Honestly people, this pairing needs more attention… please to other authors, do more fics!

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Rated T for now... Ratings might go up in the next chapters.

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My Own Little Issues

Prologue: Little Boy Issues

Ryder POV

How random will it be to have a crush on a person just because he noticed something and helped you with a small problem… okay, let's say a big problem! Would that be enough? Will that be alright? Well to be frank, I do not have any idea. But right now I'm heading to practice with high hopes to find him there. And to be honest I wish a certain someone isn't clinging to him weather it a blonde bitch or a brunet sweetheart.

The New Directions… also known as the McKinley high glee club.

I made my way inside the door and scan the surroundings a little. 'There he is.' I thought as I spotted my half white half black friend. And to be honest that word sucks. I smiled and made my way to the chair next to him. Only to be bypassed by a tiny blonde bitch.

"Kitty, that seat is kinda taken." I said as I reached it.

"Sorry beach boy, I don't see your name on it." She replied, while checking out her nails.

"Kitty that seat is really taken. I promised Ryder I'll help him with something so…"

"Alright I get it. I guess I'm just too good for you two." She said as she left to sit at the back.

"Hi." I said as I sat down. "So… are you doing something later?" I asked, I really don't know why but I feel really nervous just by asking that question.

"Sorry bro I'm hanging out at Marley's tonight." He said smiling at the word Marley, which in turn, left me feeling like a brick fell and hit me clean on my head.

"Oh, Ha,ha… I just thought we can hang out later. I guess I'll just wait some other time." I said scratching the back of my head.

"Don't worry bro we'll hangout sometime." He said punching my shoulder lightly.

"I'll be looking out for it." I smiled; well tried! Then right on cue Marley came and sat on Jake's other side, which made Jake's entire attention shift to her. Sucks, well Marley's my friend, I mean I kissed her and almost asked her out, but I can't really help the annoying feeling I have for her right now. It almost seems like I hate her a little bit.

"Hey Ryder! I was just wondering… would you want to hang out with us later?" Marley asked looking a little nervous.

"Sure why not?" I smiled, which made her smile in return.

"Thanks Ryder! I swear you won't regret it."

"Looks like we're going to hang out after all." Jake said. And then the other glee club members showed up one by one.

To be honest we did a lot of things in glee club today… I swear Finn pushed us really hard. And I really don't know why, but I can't seem to focus on my singing more today. Especially when I feel my nose blowing smoke, because Marley is sitting near (a little too near in my opinion) Jake and trying to share a single music sheet with him. And I still can't seem to put my mind on how I ended up being left out here in the front row, while they're in the back.

And man! How I hate myself for being angry over something this little.

Since I already told everyone I can't read music sheets, they didn't bother to reprimand me for not having my own; which is also the main reason I want some time with Jake later. To ask him to teach me to read it since technically only Finn and he know about my dyslexia and Finn is always busy… I can only ask him.

Sadly he is busy with Marley.

"Oh, looks like someone is having Jealousy attacks." I heard an annoying teeny-tiny voice behind me.

"Kitty, please leave me alone, I'm trying to study the song." I said pinching the bridge of my nose (since when did I developed this?)

She just scoffed and said, "Tell that to yourself." She rolled her eyes. "That's what you get for making me leave that seat earlier." She said as she moved away.

"Bitch." I muttered under my breath. 'I wouldn't be jealous if both you and Marley leave my Jake alone.' I thought. And since when is Jake my Jake?

"Hey what are you talking about with Kitty?" Jake smiled.

"She assumed I'm jealous with you and Marley." I said.

"Are you?" He asked.

"Not really something I won't be able to manage." I smiled. 'If only you knew.'

"If only I knew what?" He asked.

"Did I say that out loud?"

"Uh, yeah, man."

"Sorry, it's just… my head is not working properly right now… so uhm… Can we just talk later?"

"Fine, man; but you'll be telling me that later. No excuses!" He said as he return to Marley.

'Tonight is going to be a long night…" I thought.

(Marley's house)

"Why is she here?" I asked as I stared at an uninvited visitor.

"Well, she is my friend." Marley said. "So I invited her."

"What's the problem, Ryder?" Kitty asked.

"Nothing." I hissed.

"Hmmm, I smell something weird." She said.

"Uhm, hey wanna order some pizza?" Marley aked.

"I call pepperoni!" Jake shouted from the sofa.

"Nice! Ryder, could you please help me bring out the sodas." Marley asked me.

"Sure." I said as we walked to the kitchen.

"Just take two 1.5s (coke) there." She said, pointing at the fridge. I took two ice cold 1.5 bottles; I settled them on the kitchen table as I waited for her to get three glasses from the cabinet.

"Be careful around her." I said.

"Who?" She asked while trying to close the cabinet door using her feet(she was holding a tray with three glasses). I hurriedly come to her rescue and closed the door for her.

"Kitty."

"Why? She's my friend." She said as she went out the door.

"Just be careful." I said as I picked the two bottles up and followed her outside.

"Hey, what took you so long?" Jake asked narrowing his eyes at us.

"Well, Marley thought that closing a cabinet using her foot is efficient." I said, making Jake laugh. Oh, how I love that laugh…

"Hey, it worked nicely in the past." Marley said defensively; making Jake laugh harder.

Then that feeling that I hate came back… jealousy.

"Hey, try to control the glare; you might kill them with it." Kitty whispered with a smirk.

