging out with Peyton Sadie and I." I said as I kissed his cheek and walked out of the room.

I must have fallen asleep on the couch because I woke to my husband gently shaking me and whispering, "Baby, you guys better get going before it gets too late."
I cleared my throat and opened my eyes, tiredly. I saw Sadie already ready in her carrier, which could be slotted in to it's base in the case and Peyton was standing beside Sadie, holding Lizzie's hand. All three waiting patiently to go.
Elliot must have taken Sadie from my arms while I was sleeping and I hadn't noticed because I was so exhausted.
I got up from the couch and gave Elliot a kiss on the cheek. "Thanks, Elliot."
"No problem, angel. Call me when you get there, so I know that you arrived safely," he whispered, resting his forehead against mine.
I nodded. "I will," I replied and pulled away. "Come on, girls."
I picked up Sadie in her seat and the four of us headed out to the car.
I wondered what this break was going to do for me and Elliot, but I really needed the break. I needed a very long sleep and I want to cuddle up with my girls.

I look over at my step daughter in the passenger seat. "Lizzie, you sure you're ok with coming? You could have stayed with your dad and brothers," I offered because I know the two of us hadn't always gotten along well.
I heard her sigh. "Yes, mom. I wanted to come. I know I'm not always the best step daughter but I do love you."
I smile and wiped away a fresh tear from my cheek. "I love you too, honey. Just as much as I love Jordan, Peyton and Sadie," I promised her.

"Liv you know I considered you a mother maybe not a biological mother but you have always been a mom to me. Always. I mean you way more of a mother than mine, Livia I uh I kinda need to tell you something, but if I tell you know you have to promise and I mean promise that you will leave it be until tomorrow when we are done with this girly night ok?" I heard Lizzie ask and I was getting nervous

"You know I don't normally make promises like this but for you honey I will ok?" I decided

"Liv, my mom she well her boy friend kinda well you know" Lizzie said not able to actually admit it

"Lizzie, Does he touch you?" I asked as I stopped the car

"Yes" I barley heard her whisper as she started to sob silently God Lord how was I going to handle this…

"It's ok Honey I promised now lets go try to enjoy out night together ok Girlie?" I asked trying to hold back my tears that were threatening to fall

"ok" I heard he reply I smiled

"Lizzie?" I asked her

"Hmm?" she asked looking over at me

"I love you" I confidently told her

"I love you too Livvy" She replied and hugged me