"I don't know what the hell you're talking about." I replied.

"Oh, your jealousy is evident in it."

"It's not that I'm jealous I… just think that I found them being together unnerving."

"So you are jealous."

"Don't put the words in my mouth. You might get me in trouble."

"Clever come back for a D-grade idiot." Kitty said as she left towards them. And I hate to admit it, but that will leave a mark.

I swallowed my breath and counted to three before I bolted towards the kitchen. I locked the door and sat on one of the two chairs. I tried to contain my tears but the fell anyway.

The words, a lot of words with the same meaning swarmed around my mind. Idiot, D-grade, dummy, dumb, Mr. F-tastic, pea-brain, STUPID, DISSAPOINTMENT, FAILURE…

Every word I heard from others, since my childhood; all of them came back at that single moment. Then I heard something, a strange sound, a sound filled with pain, the sound that happen to be sobs coming from me.

"Hey!" I heard a voice accompanied by hard knocking on the door. "Hey, man you okay in there?" Great, just great; it's the last person I was hoping to see right now. "Hey Marley do you have a key for the kitchen?" With that I ran towards the door.

"What?" I asked peeking on the slightly open door.

"Just calling you. The pizza is here."

"Oh, thanks."

"Here." He said handing me a packet of tissues. "Dry your face. You'll look like a dweeb if you face the girls looking like that." He said without looking at me.

"T-thanks." I said as I took it.

"I heard what Kitty said. Don't take it to heart, she was born only with an accelerator, I think the breaks got lost somewhere during delivery." He said, making me laugh.

"Thanks for that." I said as I wiped my face with the tissues.

"Come on, I'm hungry."

"Yeah, me too."

As we got out of the door we only spotted a single person there. A blonde one at that.

"Hey, where's Marley?"

"Oh, she's out there retrieving the poor pizza from the ugly delivery man." Kitty replied, not looking away from her magazine.

"Hey guys! Here it is!" Marley said as she emerges from the front door, pizza on hand.

"Finally!" Kitty said, as she stood up to open the box and take a slice. "By the way I already filled two glasses with soda."

Due to my doubt of Kitty's true nature, I took one glass before Marley took it. "You snooze you lose!" I said as I gulp it all in one go… which made Kitty stood up and tried to stop me. But sadly she wasn't fast enough.

"No fair." Marley said pouting.

And since all of the girls' attention is on me, they didn't notice Jake drinking the other glass.

"NO!" Kitty shouted. "Those were meant for me and Marley!"

"Forget it Kitty we can pour some of our own…" Marley said, before her phone rang. "…after we run an errand." She said as she took off, Kitty on tow.

"Looks like it's just you and me bro." Jake said as he took two slices of pizza.

"Guess so."

"I wonder what we could do here to lessen the boredom."

"Wait you were bored?" I asked. "There were two hot girls here a little while ago and you're telling me you're bored."

"Do you see humps on those two?" He asked putting his foot on the table. "I like Marley's personality and Kitty's face and confidence… but they're not the kind that takes away boredom."

"Oh, and what does take away your boredom?" I asked nonchalantly.

"A nice good looking blonde that sucks like a bitch and likes being fucked like a whore." He said with a smirk.

"Does she have to have big boobs?"

"No, but that's a bonus."

"I see… but does she need to have long hair?"

"Not really." He said drinking from his glass again. "How about you dude? How do you like your chicks?"

"Uhm…" I said blushing like an idiot. "It's gotta have a good personality, well… something like that. I mean it could be an asshole at times, but it's always there when you need it. It has a nice laugh, it's good looking, yes, but he keeps things to itself that only I know. It's brown skinned, dark haired and awesome." I smiled at the last word.

"Are we talking about a person or an object?"

"A person obviously."

"Then why do you use it?"

"Because if I use the correct gender, you'll know who it is."

"Haha," He laughed. "Well if you said he, then all of those things falls to me."

"Why would it be you?" I laughed. Well I tried but I don't know why but I suddenly cried. "It, it is you…" I said, sobbing. 'Why the hell am I doing this now?' I thought.

"What?" he replied.

"I-I sa-said I like you… a lot." I said wiping my tears with the tissues he gave me earlier. "I'm sorry…"

"I get it." He said as if he figured out something. "You're just confused because I helped you one time… or you just want a taste of a Puckerman." He smirked.

"N-no. I really like you."

"Let's see if you still like me after this." He said before he punched me. I fell hard on the floor, and before I got up, he sat on top of me.

"Jake! What are you doing?" I asked trying to get away from him. He just pushed me harder.

"Maybe after this you'll never think you like me again." He said before he kissed me. The kiss made me scared… it was forced, hard, and painful, due to the bites. I'm a football player; I should have been stronger physically, but… I can't move, my energy is soo drained; I couldn't help but just submit.

"Jake please stop this." I said as the kiss ended. "Not this way…" I said sobbing harder.

"You… really like me." He said as realization finally hit him. "I-I'm sorry I thought you were joking…" He said as he pulled me up and hug me, I cried like a child on his shoulder, feeling like an idiot, and feeling so low that even the guy I like thinks my confession was a joke.

Then right there and then both Marley and Kitty burst through the door shouting at each other… until they saw us on an odd position.

Okay soo… this is just a taste… please review or follow if you wanna see more… I need your opinion.

But flames won't be allowed.